General Chat #25 WE ALL BESTIES NOW

WHAT DID THEY DO WHEN THEY CAUGHT YOU?!

They didnt do anything, they just said "who are you talking to?" and i said i was just watching ytube

thankfully she didnt look through it, but i was forced to go to sleep

🤣🤣🤣 how did they believe that?

idk, i was on ytube as well tbh

Oh oks

Mah breakfast consists of prime energy drink and takis

I don't like normal prime so let's see if I like the energy drink

lol noice- i had grits with a fried eggo on the top

*coughs in totally not writing down all the warrior cat herbs for roleplays*

*vibes to ME!*

HEEEEY

is anyone online rn? i kinda need to talk to someone, ig

I'm online, Whats wrong?

im online- sorry my phone decided to lock

why do i even keep making rps.....its not like people are remotely intrested

Why the hell am i stupid enough to put some of the roleplays i made myself on here- UGH

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha- How the hell am i in high school?

I CAN BARELY PASS MATH AS IT IS

oop

im also barely passing math

*huggo*

*huggo*

wow, no ones here still

.......................

damn still no one

:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

hi

i have issues

im still alive

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im soooooooooooooo hungryyyyy

............................

guys come back im lonelyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

im gonna be so late for school....

ANYONE ONLINE???????????????

Gah im bored so ima just head offline

Would anyone be intrested if i made an rp in the middle of nowhere?

Im online

>38 Owltherian: wdym?

So its kind of like In a continent in the middle of nowhere, lives 5 kingdoms. On the outskirts of these kingdoms have been mysterious attacks by “Tribes,” though the continent is confused as to who they are and what they want.
This, however, is not a problem for the group of thieves who live in Kohl. They spend their days taking miscellaneous jobs from whoever is willing to pay them. Why worry about dangerous tribes when you’re the strongest group in Kohl? On the night of Queen Farda’s Annual Celebration, the group is offered a job to open all the windows on the second floor. It seemed like an easy job and gave the opportunity to pickpocket rich royals.

ALSO HAI YUUKI

Uhm maybe?

HIIIIIII

Yet another vent: Does anyone else get a weird feeling when you see your best friend having a better time with someone else than they do with you? Like I'm glad their happy but for some reason it hurts...

YESYESYESYESYES

that happened to me today

i was gonna vent abt itt

telekinesis

lol- it sucks...

ooh! Idk if i told u, but im doing a writing contest! Wanna see what i have so far?

sure!

>48 Owltherian: Kinda. One of my friends ive known for years is turning out to be a major dick

Heres the expo. page

TITLE: idk yet

GENRE: Realistic fiction and horror

THEMES: Mental illness and the unknown

CHARACTERS:
Rio (Main Character) - A 28-year-old who lives with his parents. He doesn't have a job, so he makes no money, and he doesn't contribute to the household very much, besides doing a few chores around the house. Despite this, he still loves his family.
Mia (Little Sister) - She is 15, and is confused on why Rio, her older brother, doesn't have a job. She works at a fast food restaurant as a cashier. She tends to be a quiet person, and often cooks for herself.
Carmen: (Mother) - A 53-year-old. She also doesn’t have a job, but mostly helps around the house. She is a loving mother, and despite Rio’s unwillingness to help the household, houses him.
Kris (Father) - A 55-year-old. He was an active man, and still stays in shape despite his advancing age. He can come off a bit gruff, and unlike Rio’s mother, is strict. He urges Rio to get a job, and stop laying around the house. Despite this, he truly loves his children. He works with a construction company.
Jacob (Rio’s friend) - He’s a 28 year old, and has been Rio’s best friend since childhood. The two often go out and do things together.

PLOT:
It's the 20th of December, 2012. According to the Mayan calendar, The world will end tomorrow, taking all life with it. Despite scientists repeatedly denying the claims, it causes a nation-wide panic. Even though Sildam is small, the fear reaches there as well. Many Sildam families are panicking, and others are accepting their fate. Others are committing crimes, and others still go about their daily routines. Rio’s family is such a family.
They didn’t believe all this Mayan nonsense.
But it wasn’t nonsense.

SETTING:
Sildam (The Town) - A small town called Sildam (Fake town) off to the South of Michigan (Real place). Sildam isn’t a very populous place, after all there aren’t any music festivals around, or any celebrations. It’s a completely normal and average town. But there is a rumor… If you were born in Sildam, chances are, you’ll never leave. There were a few people who’ve left Sildam for jobs or school, but they all came back within a year. Sildam has an eerie quiet surrounding it, making even its residents uncomfortable. Remember, If you were born in Sildam, chances are, you’ll never leave.

The House - A two story ranch-style house where Rio and his family live. Nothing special about it. Its white and black colors don’t vary from any other house in the area. Another boring place to add to this boring town

Yeah....my friends never really pay attention to me

>52 Yuuki_TheMarshmallow: OOOOH- THATS SO COOL

And heres what ive written

Rio laid on the floor of his room, piled up with garbage. He slowly rose, only to walk to his bed and plop down on it. He grabbed the TV remote and turned on a show he’d been watching recently. He sighed, staring at the television. The minutes seemed like hours as time seemed meld together in his boredom. He took his phone from the nightstand and called Jacob, his best friend. It rang once. Twice. Three times. Four times. Five times. The call went to voicemail. He put the phone back on the nightstand and sat up. Everything seemed to blur as the clock ticked on. The newscaster on the television show seemed to drone on, but he listened absentmindedly. They talked about a car crash in a town across from her, the weather, and the traffic situation. As the newscaster kept talking in that bland voice, Rio looked up and stared at the ceiling for no particular reason. He gazed up mindlessly for what seemed like days. Rio looked back at the television, hoping it would cure his boredom.
“And today the weather has had record highs, despite it being the middle of winter,” The newscaster said blandly, “On another note, it appears that the Mayan calendar has doomsday, the end of the world, scheduled on Friday of next week. Now is the time we find out whether this prophecy holds any truth.” Rio couldn’t help but chuckle. It was all do dumb. Yeah right, He thought, Just more nonsense for the media to exploit. The newscaster kept talking, but Rio shut off the television. He grunted as he got up and walked down the stairs.
“Hey, Mom! Do you need any help down here?” He asked. He continued walking down the stairs when he heard his mothers familiar footsteps.
“Rio? You're awake? You normally get up later…” She said, a bit worried about the sudden change in her son's sleeping schedule, “And yes, I could use some help. Could you wash the dishes from dinner last night?”
Rio looked at the sink. Not many dishes were there, so he might as well, “Yeah, sure.” He said warmly. He always tried to be nicer around his family. They deserved it after all. “Did you see the news? About ‘doomsday’ or whatever.”
“I did, actually. What a bunch of bologna!”, His mother said. Rio cringed. His mother had always been the type that says things like that, “And it’s on Friday? Very creative!” She said, laughing. Rio smiled with his mom. She’d always been a kind, cheerful person. Rio washed the dishes, with nothing but the sound of running water to listen too. He picked up a knife and began scrubbing it, trying to get each and every bit of crud off of it. It slipped from his grip and cut his finger. “Tch..” He cursed under his breath as he picked the knife back up.
He finished up the dishes, and applied pressure to the cut on his finger. It had bled more than he thought. What a pain, He thought. His mother had fussed about his finger, despite how many times he’d said it was fine. He wasn’t a kid anymore. As he put a bandage on the cut, an intrusive thought entered his brain. Maybe I'm not a kid anymore, but… He couldn’t let himself finish the thought. It was too demoralizing, too depressing. The truth was, he was embarrassed. Embarrassed that at 28, he lived with his parents, and had no job and no house. I’m not even dating anybody, or at least trying to start a family… How pathetic… Rio knew he was getting older, and the longer he waited, the harder it would be. Ugh! He thought, Pathetic! Pathetic! Pathetic!
“Are you ok? You look angry, did I do something?” Rio’s mother asked. Her voice snapped him out of his own mind, but she was too perceptive.
“No, you're good. Sorry about that…” He said, scratching the back of his head. His mother smiled warmly. It was that kind of smile that only a mother could give. His heart ached, I’ve done nothing to help out this family! Argh, this sucks! I feel so guilty! He returned the smile after composing himself. He got up slowly and walked back up the stairs to his room, “Let me know if you need me to do anything else, okay?” He said halfway up the stairs. His mother nodded, and looked at Rio in a new light.

Ooooh-

>54 Owltherian: TYYYYSMMM

>53 Owltherian: samez

i cant sing at either of my parents houses.....either I'm too loud or making too much noise

soundproof your room

simple

i cant-

SIMPLE *Russian accent*

*singing quietly Miss Wanna Die*

oop-

im watching vents and i relate so many of them

oop

again

wanna talk about it?

Stare at the ceiling while i hold back whats on my mind

But the fact is.....i need help and I'm failing all my classes

I thought you said you were barely passing

And it keeps on piling.....its so terrifying.....but i keep on smiling

>70 Owltherian: dont. I promised i would help, so let me

>73 Owltherian: Dr. Suess??????

Just help me run away.....from everyone

I want to as well...

Dont...cry....I AM JUST A FREAK

But there isnt anything I can do physically. Im sorry

>78 Owltherian: Your not. Your a cherished human being that deserves to be happy

FOURTEEN YEARS AND IM DROWNING IN SORROWS......

With a bunch of fake friends 'cause I tried to fit in

GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER AND LOSE THE WEIGHT!

you dont have to fit in. Theres sure to be someone. If not, im always here!

>83 Owltherian: Im sure you dont weigh anything bad

I can make an argument against all of this you know

Miserable....so miserable....got all the fault lines to prove it

Thoughts tellin' me im lost, gettin' too loud

Didnt you listen to a word i said yesterday?

I can only do so much, and thats making you happy and comfortable here

Im trying as hard as i can

Maybe i should try harder.....

If i get more pretty....do you think she will like me?

no

Your pretty enough i bet

But also, she has her own feelings, you know? She may have other reasons for not liking you.

Ive been starving myself.....teach me how to be okay....

I dont wanna downplay my emotions...

It may not even be your fault. But, I hope she does say yes when/if you ask her

>98 Owltherian: Dont. Get it all out

>97 Owltherian: Im boutta call Randomz, take that back

Will you take my soul in the midnight rain?

WHILE IM FALLING APART & IM GOING INSANE

>102 Owltherian: What??

See, Im a waste of life

>103 Owltherian: Not while im here at least, lol

Will you end my pain?

>105 Owltherian: Incorrect

>107 Owltherian: What? Kill you? First of all, I cant. Second of all, NO

What a sight for sore eyes.....

Incorrect again

:)

She's such an angel.....but i kinda wish she was dead (talking about my cheating ex)

IF I COULD GO BACK TO THE DAY WE MET- I PROBABLY WOULD STAY IN BED (talking about my cheating ex)

Both very strong and valid emotions. I would feel the same way

>114 Owltherian: Maybe that would've been the better choice, but you can't change that now. Everything happens for a reason.

I caught her cheatin' so i made a list

a list of what?

Are you there? Are you Ok?

Lily?

Lets see-

1. Your Shady
2. your selfish
3. THE DUMBEST GIRL I DATED
4. Your toxic
5. CANT TRUST YOU

I also found a VERY moldy sandwich in my room-

ew

>121 Owltherian: isnt that an olivia rodrigo song?

yeah.....there was also a yummy looking cookie in there- AND THAT WAS FROM LAST CHRISTMAS

>124 Yuuki_TheMarshmallow: No

oh

>125 Owltherian: eat it lol

Heheheh- i'll get sick but idc!!

lol

But i told my friend i would be at school-

I need to clean my room rlly bad-

oop--

*poofs for a bit to clean it*

ok

its so fucking messyyyyyyyyy

damnnnnnnnnnn

I had two bags just full of trash-(they were shopping bags)

ohhh thats not bad

hold on ima type smth

Kk

I know i said I wouldnt mention him again (Btw, i agree with you, sorry about that. I was stupid) But i want to tell you how i met him. I just think you deserve the whole story. Recently, ive been feeling empty, so ive been trying to feel better. I tried love, and I asked him out. He seemed so nice, but that changed quickly. I need smth else to feel better ig

*huggo* hey its alright, im here for you for everything

*huggo* Thanks. I need to get myself out of this mess

I honestly feel bad, and i wish i could help

Its ok. Ill be ok

*huggo* I just...dont want you getting hurt is all

*Huggo again* I'd rather not get hurt either, but its probably going to happen, knowing him

ill be ok, I promise

if your not, tell me okay?

I will, but you gotta tell me too

i will

ughhh- my stomach hurts

im sorry

It hurtsssss-

i wanna rp- but i also wanna make another rp-

Ill be able to talk here and there but not much until around 1130

sorry again

its alr

yay

Take as much time as u need

Can u be on around 1130?? (230 your time)

maybe an hour earlier

mhm, i can be online!

Yay!

Like i said, ill send a message here and then, but ill be on for sure then

130 (Your time) is probably when ill be on actually

alrighty

Also, move to California so we can be buddiezzzzzzz

Moicah is only a 6 hour drive from my house!

dont ask how i know that

Lucky- although i can always see if i can visit like on a trip or sum

YESYESYES

If u do, I suggest sight-seeing in a town called Palm Springs. Its a 20 min drive from my house

ooooh-

stay in a town called Palm Desert. Cheep hotels

(I live there)

Oooh- noice

Just dont come in the summer unless you want to melt.

It gets up too 130 degrees fahrenheit

*Not me planning this shit out*

JEEZUS- Thats way too hot

Well, I do live in a desert!

I think were about 4th or 3rd hottest place?

A very hot desert

I looked it up no were not

ughhhh- my back hurts nowwww

It says that the hottest temp here was 122 but i have personally experienced 126

>185 Owltherian: are you dehydrated?

>187 Yuuki_TheMarshmallow: I have that issue a lot

Possibly- although i have a bunch of water- although its only under my shoulderblades

sounds like a muscle strain? Just relax your arms and it should heal overnight

Maybe- but it doesnt usually hurt-

either overuse or you slept weird

if you had bad posture it would be a constant pain

My posture is a giant shrimp rn

I would suggest drinking water though

>194 Owltherian: Ooh

Maybe it is posture

lay flat on your stomach

I bet your bending your spine wrong and that is causing pain. straightening it out

It hurts to sit normally....

yeah, so lay flat on your stomach

omg it feels better-

See

I know pack pain

howwww-

Ive suffered from it my whole life

bad posture and dehydration mostly

it fucking hurtsssss- but oml does it feel better rn

Mhm! Im glad your feeling better!

ish

im drinking a bunch of water & lying on the ground- and my shoulders still fucking hurtttttt

Im back

Wb!

u here?

yeah

i have to shower though

ah, i can wait then

Im back :))

Wb!!

ty

yw!

Sorry I haven't asked today, but how are you?

Good, i got to skip school bc my mum was sick

I had to go today. My day honestly, was really bad.

I'm glad you had a good day though!

*huggo* Want to tell me about it?

*Huggo* Not really. I'd rather not relive it.

It was... not good.

Okay, thats fine. What do u wanna talk about?

sorry

i dont know. I cried a bit tbh.

I should get it off my chest but idk

sorry

Its okay, and you can get it off your chest! i don't mind!

uh

ill PM you

Alright

Its not the school. The school is highly acceptive. Its the students

I dont know what to do.

Ah, well the students fucking suck. I wouldn't say my school is much better, my best friend's friend keeps using the wrong pronouns and say 'Women are born women & men are born men' AND IT PISSED ME OFF

yeah.

sorry im just stressed

Like bitch, NONBINARY, TRANS & LOTS OF OTHER PEOPLE EXIST

chances are, im gonna get beat up

Its fine bestie

not just from my bf this time

*pissed owl noises* Does your principal do anything about it?

They cant. Its off school property. And they do, but after suspension, they do it again. Lots of times, people dont even find out

thats just the way it is

*more pissed owl noises* Okay, I HATE the people in that town then! THEY SHOULDNT DO THAT TO ANYONE

Just how kids were raised i guess

Im starting to calm down

thanks

Your welcome girly

"Girly" lol

I say ten minutes later

now eleven

lol, i feel like i say 'yw bestie' or 'yw girly' a lot-

you dont

i guess i dont but idk

Sorry for just dumping that on you

Hey its okay!

I get mistreated a lot. So i'm glad you're here with me, Thanks

I used to, but my life is slightly getting better. Im glad your with me as well, and your very welcome!

I'm glad its getting better for you. You deserve it

Sorry for responding so late

Although i constantly have to be as silent as a mouse

>266 Yuuki_TheMarshmallow: Its fine bestie

:))))))))))

:)))

bleh im tired and my shoulders still hurtttt

Your lucky though, I'm afraid if singing

>271 Owltherian: nurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I never can practice due to my parents though

It feels like something is sticking out of them- but there isnt

huh?

huhdihihdiwhwihwdi- *in pain owl noises*

im sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyy

I dont know how to helppp

blanket over it makes me feel better.....i think

hopefully

*hap owl noises* Its a lot better

Yay! Im glad!

Maybe it was a wing shift or sum- idk-

cuz i only feel that when i shift

ohh

yeah....it kind of hurts for a bit- maybe hours, minutes, or however long the shift lasts

that sucks, im sorry

it does but it doesnt happen often....well as much as it used to

thats better i guess

I dont rlly have owl shifts as much as i do either wolf & cat shifts

ohhh.

yep

I dont know much about therians, sorry

i do know what a shift is tho

ah, i have a whole post about therians

i see

fancy

yep lol

I wanna do a rp where two ocs r trapped in a room

ooooh-

like an elevator

Hehehhehe- i have an oc ideaaaa

oooh what

Oki soooo- i'll make it where da other oc's are-

kkkkkkkkk

can you make the thing please

sure! Do u want a like specific description of the rp?

Also what should the age range be?

im thinking workplace so 18-40

and sure

kk, what do u want the desc for the rp to be?

actually nvm on that, sorry

kk, I'll just put: Two people stuck in an elevator- not knowing the next time they would see the light of day again.

ok

Boom! Made

I also made my oc!

i saw!

Do u like them?

i do

now meet...

JEAN

I love his name lol

anyone here?????

Hoolloooo

ohm heya

anayone else?

OMG JYNX HAIIII

Lets seee- Reasons i have cried: Losing a best friend, family issues, losing someone I love, Hurtful words, losing my dogs, being lonely, Friend problems, Siblings/family, school, relationships, Hating my body, Being made fun of, movie, etc.

0o0 all that in just a few days????

Overall these are reasons i have cried

Oh my god..I'm so sorry....that's horrible! *huggos*

*vibes to hey little girl

Introduced to meh by owl :)

Noice lol

HOLY SHIT, THAT WAS YESTERDAY?!

Oop- lol

hi

Sorry i havent been on much

Its fine!!!

I thought Randomz was back but it was April Fools T^T

I LIVE

ARE YOU HERE STILL

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH- *tackle huggos* I MISSED U SO MUCHHHHHH

ME TOOOOOO *falls but also huggos*

I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL SOON BUT IF UR ABLE TO GET ONTO GOODREADS WE CAN TALK WHILE IM IN DA CAR

Okkk

Like walking out the door soon actually-

Oop

Its 430 am for me lol

its 7:24am for me

Ahhhh- gtg

Ok! See you later!

my acc on goodreads is Owl (Lily)

Idk what goodreads is.

hehe- im back nows :) but i gtg for class in a few mins

Aw

I gots 2 mins- and i wont be back until 8:46am

Oh

Well hru?

Wanna vent or smth before you go?

im goodish ig, i'll vent when i get back tho

Alright! Ill see you later! Have a good hour or so!

im backkkk- and my hands smell like onions

Hiiii

Why?

I had to use an onion for a lab + i feel sick bc of the smell

Ooh

I feel sick bc of the butter smell

I got some in my hair and i cant get it out

vents: People like you!! No, No, No, No, No, No, No. They like the carefully curated version of myself that i create from my interactions with other people. Why not be yourself? Hahahahahaha I CANT

Im just the happy friend in all my friends' lives who only exists so they say im dramatic they're all saying I'm so pretty or funny or that im always playing victim while im crying in my room so i'll wait for my cue to be the backup friend...can't be too sad, can't be too busy, if i don't make them laugh now are they still gonna need me?

I start to draw or read whenever i begin to feel depressed...*points to thousands of books and art supplies*

When i feel like crap but i cant ded myself because my friends wouldn't understand....i cant leave them....they mean to much....I'm only staying for them

hahahahaha.....i fucking failed.....i got a 3 out of 24

Yeah dont leave me!

>371 Owltherian: well screw school

oh no its okay you can ask to redo it *hug*

no i fucking cant....its a blooket....you cant redo that

Oh well blookets crap

its okay owl calm down i was in your same situation its okay

Owl i have all fs lol

its for a grade.....and i already have to retake a whole quiz in Biology i got a 40/100 on

Study, i can help maybe

oh my.

I am going to have to go to summer school & then i will fail that....

hey i had to go to summer school! so we are in the same boat

If i have to retake this class...it will be ontop of EVERY class I'm taking next year!

if i could die rn- i would

IT KEEPS FUCKING SAYING 'Skewed Right' WHEN ITS TO THE DAMN LEFT

*hug* its okay..

I HATE THIS TEACHER RN

>385 Owltherian: dont.

i know i know..

>386 Owltherian: ?

my friend knows more......and he was fucking absent when we started this.....

what the hell is wrong with me......

No im confused about what you were saying

its nothing your just stressed ..

>393 Owltherian: nothing, your perfect

im talking about my irl friend

>395 Bazlisprout: that too

>397 Owltherian: oh

i keep having to redo this whole question....

Whats the question

Its two whisker plots and i have to: Compare the medians of the box plots and make an inference based on the median values.

What are the medians?

its basically the same at 57

We have a fucking quiz in two days about this whole thing......

Now its telling me about shapes and i just want to cry

Its either:

Bell shapes
reverse J shaped
Uniform or
triangular

Is there an image?

Sorry, my parents awoke

When i get the answer wrong....yeah

and its fine Yuuki

No its not. I really want to help. As best as i can!

Even though your a grade above me or two

im just wanting to cry- and or bang my head into a desk

Well im your shoulder to cry on. Im here for you no matter what!

Also dont bang your head on the desk-

I have done it before-

Well dont do it again

If you need a way to cope, you have us at least

yeah.....

See?

i guess.....and i will try my best to stay up all night tonight

You dont have to if you dont want to

I want to though

Ok, i just dont want to make you feel like you have too

*sigh* These people in this damn class are making me feel dumb + i already cried today

Burn them in there beds ❤️

Its fucking Algebra lab & i feel dumb AGAIN

Burn the teacher ☺️

I cant....and i am about to fucking cry

Heyyy its ok! :3

welp....im crying and i dont fucking understand anything

Ask someone maybe? Im sorry im bad at math

Im myeh at algebra though so maybe i can help

i dont know anyone in this class....

Well whats the problem?

idk.....i want to bang my head into this damn desk due to how stupid i am....

Your not stupid, your smarter than me at least

now its fucking about Pokemon FUCKING GO

What??

Its a dot graph about how many people played it and now they want to make it better and now I'm stressed as hell....

Just take a break and sone out or smth

i cant....take a break....they wont let me

Well like, just dont do anything for a bit

they keep circling.....over and over

they dont even explain things....

Ask the teacher to explain it

we are basically reviewing!

Still, it cant hurt

Its they’re job to help

I already cried....and i have to redo a whole quiz.....right after this

Goodreads (My acc): https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/176883837-owl-lily

Well ace the quiz 👌

>452 Owltherian: i dont have an email so i cant get into goodreads-

i failed it with a 40/100 the first time

Yeah, so get a good score now!

ig....but the questions are diff....

But are they on the same concept?

Just with like different numbers?

yeah...and i give up at this point....

Its in Biology

u will now only be able to find meh on Goodreads- i have sent the link to my acc

I cant get into goodreads 😭

is it blocked?

No, i dont have an email

Can we maybe do a padlet?

You there?

…

Come back to us, silly child

Pls come back 😢

I sorryyyyyyy....i was hanging with mah friend

No its ok!

*huggo* i also had held my bladder for 3 hours straight- it fucking hurt a lot

*huggo* amateur, ive held mine for seven lol

Damn- i wouldnt be able to-

im also chewing on a bobby pin

Toothpick-

It was my hatred for public bathrooms that got me through

I hate public bathrooms- THEY STANK

PREACH SISTER PREACH

LIKE EWWWW

REAL

ALSO WHY ARE THEY ALWAYS OUT OF TP

NOT AS REAL IN MY SCHOOL BUT STILL

I walked into the bathroom and there was blood EVERYWHERE LIKE SO MUCH

It was definitely someones time of the month-

IT WAS ON THE WALLS OUTSIDE THE STALL

Yeahhhhh- i hate that-

WHY WAS IT OUTSIDE THE STALLS?

WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?

IDK?! I also have choco covered marshmallows

:0

JEALOUSSSSSS

What a weird conversation this has been

I barely ate today- and someone called meh stupid T^T

Punch em!

She said 'ur name isnt allston (Whom was the friend i was hanging with)' and she was like 'your name is still Lily right?' LIKE BITCH I KNOW MY NAME- I JUST DONT WANT YOU FUCKING AROUND ME

Wait, do u have a preferred name?

Wait i shouldnt call you lily

Omg im sorry!

Nah, i dont have a prefered name- Owl or Lily is fine :)

Oh im sorry again

its okay bestieee!

*embarrassed*

*huggo*

*huggo*

*bored owl noises*

*vibes to a depressing suicidal playlist on Spotify*

…

Dont even think about it

the song is Hate Me

Prolly 'cause there's no one around me numbin' all my pain.....

Prolly 'cause there's no umbrella to shield me from all the rain

>510 Yuuki_TheMarshmallow: DONT THINK ABOUT IT

All of the lies.....startin' to feel like the truth

Ask me how im doin', i say "okay"

Sometimes I think back to the old days....

In the pointless conversations with the old me

Brb for a bit

If you want love, you gon' have to go through the pain!

kay

I've always tried to control things.....

In the end that's what controls me.....maybe that's why i'm controllin'!

Talkin' to the voices in my head, they make me think twice!

Fake it till i make it....

Well i must have made it because I've been faking everyday....

Im baaaaack!

wb

I'm fine. Well, I'm not fine - I'm here.

Why not?

Lets see- life

Those who fail to exhibit positive attitudes, no matter the external reality, are seen as maladjusted and in need of assistance. Their attitudes need correction. Once we adopt an upbeat vision of reality, positive things will happen. This belief encourages us to flee from reality when reality does not elicit positive feelings. These specialists in "happiness" have formulated something they call the "Law of Attraction." It argues that we attract those things in life, whether it is money, relationships or employment, which we focus on. Suddenly, abused and battered wives or children, the unemployed, the depressed and mentally ill, the illiterate, the lonely, those grieving for lost loved ones, those crushed by poverty, the terminally ill, those fighting with addictions, those suffering from trauma, those trapped in menial and poorly paid jobs, those whose homes are in foreclosure or who are filing for bankruptcy because they cannot pay their medical bills, are to blame for their negativity. The ideology justifies the cruelty of unfettered capitalism, shifting the blame from the power elite to those they oppress. And many of us have internalized this pernicious message, which in times of difficulty leads to personal despair, passivity and disillusionment.

Thats deep

And also PREACH

The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.

Oop-

I thought about suicide all the time, but it seemed too much effort, swallowing all those pills or jumping off things. If I'd lived out in the country I would have found a quiet stretch of railway track, and lain on it, fallen asleep, so that I would never have known when my last moment came. In London, the minimum tube fare had gone up so much that even to get near the line cost a fortune. Suicide seemed an extravagance I couldn't afford. People never leave you alone, either; I knew that if I'd tried to lie down on the line, any number of commuters would have pulled me off again, so that I didn't delay their train. There must have been murderers out there who wanted to kill, with no way of finding those who wanted to be dead. If there had been some way of contacting them, a date-with-death line, I would have called them to set up a meeting. The current ways of death seemed too haphazard; it was all left up to chance. Had Chance come up, tapped me on the shoulder, said "Oi, you - long black tunnel, white light, off you go," I wouldn't have complained. It was like having frostbite all over - feeling numb and in pain at the same time.

:0

What people don't understand about depression is how much it hurts. It's like your brain is convinced that it's dying and produces an acid that eats away at you from the inside, until all that's less is a scary hollowness. Your mind fills with dark thoughts; you become convinced that your friends secretly hate you, you're worthless, and then there's no hope. I never got so low as to consider ending it all, but I understand how that can happen to some people. Depression simply hurts too much.

Depression isnt sadness, its a general lack of emotion that can lead to sadness ☝️🤓

Although panic attacks can be scary and overwhelming, they can also be a powerful teacher, showing us the depths of our inner strength and resilience. We may develop more self-awareness, self-compassion, and a stronger feeling of connection with others by addressing our anxieties and finding ways to control our anxiety.

WAIT THATS TRUE

I struggle to speak from my heart because I've been taught to silence my emotions. I've been conditioned to think my opinion doesn't matter and no one wants to hear it. But that's not true. That's not how I should conduct myself moving forward I'm going to surround myself with people who want to check in on me, and who genuinely care about my well-being.

As we live the long-overdue anguish of fearing them, our greatest nightmares refuse to happen. As soon as we relax, they snatch us, unprepared. The consolation is that the pain of having them, not rarely, is less than that of waiting for them. When I lost everything, I felt like I was a victim. What a strange feeling! I reassessed everything that had happened to me and I felt like a miserable, a pitiful boy. And I fell into the trap of the idiots, who when suffering feel privileged, as if suffering was synonymous with suffering well. I needed to suffer more. I needed to suffer well. Without allowing fear and pain to overwhelm me. Assigning to events no more consideration than they deserved.

Its not, and im here! 😃

I had someone once who made every day mean something, and now…. I am lost….and nothing means anything anymore.

I didn’t love you to seek revenge. I didn’t love you out of loneliness or unhappiness. I didn’t love you for any of the misguided reasons that time might convince you I did. I just loved you because you’re you.

Why must so many people have left me? Its like they want to.....

It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it's so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn't coma back. You're left so alone that you can't explain. Damn, there's nothing like that, is there? I've been there and you have too. You're nodding your head.

Oh uhhh hai Moicah

Dont mind my rambling up there

Back

wb Yuuki

Why the hell are you up lmao

Ummm.....waiting for Spence but he never arrived :/

Ah

Yeah, he said he would be back at 10:30 but never came

I pulled and all nighter yesterday and i want to see if i can do it again

>559 Owltherian: oh

lol, i will be trying to do all nighters for like the rest of this week (also Friday i wont be on for a bit bc i plan on hanging with my friend again)

Ooh! Im glad you gave irl freinds lol

Good news btw, i broke up with him!

I never ever get to hang out with them anymore tbh....one moved- one tried to kill me....

>564 Yuuki_TheMarshmallow: Great! How did it go?

Bad, but it was over text

>565 Owltherian: 🫵🫨

I am now the singlest pringle

>569 Yuuki_TheMarshmallow: I also somewhat single pringle- my gf....i cant rlly talk to...

Why?

She got caught on the padlet i made.....and now she doesnt really ask about me....i think she just forgot at this point...

Maybe her parents?

Like every relationship i have had just went down the gutter....

She was active on scratch 7 hours ago.....and the last time she asked about me was 4+ days ago at this point....

Oh

She used to have 'taken' in her bio but now that's just gone....

Why do all of my relationships die? I cant just love anyone anymore....

Am i just humanly impossible to love?

Is that whats happening to me?

WHY DOES LIFE WANT ME TO SUFFER

Maybe she just moved on

>579 Owltherian: no, thats wrong

It feels like i am.....and maybe she did move on....but if she was going to move on she could have at least broken up with me

Thats true

Talk to her

And your not impossible to love

I cant....and my friends that i can talk to her with are all offline....

Well not now lol

Patience grasshopper

Yeah....i just hope they will be on soon

Me too

Your problems with relationships us communication

yeah...maybe it is

Thats what it sounds like at least

Im here to help no matter what!

Ig, i dont really....know how to communicate well....

Well learn! Be more dependent on your lover! Tell them more things so that they are well informed!

I try....i just struggle with anything....especially talking to people i don't know.....and even ordering food

Omg im so sorry

>599 Owltherian: i struggle with that too

Its fine....i went to bed anyways

im in immense pain rn- i just stubbed TWO of my toes!

Owch!!! Like on a wall?

No, a coffee table

Damn

R u ok now?

mhm- but i also started my period so no

Aw

*huggo* sorry lol

it fucking aches- i also woke up at 5am- fell asleep at 2- and then had to wake back up at 6

Oop

i also moved a bishes stuff & she yelled at my friend & im finna bout to beat her up

want to see some pics i have to look at for an assignment? (p.s. its a lot of injured people)

Sure ig?

Want to join the Silly Liberation Force?

heheh- sure

Yay! Silly Liberation Force!

It wont let me copy & paste the pics T^T

Awh

Yaknow what ima look some up-

Bombing of Nagasaki

Ö

Do u know how i end my letters?

No- also another pic:



A kid who had affects from the nuclear bomb

Wow

Always bring a water gun to a knife fight,
-INSERT DEAD NAME

XD

This is a pic that was on the assignment:

Tf is that?

Owl, just a reminder to not kys:

In America, killing yourself is illegal… (Dont ask, but it is)

DO YOU WANT TO BE A FELON, OWL???? 🫵🤨

wait- is it rlly illegal?

Heheh- Person's shadow left on step

Oop-

>636 1hope: well like, if ur caught

Sorry im just trying to get someone to not kill themselves

:)

I really dont know what to say here-

*vibes to Nightmare*

Its really serious, i might not be on for awhile

Im so sorry

*huggo* its oki

That persons gf kts, and they cant take it.

*feels like im going to pass out owl noises*

They havent been online for thirty minutes now

They left and they didnt come back

Were all just waiting for her to come back, if she does.

I wouldnt be surprised if she didn’t, there have been suicides before.

Sorry- im just a little stressed and mad

Im worried as hell

welp....i feel like im gonna pass out peace peeps

I hope you dont

Sorry again

blood loss is a powerful thing (period)

i feel 'great'

Lol. I really am sorry. Im just so fucking scared. And its making me mad bc i hate feeling scared

Lotta emotions

The person whose tryna kts?

Not on this site

Shes ok

Shes back

Maybe not actually. She still wants to die, and she said she will

Ill be back later

Thanks. Being a therapist sucks

*sigh* im freaking lightheaded....

Brb

1hope take care of the child (owl)

bleh- i hate being on my .

Im back *sweat*

we had a long conversation

She still wants to die

>679 1hope: BRO- PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DON'T TAKE THIS OFFENSIVELY BUT I THOUGHT YOU WERE AFAB???

Cramps hurt like hell- and i feel like im finna pass the fuck out

Maybe just go to sleep? Take some medicine?

Do u have ibuprofen?

I cant....im still at school- but i now have apple juice and some popcorn

I feel like i may pass out- crap

The only people around me are men- and they wont understand that i may pass out due to bloodloss from my GREAT once a month thing

Mhm

it freaking sucks and hurts a lot-

wanna know why a period happens?

Ello

Hai Gabby

Nah, i had to learn from my science teacher :) WHOM WAS A MALE

WHY MUST HAVE WOMEN BEEN BUILT LIKE THISSSSSS-

I HATE PERIODS, I THROW UP EVERY TIME IM ON IT

I ALMOST PASS OUT EVERYTIMEEEEE

>705 1hope: Period cramps can be as bad as someone having a heart attack :)

it hurts like a motherfer