Desolation Angels (1965)

This is my most favorite Kerouac book ( )

Kerouac's best. ( )

At the time Jack Kerouac wrote “Desolation Angels”, it was four years before he would die at 47 in Florida after a lifetime of alcoholism, and eight to nine years since he had lived the adventures in the book. It opens with him alone atop Desolation Peak as a fire lookout, follows him through wild times with his friends in San Francisco, New York, Mexico City, and Tangiers, and ends with the publishing of his book “On the Road”, which had been rejected for years.

Despite what seems like would be a triumphant story, at this point Kerouac has been disillusioned on all fronts: with the ennui of solitude, the monotony of his partying, and with the growing popularity of the ‘beat’ movement with the mainstream who were not genuine or true to its roots. One feels through these pages that Kerouac is not much longer for this world, and despite his joy for life, there is a depressing aspect throughout. Kerouac lived his life as he wrote, with abandon, honesty, and a depth of feeling, but at this point he is burnt out and suffering the effects of alcohol and drug abuse.

There are several moments in the book when I cringed and thought “Oh, Jack”, wishing he could have settled down, but at the same time knowing he would not have been who he was had he been able to do that. One of the low points is in Mexico City, and as in the book Tristessa (separately reviewed), I wish he had avoided going down there altogether, although at one point he does explain his motivation, that “these are people who have heart.” However, having him describe sex with a 14 year old prostitute for the equivalent of 24 cents is painful. The book is not always for the faint of heart, but outside of the beginning chapters which are a little slow, it’s a fascinating read.

There is a freedom to Kerouac’s life that is piercing. He rambled through the world without fear of what the next day would bring or how he appeared to others. And he lets it rip in telling the story; it’s full throttle, and with no editing. He doesn’t sugar coat or romanticize his experiences or feelings, yet at the same time displays a tolerance and a purity of heart that is endearing. One of the late chapters explaining his love for his saint of a mother, hardly a “cool” thing to do in an era with the mantra “Don’t trust anyone over 30”, is heart-warming.

He is also keenly attuned to animals and to his friends who are all here, thinly guised under different names: Allan Ginsberg (Irwin Garden), Neal Cassady (Cody Pomeray), Gregory Corso (Raphael Urso), and William S. Burroughs (Bull Hubbard), among others. It’s not a book about the famous people he runs into by any means, but I found his descriptions of meeting with Salvador Dali and William Carlos Williams in the final chapters very interesting. Aside from Joyce Johnson (Alyce Newman), who is an absolute angel (and who writes the introduction), we see all of Kerouac’s friends as deeply flawed, and yet also see a magic time in America, when this rag-tag group of psychedelic mad poets was a decade ahead of its time. We also see why Kerouac loved these people and the life he chose, even though it led to his sadness, and ultimately destroyed him at an early age.

Quotes:
On the environment:
“As far as I can see and as I am concerned, this so-called Forest Service is nothing but a front, on the one hand a vague Totalitarian governmental effort to restrict the use of the forest to people, telling them they cant camp here or piss there … secondly it’s a front for the lumber interests, the net result of the whole thing being, what with Scott Paper Tissue and such companies logging out these woods year after year with the ‘cooperation’ of the Forest Service which boasts so proudly of the number of board feet in the whole Forest … result, net, is people all over the world are wiping their ass with the beautiful trees…”

On fame:
“I was a hardy son of a sun in those days, only 165 pounds and would walk miles with a full pack on my back, and rolled my own cigarettes, and knew how to hide comfortably in riverbottoms or even how to live on dimes and quarters – Nowadays, after all the horror of my literary notoriety, the bathtubs of booze that have passed through my gullet, the years of hiding at home from hundreds of petitioners for my time … I got to look like a Bourgeois, pot belly and all, that expression on my face of mistrust and affluence … But in those days, only five years ago, I looked wild and rough –They surrounded me with two squad cars.
They put spotlights on me standing there in the road in jeans and workclothes, with the big woeful rucksack a-back, and asked: - ‘Where are you going?’ which is precisely what they asked me a year later under Television floodlights in New York, ‘Where are you going?’ – Just as you cant explain to the police, you cant explain to society ‘Looking for peace.’”

“Later I’m back in New York sitting around with Irwin and Simon and Raphael and Lazarus, and now we’re famous writers more or less, but they wonder why I’m sunk now, so unexcited as we sit among all our published books and poems, tho at least, since I lived with Memiere in a house of her own miles from the city, it’s a peaceful sorrow. A peaceful sorrow at home is the best I’ll ever be able to offer the world, in the end, and so I told my Desolation Angels goodbye. A new life for me.”

On freedom:
“Hold still, man, regain your love of life and go down from this mountain and simply be – be –be the infinite fertilities of the one mind of infinity, make no comments, complaints, criticisms, appraisals, avowals, sayings, shooting stars of thought, just flow, flow, be you all, be you what it is … So shut up, live, travel, adventure, bless and dont be sorry.”

On friendship:
“Funny how Cody never comes to poetry readings or any of these formalities, he only came once, to honor Irwin’s first reading, and when Irwin had finished howling the last poem and there was a dead silence in the hall it was Cody, dressed in his Sunday suit, who stepped up and offered his hand to the poet (his buddy Irwin with whom he’d hitch hiked thru the Texases and Apocalypses of 1947) – I always remember that as a typical humble beautiful act of friendship and good taste…”

On love of fellow man, and the human condition:
“…I only know one thing: everybody in the world is an angel, Charley Chaplin and I have seen their wings, you dont have to be a seraphic little girl with a wistful smile of sadness to be an angel, you can be a broadstriped Bigparty Butch sneering in a cave, in a sewer, you can be monstrous itchy Wallace Beery in a dirty undershirt, you can be an Indian woman squatting in the gutter crazy, you can even be a bright beaming believing American Executive with bright eyes, you can even be a nasty intellectual in the capitals of Europe but I see the big sad invisible wings on all the shoulders and I feel bad they’re invisible and of no earthly use and never were and all we’re doing is fighting to our deaths –
Why?”

On lust:
“(The amazing thing about the Arab prostitute is to see her remove her veil from over her nose and then the long Biblical robes, suddenly leaving nothing but a peachy wench with a lascivious leer and high heels and nothing else – yet on the street they look so mournfully holy, those eyes, those dark eyes alone in all that chastest cloth…)”

On meaninglessness:
“All the saints have gone to the grave with the same pout as the murderer and the hater, the dirt doesn’t discriminate, it’ll eat all lips no matter what they did and that’s because nothing matters and we all know it –
But what we gonna do?”

On nature:
“To sleep is like a prayer, but under the stars, if you wake up at night, at 3 A.M., you’ll see what a big beautiful Heavenly Milky Way room you’re sleeping in, cloudy-milk with a hundred thousand myriads of universes, and more, the number is unbelievably milky, no Univac Machine with the brainwash mind can measure that extent of our reward that we see up there –
And the sleep is delicious under stars, even if the ground is humpy you adjust your limbs to it, and you feel the earth-damp but it only lulls you to sleep, it’s the Paleolithic Indian in all of us – The Cro-Magnon or Grimaldi Man, who slept on the ground, naturally, and often in the open, and looked at the stars on his back and tried to calculate the dipankara number of them…”

On non-conformity:
“And also dont think of me as a simple character – A lecher, a ship-jumper, a loafer, a conner of old women, even of queers, an idiot, nay a drunken baby Indian when drinking – Got socked everywhere and never socked back (except when young tough football player) – In fact, I dont even known what I was – Some kind of fevered being different as a snowflake. … In any case, a wondrous mess of contradictions (good enough, said Whitman) but more fit for Holy Russia of 19th century than for this modern America of crew cuts and sullen faces in Pontiacs…”

On porn:
“In the paper store my God a thousand girlie books showing all the fulsome breasts and thighs in eternity – I realize ‘America’s going sex-mad, they cant get enough, something’s wrong, somewhere, pretty soon these girlie books’ll be impossibly tight, they’ll show you every crease and fold except the hole and nipple, they’re crazy’ – Of course I look too, at the rack, with the other sexfiends.”

On reading:
“The best moment of the day was to slip in bed with bedlamp over book, and read facing the open patio windows, the stars and the sea. I could also hear it sighing out there.”

On sadness:
“Sad understanding is what compassion means – I resign from the attempt to be happy.”

On suffering:
“…Raphael and I go walking down Grant Street in the dusk, bound for different destinations as soon as we see a monster movie on Market Street. ‘I dig what you meant Jack about Cody at the races. It was real funny, we’ll go again Friday. Listen! I’m writing a real great new poem – ‘ then suddenly he sees chickens in crates in the inside dark Chinese store, ‘look, look, they’re all gonna die!’ He stops in the street. ‘How can God make a world like that?’
…
And Raphael’s grimace meaks (sic) me a leak-tear right quick, I see it, I suffer, we all suffer, people die in your arms, it’s too much to bear yet you’ve got to go on as though nothing was happening, right? right, readers?”

“That’s what my father told me the night before he died, ‘Life is too long.’”

On travel:
“Why travel if not like a child?”

On virtue:
“And there’s just no hope anywhere because we’re all disunited and ashamed … The only thing to do is be like my mother: patient, believing, careful, bleak, self-protective, glad for little favors, suspicious of great favors, beware of Greeks bearing Fish, make it your own way, hurt no one, mind your own business, and make your compact with God.”

On work:
“When you’re young you work because you think you need the money: when you’re old you already know you dont need anything but death, so why work?”

On writing:
“Sweet, Raphael, great, you’re a greater poet than ever – you’re really going now – great – dont stop – remember to write without stopping, without thinking, just go, I wanta hear what’s in the bottom of your mind.”

“…Simon and I hurry out just as Randall’s begun his first line … and such, some line that I hear, and dont want to hear more, because in it I hear the craft of his carefully arranged thoughts and not the uncontrollable involuntary thoughts themselves, dig…”

“I was simply writing them because I was an ‘Idealist’ and I believed in ‘Life’ and was going about justifying it with my earnest scribblings … a new way of writing about life, no fiction, no craft, no revising afterthoughts, the heartbreaking discipline of the veritable fire ordeal where you cant go back but have made the vow of ‘speak now or forever hold your tongue’”

“In the kitchen Random takes out the Jack Daniels and says ‘How can you get any refined or well gestured thoughts into a spontaneous flow as you call it? It can all end up gibberish.’ And that was no Harvard lie. But I said:
‘If it’s all gibberish, it’s gibberish. There’s a certain amount of control going on like a man telling a story in a bar without interruptions or even one pause.’
…
‘If I had a Poetry University you know what would be written over the entrance arch?’
‘No, what.’
‘Here Learn That Learning is Ignorance! Gentelmen dont burn my ears! Poetry is lamb dust! I prophesy it! I’ll lead schools in exile! I dont Care!’ They werent bringing me to meet Carl Sandburg whom I’d known anyway seven years ago at several parties where he stood before the fireplace in a tuxedo and talked about freight trains in Illinois 1910. And actually threw his arms around me going ‘Ha ha ha! You’re just like me!’” ( )

If you have any questions about why Kerouac left "the scene," read this book. ( )

Desolation Angels by Jack Kerouac (1995)