Yoga

(Read in French)

I like Emmanuel Carrere and his philosophy on art. He talks about his work being more concerned with the "chemin" than the "destination", and how he feels gratified when he finds that the project he is working on ends up in a place totally unexpected from when he began. I too find this kind of work fascinating; while it is of course wonderful to encounter a work of art that is honed and shimmering like a polished gemstone, there is an honesty and authenticity when the artist leaves in traces of the sketches, impressions, and tangents.

That being said, this kind of work sort of requires you to vibe with the author so to speak - if I didn't like Carrere and his style, this book would have been a slog. According to my show more ereader, I spent around 12 hours reading this book; that's a long time to spend with someone when the only topic is themselves. This "vibing" only goes so far, and by the end of the book, I was wondering how we ended up where we were. Carrere's main preoccupation here is his loss of faith in his spiritual/physical practice. He spent more than thirty years practicing yoga (which he defines broadly as including things like tai chi and meditation) and yet still found himself falling prey to the follies of human existence, narcissism, selfishness, and most importantly, deep and all-consuming depression. He also struggles with the idea that the negation of the self and the freedom from desire that is the ultimate goal of so many eastern spiritual practices (at least in the versions that have made it to the west) is worthwhile in the first place. Maybe to deny desire is deny life itself? Having somehow stumbled into reading yet another book about depression, all these ideas and anxieties were relatable for me. I think Carrere has a lot to say on the conundrum faced by the depressive; sometimes gaining perspective on how insignificant your life is can be liberating, sometimes it only feeds your deepest existential dreads.

The book however starts to get tangled up in its own webs about halfway through when Carrere delves into his time in Greece. This part wasn't uninteresting, but it felt like the beginning of a different book entirely, and I'm still not sure why it was included besides as a long set-up for an anecdote about Martha Argerich. I think if this book had been trimmed down to a kind of monograph on yoga and depression, it would have come off better. show less

I found this book to be an exceptionally sincere and well written account of mental sufferance. It reminded me of Styron's "Darkness visible".
It speaks to all those who are fighting mental illness every day of their life and to those who are trying to get a bit of peace by practicing meditation or yoga.

Libro che mette in discussione la relazione fra mondo interiore ed esteriore, nonché (come credo in tutto Carrere, di cui questo è il primo libro che leggo) fra verità e invenzione rispetto alla dimensione del racconto (e della "auto-fiction", come si è soliti chiamarla) e infine, più in generale, fra vero e falso (vedi anche le dichiarazioni dell'ex moglie). La vicenda si sviluppa in modo frammentato e imprevedibile, seguendo i "salti" che la vita del protagonista (o quanto meno la sua narrazione relativa a essa) subisce, mettendo in luce, comunque la si guardi, una condizione di malessere e sofferenza, che è presente fin dalla prima (lenta, a tratti noiosa) parte per poi esplodere a partire dalla seconda.

Fictie of non fictie? Heerlijk verhalend (vanuit zichzelf) beschreven en op aangename manier (al lezend dus) veel bijgeleerd, eerder nog over meditatie en rai chi dan over yoga.

really really painful and boring
high expectations after The Adversary: not even close

Vuelve al nivel de El Adversario. Muy gustó mucho. Áspero.

La narración en primera persona de una crisis depresiva. Un libro deslumbrante que rompe moldes y corsés de género. Un nuevo hito de Carrère.

Quede claro para posibles lectores despistados que este no es un manual práctico sobre yoga, ni tampoco un bienintencionado libro de autoayuda. Es la narración en primera persona y sin ningún tipo de tapujo de la profunda depresión con tendencias suicidas que llevó al autor a ser hospitalizado, diagnosticado de trastorno bipolar y tratado durante cuatro meses. Es asimismo un libro sobre una crisis de pareja, sobre la ruptura afectiva y sus consecuencias. Y sobre el terrorismo islamista y el drama de los refugiados. Y sí, en cierto modo también sobre el yoga, que el escritor practica show more desde hace veinte años.

El lector tiene en sus manos un texto de Emmanuel Carrère sobre Emmanuel Carrère escrito a la manera de Emmanuel Carrère. Es decir, sin reglas, lanzándose al vacío sin red. Hace tiempo que el autor decidió dejar atrás la ficción y el corsé de los géneros. Y en esta obra, deslumbrante y a la vez desgarradora, se entrecruzan la autobiografía, el ensayo y la crónica periodística. Carrère habla sobre sí mismo y da un paso más en su exploración de los límites de lo literario.

El resultado es una descarnada expresión de las flaquezas y los tormentos humanos, una inmersión en los abismos personales a través de la escritura. El libro, que ha generado polémica ya antes de su publicación, no deja a nadie indiferente. show less