Real Life

Beautifully written but full of so much pain. The book takes place over only a few days but encompasses lifetimes---how the characters, particularly Wallace, came to this point...and of course, where is he going...where are all of these graduate students going. Taylor writes with a tremendous amount of emotional and physical detail---not only the sex but the individual feelings of sweat, fear. desperation and on and on. A sequel 10 years in the future for these characters?

I really liked it. Highly impressive for a debut. The existential ennui of being an overeducated twentysomething plus the grueling realities of graduate school were rendered painfully accurately. I thought that Taylor's portrayal of racism in academia was well done and illuminating. It colors so much of Wallace's experience yet for many of the white people around him there's this plausible deniability as though he isn't a reliable narrator. There's a passage that really struck me about how when you identify something as racist, white people "hold it up to the light" to verify it as though you cannot be trusted and they have to verify it themselves. The metaphor is powerful.

This isn't the easiest read -- it also grapples with topics show more like the long term ramifications of childhood sexual abuse. I liked the contemplation of how childhood relationships and abandonment by parents impact decision paralysis as a young adult.

Anyway, a great read that I might not have discovered other than the Booker list. Check it out. show less

Emma puts her head on Wallace's shoulder, but she won't say anything either, can't bring herself to. No one does. No one ever does. Silence is their way of getting by, because if they are silent long enough, then this moment of minor discomfort will pass for them, will fold down into the landscape of the evening as if it never happened. Only Wallace will remember it.

When Wallace begins his graduate studies in chemistry at a university in the midwest, it feels like a chance to begin again, without baggage. But a few years in and Wallace is still himself and he's still a Black man in an almost entirely white environment. This novel recounts a few days in Wallace's life, as he negotiates his way through a difficult and hostile lab show more environment, his friend group where he feels like an outsider, always, and his own loneliness, based both on his father's recent death and his lack of romantic attachments. Into that comes Miller, another chemistry post-graduate, with whom he has always felt a certain hostility.

This was a difficult novel to read, not because of the writing, which is very, very good, but because the novel is so centered on Wallace and Wallace is seriously depressed. Wallace has lost any resiliency he might once have had and the casual micro-aggressions (and overt hostilities) leave him drained and deeply unhappy. He's damped down his own anger so deeply that he comes across to his friends and co-workers as affectless and unemotional, but that careful veneer is one that is eating away at him and this moment, when the end of the summer weather is beautiful and he can almost see the finishing lines of his PhD, is when he can no longer sustain the effort, even when there's the possibility of love. show less

This novel written by Brandon Taylor is epic genius. His use of language is mythic. Here are a few examples:

“How to wrangle a body that is unreal. The truly awful thing about beauty is that it reminds us of our limits. Beauty is a kind of unrelenting cruelty. It takes the truth, hones it to a terrifying keenness and use it to slice us to the bone.”

“The tears are collecting along his eyelashes, their warm salt welling.”

The love story between Miller and Wallace is other worldly. The novel builds to violent tender love making that will leave you wrecked.

I was concerned during the first half of the book when the College detail relating to the research Wallace was performing seemed pointless. Even after finishing the novel I’m not show more sure why the author found it necessary to go into such minutia.

But the last half makes the reading trip beyond worthwhile. show less

Well-written and inspired an interesting conversation at work. Could be frustrating to read at parts, just out of too much empathy for the character or situation. Although I often did not enjoy reading it, I did enjoy thinking about it and recognize the care that went into the flaws and nuance of the characters.

this book is very good, and very fucking heavy. miserable and frustrating at times, but also, i feel like that's the point. as someone who has indeed been through the grad school machine, and for science too, there were parts of this that really, really hit. the parts of this story that were foreign to me are places not for me to comment, but to listen.

i think the writing is at times extraordinary and captivating, and of course, this book does my favourite thing ever, which is taking place over the space of a very limited timespan. i absolutely devoured it. i think it's one of those things where you feel obliged not to look away - i think, "enjoyed" is not the word for my relationship to this narrative. (except for the moment when show more wallace blew it up at the dinner party, when i was full on howling, though i'm not sure if i was meant to take so much glee in that.) i enjoyed the writing, certainly, i luxuriated in it. and as for the story - as for the discomfort - i sat with it.

i do think everyone should read this. show less

2. Real Life by Brandon Taylor
reader: Kevin R. Free
published: 2020
format: 9:25 audible audiobook (329 pages in hardcover)
acquired: December21
listened: Dec 22 – Jan 6
rating: 4
locations: UW Madison
about the author: from rural Alabama, born 1989

My sixth book on the 2020 Booker longlist, and while I didn't exactly love this book or find it fun, I liked it a lot and particularly enjoyed all the layers happening simultaneously. Wallace, black, gay, from rural Alabama, is a biochemistry grad student in the very very white University of Wisconsin, in very very white Madison, WI (neither the school or city are mentioned by name). He is desperately searching for and wanting some kind of intimate connection, while doing everything conceivably show more possible to avoid or limit this. He's lonely, unexpressive, unwilling to let anyone see any part of what's inside of him, and he presents an outwardly milk toast faux-cheerful calm, an armor of dullness. He's constantly aroused by men around him, and in a constant battle not to feel that, not to feel any emotion. Also, he's a good, but mediocre grad student with that defeated aspect that grad students typically have hanging over him, while surrounded by a bunch of fellow grad students in roughly that same empty mental place. (Being in grad school, and hanging out with grad students is sometimes a weird experience of being surrounded by smart interesting people you more or less admire and hating everything about it. That is vividly captured here.) But Wallace is extra-self-defeating. His contradictions, the racism, the homosexuality and the defeat run through this novel.

Taylor claims he wrote this book in five weeks, which is interesting because of how much he put into it. At five weeks an author doesn't have time to struggle with doubt, or rethink. He must have had all this in mind at the start and carried it out. What I really like is he conveys all this stuff above without talking about it. He just goes through a weekend, and a series of interesting enough things are happening on the surface, but these atmospheres (plural intended) pervade and mix.

In a so far disappointing Booker longlist of monotonous and overly-long texts, this stands out.

2021
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