My Chaos, His Calm (Men of Fairlake)

Possible Triggers: Depression/ Sexual Assault,
My world is chaos, and he’s my only peace—but at what cost? My scars are both visible and hidden. I’m lonely, but I do okay…I think. I’m still a bit of a disaster, but I have a job and a roof over my head, and the medication keeps my demons at bay. What I don’t need is a babysitter, but try telling my overprotective brother that.

Felix and his older brother, Grant, had lived a life that was a living, breathing, reoccurring, nightmare. Felix put an end to it though when he was barely a teenager. Most of us couldn't even imagine a life like that.

In today time, we find Felix heading for the local bar. He knows he should not mix alcohol with his meds, but he's restless. No matter show more how many people he has around him, he still feels alone. He is finally starting to understand that it’s not the quantity of people that matters, but the quality. He remembers the best times were when he and Grant were living in a small town with a few nosey neighbors who took the time to wave to him, and sometimes ask for help in their gardens, or just acknowledge that they were neighbors.

He really likes being in Fairlake, Colorado, but he's still lonely. Then Felix meets Luke and right off sees how attractive he is... but he is very much aware that Luke is off-limits since he is straight. That doesn’t become an issue, though, because the two of them enjoy each other’s company and their friendship is easy. Luke has a calming influence on Felix and makes him feel more comfortable than he's ever felt before.

When they use the hot tub, Luke drinks too much and gets a conversation started, that will start their friendship rocketing into something much more. He thinks things just might work out… at least until Felix’s past catches up to him. Someone’s cruelty could hurt more than just Felix. Can they ever get past this, or will the relationships suffer a quick end?

I have liked the first two books in this series and this one isn't a 'bad" story...it's just unnecessarily long with way, way too much lengthy conversations. The story itself is deep, allowing the reader to experience many different emotions, some heartbreaking, some terrifying. I guarantee you will feel what the characters have gone through. Seeing that happiness and love are being offered makes all the difference for Felix....but he can't help wondering when, and if, it will all be taken away. Felix and Grant have to believe and be ready to share the truth of their past with those who love and care for them in order to have any type of happy future. In spite of the title, there is very little "calm" in this story. show less