Whisper1 (Linda's Fourth Thread of 2019)

Hope by Emily Dickinson

'Hope' is the thing with feathers—
That perches in the soul—
And sings the tune without the words—
And never stops—at all—

And sweetest—in the Gale—is heard—
And sore must be the storm—
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm—

I've heard it in the chillest land—
And on the strangest Sea—
Yet, never, in Extremity,
It asked a crumb—of Me.

It is a sunny, blustery day. My grief locks me into a state of difficulty to even do small tasks around the house. Later, I have a first communion event to attend. It will be good to see friends and celebrate one of our neighborhood grandchildren.

"Never say with grief, 'he is no more', but rather say with thankfulness 'he was'. " Alexander Pushkin

BOOKS ACQUIRED AT A LOCAL BOOK SALE

The Jew Store by Stella Suberman
The Other Woman's House by Sophie Hannah
Empty Mansions by Bill Dedman
Carry the One by Carol Anshaw
Four Days in November by Vincent Bugliosi
The Unmaking of Elvis Presley by Peter Guralnick
How The Light Gets In by Louise Penny
All But My Life by Gerda Weissmann Klein
Hidden Figures by Margot Lee Shutterly
The Portrait by Ian Pears
The Complete Jack the Ripper by Donald Rumbelow
The Worst Hard Time by Timothy Egan
Boardwalk Empire by Nelson Johnson
Singing Lessons by Judy Collins
Majestie by David Teems

For Katrina's Sun Dial

Time is too slow for those who wait,
Too swift for those who fear,
Too long for those who grieve,
Too short for those who rejoice,
But for those who love, time is
Eternity.

Henry Van Dyke

Gentle hugs on bravely stepping forward with a new thread, Linda, dear.

Happy new thread!

Hi, Linda. Thinking of you.

>5 PaulCranswick: Hi Paul. Your comment is incredibly sensitive. These small steps are painful, yet filled with hope. Thank you dear friend.
>6 figsfromthistle: Thanks Anita
>7 foggidawn: Hi Mitsi. Thanks!

BOOK #27

The Museum of Lost Art by Noah Charney
This is a wonderful, thoughtful, well-written, and researched book that chronicles some of the lost art of the world. Included is the Colossus of Rhodes, the zodiac water clock at the Old Summer Palace in Beijing, China, the work of art by Alexander Calder titled Bent Propeller, previously destroyed at the bombing of the World Trade Center in New York, NY, paintings stolen from the Isabella Stuart Gardner Museum in Boston, MA, the sacking of Rome in 1527, and the ISIS intentional destruction of the National Museum in Baghdad in 2003.

Highly recommended if you are someone who appreciates art.

>8 Whisper1: Thank you, Linda. You have been a rock and have been there for so many of us when we have had lows; I can think of fewer people I would wish the eternity of love upon. xx

Happy new thread, Linda. My thoughts are with you as you grieve.

I’m glad you’ve started a new thread, Linda. My thoughts remain with you in your grief.

Glad you got a chance to add a new thread!

Hi Linda my dear, happy new thread. Our thoughts are with you as you grieve dear friend, sending love and hugs from both of us.

Thanks to all. Today was a tough day. Fortunately, my little friends came to visit. They like to help get order, so we tackled the refrigerator. I'm glad they were here. There were so many items that Will bought or things that needed to be thrown away. It would have been more difficult if not for their presence.

My daughter and granddaughter are having such a terrible time. They, like me, loved him so.

I know time will help heal, but right now, it hurts.

Little people are so wonderful...I'm glad you had their company today, Linda. It's all going to take time, and there's no way to predict how long it will be until the hurt becomes bearable, but remember there is still love all around you.

Dear Linda, you are that to more people than you know. Love to you.

Donald Rumbelow's book on the Ripper case is a favorite of mine - partially for the true crime aspect but also for the compassion that the author shows for what he calls "Outcast London" the poor and miserable souls who lived and died in grimy desperate Whitechapel.

Linda, may you be comforted by your family, friends, and neighbors. Grief is easier when shared with people you love. Will was a wonderful man who will be missed by many. Sharing memories of him will be cathartic and spending time with your extended family of little ones will certainly be therapeutic. I’m sending lots of love to you as you grieve. 💕

Grieving needs time, Linda, I hope Lily can cheer you a little...
Sending lots of love and hugs.

Dropping in. I've been in a bit of a reading funk the last couple of weeks. Hoping I can get myself motivated to finish a book and e-book. I'm enjoying the audiobook in the car though!

I’m glad your little friends are helping you, Linda. How hard it must be. We’re all thinking of you.

I'm thinking about you, Linda and sending strength and hugs.

It's so hard when such a good person leaves us, especially after the hopes for the surgery and its ups and downs.

Thinking of you Linda. So glad you have people around you.

BOOK NUMBER 28

A Gathering of Secrets by Linda Castillo

Linda Castillo's portrayal of the Amish community in rural Painter's Mill, Ohio keeps me coming back time and time again to read her well-written mysteries.

In this book, a young Amish man is found badly burned in a rural family barn. His remains are barely recognizable. It is a twisting, twining story of betrayal and secrets kept of young women raped by the man found burnt to death. With so many who harbor secrets and feelings that cannot be brought to the surface because of the strictness of the Amish, it is hard to discern which of his victims actually murdered him.

FOUR STARS

>25 Whisper1: You are much further into the series than I. I'm ready for #2. Hoping I get to it this summer.

Linda, I was 200 posts behind on your last thread, so it is with a heavy heart that I meet you here on your new thread in the knowledge that your home is empty of your beloved Will. I know your heart is full of Will and the love he had for you. The lives of everyone he touched are fuller for his having been a part of them. It is this world that is emptier. My condolences to you, sweet friend.

>26 thornton37814: Hi Lori..I really enjoy this series. The character development is very good.
>27 countrylife: Thanks so much Cindy. Your eloquent and sincere words touch my heart.

So sorry to read of your loss. I apologize for being away so long and not realizing this was going on.
I'll keep you in my thoughts!

Hi Linda! Checking in to see how you're doing. It can't be easy but I'm pulling for you and know you're built with strong material. Stay well, my friend.

Hi Chelle and Lynda:

Thanks for caring. Some days are ok/others are sad. Overall, our close family members are dealing with the fact that Will is no longer with us. In particular, Kayla, our 16 year old grand daughter, is suffering the most. Her first word was Opa. She and he were quite a match with her pure, old soul and intelligence, and his love of children and patience.

We know time will heal us, but there will always be this huge feeling of missing him.

BOOK #29


The Killer Across The Table by John Douglas and Mark Olshaker

In this vividly detailed book written by the famous FBI Profiler who was instrumental in developing studies slanted just for serial killers, at a time when the phrase wasn't fully in our vocabulary. Helping to hunt the Green River Killer, David Berkowitz "the son of sam," as well as providing an in depth study of Ted Bundy, the man who targeted the same look in a woman, and got away with his killing spree for too long.

Finding the similarities and then some of the differences within the personalities, Douglas is very successful in saving lives by systematically studying the personalities of extreme killers.

Highly recommended.

Hi Linda my dear, sending love and hugs to you and the family from both of us.

>33 johnsimpson: Thanks John. I deeply appreciate your outreach. Each day is different. If I keep busy, it is better. It will take time for this severe pain to abate. I'm quite aware of that fact, even though I don't like it.

Diane Keenoy and I went to the Bethlehem Library book sale yesterday. I bought quite a few. The selection was better this time than last time we went.

BOOKS ACQUIRED AT BETHLEHEM LIBRARY BOOK SALE MAY 2019

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Thanks for halloooing me at the book sale, Linda. I get so intent on scanning titles that I miss most of what is going on around me. I was good to see you and Diane. I am truly sorry you lost Will. I'm sure everyone who met him, who knew him are missing him.

Hi Bill. It was good to see you yesterday. I bought more books than I intended to buy, but the pickings were really good this time. Thanks for the hug and for your condolences. I haven't been out a lot since Will's passing. I deeply appreciate your comments. I believe you met Will once or twice. He is indeed missed by many. I'm receiving cards from his former patients who have such lovely, poignant memories.

I'll mosey over to your thread to see what you obtained yesterday.

Hi Linda. Good to see you out and about, even if it is slowly. Nothing wrong with that.

Great haul! Of those pictures, I own (but have not yet read) Tulipomania, and We Were the Lucky Ones. I have read but don't own the Tracy Chevalier one, The Last Runaway (listened to it on audiobook, and thought it was excellent, as are most by her that I have read).

Lovely to see you posting Linda and buying books (and from a library sale too)!

I read A Thousand White Women last year and enjoyed it even though it was fairly improbable.

>36 Whisper1: Score!! What a bunch of great reads. I hope your love of reading helps carry you through this tough time. My heart goes out to you. Let your memories of Dear Will bring you happiness and enjoy the company of your little friends. Hugs. : )

>36 Whisper1: Nice haul!

That is one helluva book haul, Linda. It makes me think it would be worth the drive from Philly to next time.

Unfortunately most of the images of your book haul are not showing for me, but I'm glad you found so many appealing at the sale.

Hi Linda - It looks like you made a nice haul at the book sale. All for a good cause, right? I hope things are going well with you.

What a great book sale - and a lovely way to re-enter the world!

Breakfast with Buddha sounds like the fun one.

Hi to all and thanks for visiting. I've found that keeping busy helps with the grief of missing Will. I planned to start painting the deck, but alas, it is raining today. Lately, I start books and get 1/2 way through and start another. I'll try to finish one today.

I'm so grateful for my neighbors. They have helped in many ways by reaching out and inviting me to be with them. There are lots of details for the lawyer as next week we visit the courthouse to open the estate. Usually, I love details, but for now, it is a chore.

Thinking of you Linda - much love

Hi Linda my dear, a great book haul their. It is a severe pain my dear and rightly so as from everything you ever wrote about Will made him large to me and I wish I could have spent even just a short time in his company. They say that time is a great healer and that is true but the love of a person who meant so much to us means that it takes a long time and sadly something will crop up and you think if only I could ask, and yet you can't and the hurt for a space of time seems crushing but it does gradually ease. The main thing is that the loved one is never forgotten, as it should be.

I hope you have had a good week and we wish you a lovely weekend, sending love and hugs from both of us dear friend.

I do hope this message doesn't hurt or upset you my dear as that is the last thing I would want to do.

What a nice book haul! I haven't read any of them, but I have A Thousand White Women and Breakfast With Buddha on Planet TBR.

I know you must be exhausted after the last few months - and that adds to your grief, too. I so wish I lived across the street and could invite you over for a cup of tea and a nice walk.

Blessings.

Linda, I’m glad you went to the book sale and got so many interesting books. As you said, keeping busy helps with grief. Thank goodness for family and friends. And you have plenty of books to keep you company through the long nights when memories of the past are your bittersweet companions. You remain in my prayers.

Stopping by to leave you my love Linda. Glad you managed to make it out to the book sale and thank you for sharing the covers of the lovely books you bought. The Mermaid and Mrs Hancock has been on my list for a while.

>38 Whisper1: 'I bought more books than I intended to buy' I'm sure many on this thread can relate! :-)

I am so far behind on the threads that I just found out about Will. I am so sorry for your loss, Linda. It helps to keep busy and to accept the support that is offered.

Today is a sad Sunday. I came here, read all these very loving messages and it helps, it truly does help. This is such an incredible group. I thank each and every one of you for your sensitive, kind support.

THANK YOU

BOOK 30

A Serial Killer's Daughter My Story of Faith, Love and Overcoming by Kerri Rawson

Throughout my life, I've tried to understand how people can be so incredibly degrading. The BTK Killer, (Bind, torture and Kill,) is the moniker that Dennis Rawson gave himself as he viciously took the lives of ten, including two children, and then taunted the police and newspapers with details of his sadistic behaviour.

This book is written by his daughter as she is haunted by the day in 2005 she opened the door to the FBI representative who told her that her father is no doubt the BTK killer. As she wrestles with the man she knew, the loving father who took her family camping, fishing and showed tremendous love.

As she learned about what he did, she had flashbacks of behaviours that were not always loving, particularly to her brother.

Heart wrenchingly, she takes years to know that while she will always be haunted by him, she knows she is not, and never will be like him.

A touching story of how Kerri embraces faith in God to move through the pain of realizing her father was indeed a very self absorbed man whom she still loved as she remembered the good things he did. Making the reality of who he was underneath the persona of a loving father, a church leader, and a man who truly was sadistically cruel.

While difficult to read, it is worth the time to understand her perspective and know the courage it took for her to have children of her own.

Four Stars

BOOK 31

The Unmaking of Elvis Presley Careless Love by Peter Guralnick

Exceedingly well documented and written. A mega star who had incredible talent. It the end, his demons won. Giving away ctars, houses and any big ticket item available, Elvis Presley gifted friends in tandem with the drugs that consumed him, and in the end, led to his death.

Women grew weary of the self obsessed, narcissistic little boy, who like Peter Pan, simply refused to grow up. By the time of his death, he was only 42 years old with a bloated body, a voice that could not deliver, and performances at his shows were mediocre at best.

He was a man who thought and acted like a boy. Always craving an entourage that never left him, none of the people who surrounded him could help his addiction to a plethora of drugs. His autopsy showed an enlarged heart, liver damage as well as a painful bowel condition caused by excess drug usage. At the time of his death, at least 14 different drugs were in his body. The amount of codeine was ten times a normally prescribed level. His addiction to quaaludes brought toxic levels to a body that over abused drugs for many years.

With all abandonment for caution of how mass consumption of long-term usage of unnecessary medications, doctors freely prescribed drugs in mass quantities to the King of Rock and Roll.

No one could stop the train wreck that was Elvis Presley.

Three and 1/2 stars

Linda, what a fantastic book haul!

I’m glad to see that you’re getting out and about a little bit. My heart is with you as you go through this difficult time.

I loved Breakfast with Buddha, Linda. Merullo has a nice, light touch. I hope you enjoy it.

Dear Linda, just a note to say that however badly you're doing, you're doing well. I'm thankful for the support of your neighbors who can help you in the flesh. Love to you!

>57 Matke: Thank you ever so much Gail. Your kind words are deeply appreciated.
>58 jnwelch: Hi Joe. I remembered that you raved about Breakfast With Buddha. I had to put it in the basket because of your accolades, plus it was only $1.00.
>59 LizzieD: Dear Peggy, Thanks for your sentiment and kindness. Some days, I feel like I am doing "well." Then, there are other days when I realize our neighbors are grieving as well, especially the little friends. Last week, our four-year old friend Andres asked his father to visit so that he could ask me "Where did Mr. Will go?" I simply said that we believe there is another place, a place where Will can breathe, and be free of pain. He put his little head to the side and said he would think about that.
Life is going on. There were two major events of neighbors, one a first communion at church and then a very nice luncheon following the ceremony. Then, this past weekend, Glenn, 46 year-old father of the two little girls, Ashlee and Kayla, whom Will was very fond on and was a surrogate grandfather to them, graduated from college. We were all so very proud of him, and the luncheon following this event was also special. Will would have been with me at both events. I think that the concept of life still happening after the loss of a loved one is difficult to grapple with. I realize how very blessed I am by this loving, caring group of neighbors who are family and friends.

BOOK 32

Bea Garcia The Tree and Me by Deborah Zemke

Funny, creative, this ER book caught my interest, and I read it in one sitting. Outside the Emily Dickinson Elementary School, there is a huge tree, so large that Bea Garcia cannot fit it on one page of her drawing paper. As she studies the tree, she notes there are squirrels clutching to the bark. Mischievous, they throw acorns at any one who happens to pass by.

Bea's nemesis Bert is someone she would like the squirrels to pummel. Bea's favorite friend Einstein (so named because she is the smartest in the school,) is also enthralled with the tree. Observing a nuthatch, they watch the bird walking upside down. They remark there are a lot of things to love about the tree that they now name Emily, the poet tree.

If she studies Emily carefully, Bea can see the face of Emily Dickinson in etched in the bark. Berk the jerk decides to climb the tree to the highest branches. His behaviour nets a ride in the firetruck bucket as he cannot get down from the heights of Emily, and then takes a giant leap into the bucket.

Now, parents clamour for the tree to be cut down as it could present harm to children. Under the guidance of the teacher and principal, the students rally for Emily to remain right where she is. They learn scientific facts and present them to the school board.

The tree is saved. However, Bea and Einstein are not saved from Bert the jerk.

This is a laugh out loud, witty story!

>61 Whisper1: Just what you need right now...A laugh out loud, witty story! Yay! : )

>60 Whisper1: I am glad you are finding things to lift your spirit and that you continue to find joy in the celebrations of other. But then your generosity of spirit is no surprise to me. Sending you big hugs.

Thank God that you have such a solid community right there in your neighborhood. Of course, you and Will created the warmth and support. Peace to you, dear Linda!
(Love the Emily Tree!)

>62 Berly: Hi Dear Kim. I appreciate your visit and of course, your kind words. Thank You!!!!
>63 LizzieD: Dear Peggy, Yes, the neighborhood friends keep me tethered right now. I was invited to picnic dinners throughout the Memorial Day weekend. The caring and love is so very dear!

BOOK #33


Harbor Me by Jacqueline Woodson

One of my favorite authors did it again! Jacqueline Woodson is an incredible writer who touches the heart while dealing with difficult issues. Never one to over dramatize or embellish, her books deal with contemporary issues facing young adults.

Six students who are struggling through major life-changing issues and are given a room wherein they can discuss and share their stories if they choose to do so. A concept put in place by a wonderful, caring teacher, this room is a safe space for all.

As time progresses, we learn that a father is missing, another father is in jail because of a drunk driving incident wherein the mother of one of the students was killed in the accident. Discussions include racial profiling, deportation, feelings of helplessness, and the need for a solid ground, or perhaps just one person who cares and how that makes a difference.

While I've read most of this award-winning author, I'm never disappointed.

Three and 1/2 Stars

Good review of Harbor Me, Linda. I liked it a lot, too. I agree, Woodson has never disappointed.

Hi Linda! Just a quick hello and hug.

Hi Linda! Dropping by to check in. I am glad you have great neighbors and have read some good books.
I put Harbor Me on the wishlist.

Hi Linda my dear, just stopping by to say hello, I see that you are reading some good books. Sending love and hugs dear friend.

BOOK #34

Ghost Boys by Jewell Parker Rhodes

When Jerome meets a new boy at school, he knows that this newby will be bullied. Jerome too is bullied frequently and nastily by a gang of three who rule the school. When the new person exhibits a gun when the gang of three try to harm him, the bullies bow out.

In reality, the gun is a toy, but made to vividly, remarkably look like the real thing. When Jerome is given the gun as a thank you for helping the new student, he timidly accepts it. This determines his fate as he is murdered by a policeman when playing with the gun in a vacant lot.

This is a story of the sad reality of the American culture of today wherein innocent black boys and men and mowed down when it is assumed they are dangerously feared.

The story is well written and depicts the impact not only on the immediate family, but it is a telling for contemporary society and the way in which our views are molded in an unfair way.

Jerome's family is poor, hard working, and they are a solid family unit, until, Jerome is killed. The grief felt by his sister, parents and grandmother impacts the family as they grapple with an unfair system.

Jerome returns as a restless spirit, able to view the way his death impacts his family, and the boy who gave him the gun. He is accommodated by spirit of Emmett Till, a young boy viciously brutalized because he sadly did not know the rules of the south and Alabama's severe prejudice.

Examining the fear and the reality that police face each day, this unique book takes a very difficult subject and shines a light on how we might be better if only understanding abounds.

Excellent, and worthy of four stars!

Hi Paul

Thinking of you and hoping life is on a more even keel for you.

All good wishes,

Linda

Hello to all. Many thanks for stopping by.

I will be having my ninth spine surgery at the end of July. It will mark the first time that Will won't be with me when I awake from the operation. I am finding many "firsts." While I don't like them, I really do need to accept that Will is gone. Today, my next door neighbor and very good friend took me for a spinal epidural to help with the pain.

Kind and patient, she drove through traffic and detours and waited an hour while I had the injection. I am blessed, and I know it!

>72 Whisper1: Don't friends lighten the darkness? I am blessed with good friends too and I am sure that each day will get easier to walk through knowing that there are people near who care.

I'm sorry the pain is back, Linda, and I am sorry beyond sorry that you need to have surgery again.

I'm glad your friend is there to help and drive and hug.

Sending very gentle hugs, Linda. What a lot you're going through. I'm glad you have good friends to help you.

>72 Whisper1:

With All that you and Will endured, it was so good that more surgery was not needed - so sorry that this has come again -
and hope that it turns out to be less major than previous ones. More pain of any kind is the last thing you need.

So glad that you have such Great Support, Care, and Love nearby - along with all our long distance support!

Hi Linda, sorry to hear that you need a ninth surgery my dear but so nice to have such good friends to help you, just remember that Will is watching over you and will be there in spirit with you during and after the operation. I hope that you are having as good a week as you can and send love and hugs to you from both of us dear friend.

I echo the sadness and the love. Whatever you feel, you are a valiant soul, and you will get through this too.

A ninth surgery! I hope that it gives you the relief you deserve, glad that you have friends and family to help you.

(((hugs)))

Good luck with the surgery. I hope it helps.

I hope that the ninth surgery does the trick and relieves the pain, Linda.

Thanks to all for your kind, sincere and very much appreciated outreach. Days are filled with keeping busy. I am paining all inside doors downstairs and have purchased paint for one of the downstairs bathrooms and the kitchen. The kitchen will be a major undertaking, but I love how a simple coat of paint transforms a room.

I spent some time with the lawyer today finding information about Will's stocks and how to get the assets after TD Ameritrade assumed wrongly that I will be reinvesting the funds with them.

My buddy Ashlee came over for a few hours and we called out for Chinese food. How I love this very special child who loves to talk about Will and how happy he made her. She shares some of her memories and told me that some days she cries in school. The teachers understand why and are very kind to her. Tomorrow is her last day of school. Because she was so very good in going to the hospital with me and never flinching when Will's health became greatly impaired, she will be taking a workshop this summer learning about the body and anatomy. This is quite a feat for a 12 year old girl who struggled so before Will tutored her and unlock her brain, setting her on an entire new track.

Reading is slow. I managed to read one more book, listed on the next message.

Again, thank you so much.

BOOK #35


An American Marriage by Tayari Jones

An affluent black woman marries a man who is sent to prison for something he did not do. His twelve-year sentence was reduced to five years. Alas, he came home to early for his wife and her old friend whom she now sees as a wonderful life partner. Except, what to do about Roy, who on Christmas Eve shows up on the doorstep of his wife.

This was not as good as some of the author's other books.

This was simply a 3 star read. There were too many sub stories, non of which helped the story.

Linda, I was pretty lukewarm about an American Marriage. I’m glad her other books have more promise. I won’t be in a rush to read more by the author but I may give her another chance.

I am so sorry about another back surgery and so grateful for your kind neighbors. Take it easy painting those doors. It makes my back hurt thinking about painting anything.

gentle hugs and warm loving thoughts to you book friend

Linda, I was also lukewarm about An American Marriage. I read it for one of my book groups and there was consensus that it was a good premise but ultimately the story was not believable. My other book group also decided to read it, and we will discuss tomorrow. I have a feeling this group will like it more. I was surprised it won the Women's Prize.

That said, I was impressed with the author after watching a video of her giving a talk. She seems like a wonderful person.

>85 Donna828: Hi Donna, Thanks for your visit. I still have one bi-fold closet door to pain. Then, I have completed painting all inside doors on the first floor. The injection helped the back pain. Keeping busy helps me sleep at night.

>86 magicians_nephew: Hello friend! Thank you, as always, for your kind words and thoughts!

>87 lauralkeet: Laura, thanks for stopping by. Lukewarm is a good way to describe An American Marriage. I was disappointed with the rambling,

Hello, Linda! I'm glad to hear that young friends like Ashlee and neighbors have been sharing good memories with you. Sorry that An American Marriage wasn't a better read for you, and hope the next one is excellent.

I will also be painting this summer, Linda. I'll be thinking of you. It's great that your granddaughter can talk about Will with you. Take care.

>55 Whisper1: Glad to see that you enjoyed that one. I have it out from the library waiting for it's turn

Hi Linda!

Just a quick stop to say I'm thinking about you and hoping that things are getting resolved and that you're having a few moments here and there of peace and happiness.

Hello to all.

I haven't been able to read a lot. Concentration is difficult. I've started a lot of books, but haven't finished many.

I am in a deep grief period of crying. This is not like me, but it is necessary to move on.

The hospice grief support group is helping. One woman recently lost her husband of 69 years of marriage. She is hurting. Another man lost his wife suddenly to a severe stroke. It helps to listen and know that I am not alone in my pain.

BOOK #36


The Color of the Sun by David Almond

David Almond is one of my favorite authors. Thus, I was so very disappointed to read his most recent book The Color of Sun. It was a book that seemed to have little plot, and there simply was way too much meandering text. I'm glad this wasn't my first book I've read of his or I would not continue to read others.

Sadly, this book was a trip to nowhere.

BOOK #37


Ghost Hunters by Ed and Lorraine Warren
This is a compilation of various supernatural experiences experienced by Ed and Lorraine Warren, the husband/wife team of ghost hunters.

It's ok, but I cannot recommend it.

Linda, I'm sorry it's so rough right now. It's to be expected, and you're not alone, but knowing that can only help so much. I hope the emotional waters calm a bit soon.

Linda, I'm glad you have a support group to help you through this. While everyone's experience is unique, I'm sure there are common threads. Hugs to you.

I am sorry to hear you are still struggling with your grief, Linda. I hope it gets better for you. Gentle hug to my pal.

Sorry you are struggling. I know it’s hard. *hugs*

Also, sorry you seem to have hit a run of sub-par reads. Hope your next one is better.

Dear Linda, of course you're still struggling. I wish it were not so, but I promise that you will get through this. I don't have experience of it yet, but I have watched other brave women grieve and eventually find joy. You will. Love and support to you from NC!

Thank you to all. It's a bumpy road, but it is equal to the amount of love that I had for Will. I have a very good lawyer to help with t he financial aspects. Hopefully, all those details will be finished and we can wrap it up soon.

I deeply appreciate the support of members of this group. It continues to amaze me.

There are good stories and events along the way. My four year old buddy Andres went to the shore. He brought back a large bucket of stones from his vacation. Excitedly, he showed them to me and said they were for us to paint flowers, butterflies, music and Lilly on them for Mr. Will's service. He said while we are painting, Mr. Will is going to be looking at us from heaven and smiling.

Interestingly, last week, while I was at the hospital for a bone scan in preparation for the next surgery, I felt sad thinking that this will be the first surgery that Will isn't going to be there when I awake. While thinking that, and climbing the stairs to the second floor, I heard music floating up from the beautiful player piano in the hospital foyer. The song Soon It's Gonna Rain was playing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjybvLi6RtA

Will often sang Soon It's Gonna Rain from the off-broadway musical The Fantastics. As many of you know, I was initially drawn to Will because he raised his three children by himself. The youngest was only two, a little boy who was not as yet potty trained.

Kelly, the oldest, was seven when Will's wife took off for a different life. When Kelly was sixteen, he took her and a small group of friends to see the play as her birthday gift.

Was this a coincidence? Or, was Will reaching out to me to let me know he was with me in the capacity he could?

I didn't want to put too much power into the experience. But, when I was in the waiting room, the first page of a magazine I picked up had a block- like advertisement with the large date of April 18, 2019. That is the date Will died.

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>102 Whisper1: - There is a book on my shelf at home (as yet unread, I will admit), called There are No Coincidences or something like that. I am not religious or even spiritual, myself, Linda, but I have often wondered about such coincidences in life. I have come to accept that not everything in life can be explained rationally and I am ok with that. Life is big and complex and I don't *need* to understand everything, is how I see it. I believe that you take what you need, at the times you most need them, and also, that things come to you sometimes, when they are most needed. It sounds to me like your day at the hospital, with those events, were exactly this. I think you are missing the physical connection with Will and that you are needing comfort and this is exactly what came to you that day, in this way. Embrace it. And {{hugs}}

>102 Whisper1:

Coincidence or gift from the gods and Will? It's the Good Feeling that counts!

Thanks Shelly and Marianne!

>102 Whisper1: Linda-- I am sorry you have to go in yet again for surgery, but I am so glad you have such a great support network. And, yes, I believe in those little signs and that Will is with you, always. : )

Losing a beloved takes a lot of time to heal, Linda. The next surgery without Will waiting for you makes you feel your loss even more...
Coincidenses, well I think most of the time they are just that, and maybe sometimes they might be something else. Most important is that you cherish anything that makes you feel good.
((((hugs))))

ETA: >94 Whisper1: sorry the latest David Almond didn't work for you.

Hi Linda my very dear friend, sending love and hugs from both of us and you are in our thoughts and prayers.

What John said, Linda. Sending you a world of positive thoughts.

>93 Whisper1: Linda, I am glad your newfound support group is helping you with the grieving process. Life is so hard for so many people. It's good when we can share our stories and find consolation. I totally understand the lack of concentration thing. This too shall pass and you will be able to read with pleasure again. Sending love and good wishes to you...

Linda - I am sorry things are so hard right now. It sounds like you have a good support group. Get all the help you can. I think Will is with you.

Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you, Linda ((((hugs))))

Many hugs.

I believe both in the afterlife and in those who have passed reaching out. Your experience in >102 Whisper1: is lovely, special and absolutely to be cherished.

I've just read The Lost Words. What an amazing book - I knew as soon as I saw it that it would be listed in your library.

Thanks so much to all of you. Today is a low-energy day. This week, I sold my car and kept Will's. I met with the lawyer to expedite details regarding stocks Will had. I changed insurance companies for the car and the house. I finished a book. I worked in the gardens.

Sadly, a recent bone scan confirmed the reason for the increased pain at a different level of my spine. The scan indicated severe degeneration at a spot in the spine previously not impacted by degeneration. This is lower in the thoracic area.

The options now are to continue with the July 29th surgery performed locally wherein defective hardware will be removed, and the two new areas will be fused. Or,

another more serious surgery back at Thomas Jefferson. Because fusion tends to create increased degeneration at lower levels, I may undergo a surgery called a Pedicle Subtraction Osteotomy -basically instead of fusion, the degenerative disks are replaced with materials that simulate disks.

This weekend, The local surgeon is meeting with Dr. Vaccaro, the head of the Rothman Institute in Philadelphia. He is the same surgeon who performed four other surgeries.

I will know the recommendation next week when I receive a phone call.

The later surgery has better outcome, but from experience, the post surgery recovery is incredibly painful.

I am strong, but it feels like too many difficult things are happening.

If you are so inclined, I ask for prayers.

I put aside the book noted in post >103 Whisper1:, and instead, I read an excellent book - the best thus far this year!

BOOK #38



A Piece of the World by Christina Baker Kline

Based on the Andrew Wyeth painting Christina's World, the author did an incredible job both in writing and research.

Andrew Wyeth lived in Chadds Ford, Pennsylvania. However, in the summers, he lived in rural Maine, where he gained inspiration of the stark climates and life lived simply.

His painting of Christina Olson is one of Wyeth's best known. Afflicted with a debilitating neurological disease, now believed to have been a syndrome called Charcot-Marie-Tooth wherein there is extensive damage to the nerves of the arms and legs.

Crippled, but incredibly stubborn and resilant, Christina helped with chores on her families farm. It is there where Wyeth became enamoured with the difficult life of farm and rural living.

He was a frequent guest at the farm and basically took over the third floor of the house to paint.

This is a novel using fact, but also, as the author notes, the author wove fiction in order to make the book more interesting.

My review could not do the book justice. I highly recommend A Piece of the World.

Five Stars

>115 Whisper1:

Yes, more prayers coming to you and hope that books arrived safely.

Hi Linda, good to see that you found a book that resonates at last. I'm sorry to hear about the further degeneration which complicates the upcoming surgery. I hope that your recovery will be swift and relatively painless, whatever is decided.

>115 Whisper1: A colleague had a couple of vertebrae disks replaced with parts from a cadaver this week. It sounded very complicated to me, but it seemed to be "more routine" than I expected from information she'd gathered. I hope your surgery is successful.

All my strongest positive vibes out to you, Linda, for whichever solution works best for you.

I also LOVED the Christina Baker Kline book. I read it last year (or maybe it was the year before). I also loved another book by her, Orphan Train. I should look for other books by her.

Thinking of you, Linda. You have so much to cope with right now, and some big decisions ahead. I'm glad you are finding some comfort in books and enjoyed A Piece of the World. I thought it was lovely.

Thank you to all for your kind outreach.

Today is a better day, not so darn hot, and my pain level is much better than yesterday. I usually keep going, but yesterday had me home bound.

I appreciate every single good wish!

BOOK #39


Sea Prayer by Khaled Hosseini with lovely illustrations of Dan Williiams

The well-known author of The Kite Runner and A Thousand Splendid Suns wrote yet another breath-taking story in this short, but incredible book.

Based on the death of a three-year old boy fleeing Syria with his father in a small boat with others seeking safety in another home, this is the story of a father's wish for his son.

As they wait for the hoped-for-boat to arrive, the father cradles his small son and dreams of another life -- a safer, calmer life!

This book, packed with memories of safer times when there were no bombs raining down on the helpless, where the sun shone on the olive trees and the soft breeze created a calmness. The noise of a goat, the sound of household chores accomplished and the mosque for Muslims and the church for Christians in view.

Highly recommended! The illustrations are perfect for the accompanying text.
FIVE STARS

I loved Sea Prayer so much that after I read it, I purchased a copy to have in my library.

Lovely review. I gave it a thumb.

And good wishes and prayers as always.

we had friends visiting a while ago and took them to the Museum of Modern Art in New York to see the original of "Christina's World". nice to be up close and see the rich textures and the shadows and the lights.

Linda you are in my thoughts and prayers every day. Be warm in the light.

>115 Whisper1: My prayers are with you, Linda. It sounds like you have excellent medical care and will get good advice.

>116 Whisper1: I also loved this one. Kline does a good job with historical fiction.

Dear Linda, I'm hoping you will hear soon what will be better for you. You are a hero.
Take comfort where you can - you'll always know that Will loved you as much as you love him. That's the most amazing comfort of all.

Linda, I just read the most amazing, unusually formatted graphic novel. It's both funny and somewhat heartbreaking as it deals with growing up with racism, a subject I know that interests you.

If you haven't read Good Talk: A Memoir in Conversations by Mira Jacob, I highly recommend it. It may be just what you need to get out of your book slump.

Linda - As it gets closer to the 29th, how are you doing?
Hoping for relaxation and strength.

Hi Linda my dear, just stopping by to say hello and say we are thinking of you and keep you in our thoughts, sending love and hugs from both of us dear friend.

>124 streamsong: Thanks so much for the thumbs up Janet!

>125 magicians_nephew: Thanks for your special comments Jim. I also had the opportunity to see Christina's World at the Philadelphia Art Museum when there was a special exhibit of Wyeth's works. I agree, the painting is lovely!

>126 BLBera: Thanks Beth. I am glad that the surgeries will be local. It would be near impossible for me to be able to travel to Thomas Jefferson five times for the surgeries.

1. Original consultation with the Director of the Rothman Institute to has performed four previous surgeries
2. The pre-admission consults with the team who would be helping
3. The surgery
4. The transportation home after the surgery
5. The post-surgery check up.

Now, looking back, I realize it was a lot for Will to do this five-time journey per surgery to Philadelphia from our home. And, to accomplish this for four times was a lot of stress.

>127 LizzieD: Hi Peggy, and thanks, as always. Will and I would have been stronger had it not been for the interfering, narcissistic cousin and his "weird" mother, as others in the family called her.

>128 streamsong: Hi Janet. I am heading to the library later today, I'll request an inter-library loan for this book. Thanks for the recommendation.

>129 m.belljackson: Hi Marianne. Actually, I am looking forward to the surgeries. At this point, the pain is very intense. Increasingly, my days are compromised, and the usual things I do and people I see are limited. Thanks so much for your kindness.

>130 johnsimpson: Hi John! You are a wonderful soul!

BOOK #40


American Predator The Hunt for the Most Meticulous Serial Killer of the 21st Century by Maureen Callahan

Israel Keyes is not a common name when thinking of serial killers in the United States. His hero was Ted Bundy, the notorious killer of women who killed 40 plus people.

This is a book I would not recommend to the feint of heart. The author tells of Israel Keye's murders in the graphic way in which he killed. Suffice it to say, I won't repeat the details.

He was sadistic, cunning and incredibly intelligent.

When finally caught, like Bundy, he played games with those who investigated his crimes and wanted to know details of those they could not be sure could be attributed to him.

Perhaps someday, science will undercover if the predalitions of these killers occur as a result of a genetic mutation, or as a result of the way in which these sociopaths are raised by their parents.

Finally caught up to your thread and found out just now about your upcoming surgery. I hope your pain level is tolerable today and that the surgery would be a success!

S few years ago someone thought i would like BTK the story of the "Bind - Torture - Kill" serial killer.

The graphic descriptions really were hard to sit through - and the author said he toned it down a lot.

As Huck Finn said "People can be awfully cruel to one another"

>133 applebook1: Hello.. So good to hear from you.

>134 magicians_nephew: It is great to read your frequent messages. I look forward to seeing you and Judy in the fall when I am recovery free! All good wishes to you and Judy. I am a very big fan of Mark Twain. Have you and Judy ever visited his home in Hartford, CT? It is a must see. Have you ever read Letters from the Earth? and/or The Mysterious Stranger? They are my favorites. I hope you are having a good summer. It is hot, hot, hot and rainy, rainy, rainy here in PA.

Hi, Linda! I haven't been on LT much, but you have been in my thoughts and prayers. I'm sorry to see you facing more surgery, but glad it can be local.

HI Terri. I checked your home page and found a photo of Sig atop a book case. Perhaps he learned to read. Many thanks for thinking of me.

Hi Linda - I have not visited your thread for a long while and all I can do now is wish you the best with the surgery. I hope that reading continues to give you the relief and solace that you need.

I've read several YA verse novels recently - I can recommend Sarah Crossan's Moonrise, One or We come apart if you haven't come across her before. I just finished her latest, Toffee.

Hello, Linda! I hope everything is going smoothly as you prepare for yet another surgery - you are one strong lady to be going through all this again! Have you read any books by Jason Reynolds? I think you would really appreciate his work. I heard him speak at a conference I went to recently, and he's quite a gifted young man, both as a speaker and a writer. I read For Every One recently, and I want to read more by him soon.

Linda - sure hope your doctors have found a way to relieve your pain before the surgery
and that you are now able to relax and get things in order for you, Lilly, your Family, Friends, and Neighbors.

In some form, we trust that Will will be there to comfort and care for you.

Best of Faith, Hope, and Friendship for the coming week, Marianne

Please, anybody who hears from Linda leave word for us here.

Lots of prayers coming your way.

Holding you in my thoughts, Linda

Thinking about you!

>141 LizzieD: Good morning, they were only able to do one of the surgeries, the removal of the broken hardware. Linda will have to go to Philadelphia for the disk surgery. She's in a lot of pain, yet she is still able to text about books. She's enjoying Where the Crawdads Sing also one of my favorites this year. Hopefully she will be able to go home in another day or so.

I hope for a speedy recovery, Linda.

Just one more friend here thinking about you, Linda. Your situation is so complex, maybe one day you'll be written up in the medical journals. I don't suppose there's any comfort in that, though! Speedy relief of pain...it's what I wish for you all the time.

>145 Dianekeenoy: Thank you for the update, Diane.

Wishing you an easy recovery, Linda, with as little pain as possible. You’re in the thought of many here on LT.

>147 laytonwoman3rd: Happy to help, Linda. Linda will be coming home today!

>145 Dianekeenoy: Diane, thanks so much for posting this update. I'm glad Linda is coming home today.

Linda, I hope you recover from this procedure reasonably soon and are able to have the disc work done without too much delay.

>145 Dianekeenoy:, >149 Dianekeenoy: Thanks for updating us on Linda's situation, Diane. What a trooper she is. I'm glad she has a good read like Where the Crawdads Sing to keep her company. Sending very gentle hugs and positive thoughts to you, Linda.

Thank you for the updates, >149 Dianekeenoy:! Linda, you've had quite a year but you seem like a person with a lot of fight in you and I'm praying you peddle thru this and then work on the discs. We're all here, rooting for you! Keep the faith, my friend!!

Thinking of you! Hope your pain decreases soon!

Hi Linda!

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Many thanks for the update, Diane!
Dear Linda, we love you!

Sending lots of healing mojo, Linda. Glad you are back home. Big hugs.

Thinking of you, praying for you, wishing you healing and decreased pain.

Hi Linda - Thinking of you and hoping you are healing well!

I also stopped by to say that I found a copy of The Adoration of Jenna Fox at the library sale and remembered reading your review YEARS AGO on LT! It has been on my wishlist since I saw it on your thread. I really enjoyed it!

Linda -

Good to see that you are able to relax enough to read.

Though not a murder/thriller/mystery fan, CRAWDADS has got so many great reviews that I'll be looking for it on Abe.

Bet Lilly is thrilled to have you back home!

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE OF YOU

Thanks for all the positive, kind and lovely comments. Since returning home from surgery three weeks ago, I've slept a lot, taking medication, sparingly I am able to connect with neighbors and the little ones. When I am with them it is bright rainbows.

It is remarkable to belong to an online book-loving group who are also loving people.
It is remarkable to live in a neighborhood where there is so much caring and sharing.
It is wonderful to be touched by so many sincerely kind people.

My nextdoor neighbor, Cathy, stops by every day. Little Andres, two doors down, came running through the yard last week to tell me that he saw Will twice one day because there were two butterflies on the yellow rose bush I gave his family. He is only four years old, and takes seeing butterflies literally. Perhaps Will turned into a butterfly, who can say? I love seeing the world through the eyes of a child.

I see the surgeon on Friday to discuss plans for the next surgery in Philadelphia. Because the pain is severe, I want to hurry it along. Then, after ten surgeries, perhaps the disks will stop degenerating, and I can build strength to betterment.

I've managed to read three books:
Where the Crawdads Sing by Deia Owens
Life After Life by Kate Atkinson
Book Loveby Debbie Tung

and currently am 3/4 way through another excellent Jodi Picoultbook The Vanishing Act

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I want all of you to know even though I don't have energy to frequently visit the threads, I do care deeply about you, and I very grateful for your emotional support.

>160 Whisper1: It's good to hear from you, Linda. I am glad you are finding those moments of joy, and I'm hoping along with you that your next surgery will come soon and have good outcomes.

What foggi said so well, Linda. Kudos to you for staying positive and enjoying those in your life. I liked all three of your recent reads - Where the Crawdads Sing, Life After Life and Book Love; all so different, and I'd be hard-pressed to pick a favorite among them.

It is good to hear from you, Linda, and I'm happy you have such wonderful, caring neighbors. The little ones make everything better, don't they? I hope your reading helps distract you from the pain for a bit.

Thanks for the update, Linda. I hope the next surgery is effective and you get some pain relief.

Glad to hear things are getting better. Good luck with the next surgery! May it bring the much-needed pain relief you are seeking. * hugs*

Thanks to everyone. Finally, I am able to drive. Naturally, I headed to the library.

For $2.00 from the sale table:

Razor girl Carl Hiaasen
The Wrong Hostage Elizabeth Lowell
Naked by David Sedaris
Wool by Hugh Howey
Little Fires Everywhere by Celeste Ng
Liberty by Garrison Keillor

Welcome back, Linda! You are more than just a trooper, you are a hero! Take it easy and be kind to yourself. So good ot see you posting again.

It's so nice to hear from you, Linda. I'm glad things are going pretty well for you right now.

Oh so glad to hear from you, Linda. Continuing to pray for you as you recover and head out to see the surgeon on Friday for the next step. Don't worry about getting to threads or replying to each of us individually - take care of yourself, and we will be here when you're back!

Driving already!!!!! You are Wonder Woman, dear Linda! More power to you and happy reading!
We are all so happy to see you posting on your own thread that we will take the wish for the deed and encourage you not to respond individually here or visit threads - just what Mary said, in fact. I'm pretty sure that your back hurts too bad for you to sit and type much. Don't do it! We want to be helps to you, not burdens.

A library sale sounds like good therapy, Linda.

Linda -

Great reading completed!

Sure hope that Friday's doctor can offer more pain relief to get you comfortably to Philadelphia.

How's Lilly doing with you back home?

Glad to see you posting again, Linda! Beautiful story about Little Andres. That's a lovely way to see loved ones, gone but not forgotten.Yeah! Book buying is the best medicine!

I'm glad so glad to hear that you are back driving and book shopping. Hooray!

Good wishes for your appointment on Friday!

I love the story of Andre, too.