Crush

*spoilers!*

This book... wow. I'm not really sure what to say, how to review it, without rambling like I usually do when I read such a book.

First, let me say that I *loved* how the first part of the book was written... The summary on the back of the book mentions Jinx's crush on Lexie, but the thing is that if you don't read that summary, you'd have no idea at first!! The first... probably 1/3 of the book... Is so totally... totally *innocent*. Lexie and Jinx laugh and talk and pass notes and mess around, and it's all so innocent and sweet and cute. If you didn't know better you would have no idea where it would end up!

I liked Lexie at first, I really did. I loved her attitude and spirit and wildness. But as the book went on, and Jinx show more fell for Lexie, and things started progressing, I started liking Lexie less and less. No, I started hating Lexie. She's a total bitch. She is THAT kind of person, that I hate: the girl who likes other girls and gets sexual with other girls, but sleeps with guys and steadfastly refuses to admit that she could possibly be queer and gets mad when it's suggested. Anotherwords, a complete hypocrite. And then when people find out and it's time to do or die, what did Lexie do? She pushed it all onto Jinx, said that it was totally one-sided and that Jinx had made her uncomfortable with her crush and all this bullshit!

I try to remind myself that this novel is set back in the... well, the time period after JFK was killed. Homosexuality was a lot more frowned upon then. Especially in a "prestigous" all-girls school. But the way the whole thing was handled... The headmaster so easily beliving Lexie's lie about it being one-sided, and putting Jinx on probation and making her see a therapist while Lexie got no punishment at all...

Lexie is so messed-up, she actually seems to *believe* it when she says that Jinx set her up, that Jinx was the one who initiated everything because she wanted Lexie to be "like her". I swear if Lexie was a real person I would smack the shit out of her. Damn. show less

I immensely enjoyed the author's descriptive style. It's a story about teenage love, and there's some truth for everyone. Although I'm not gay, I can see myself in Jinx at that vulnerable age. The author tells the story with humor, but it can also cut like a knife; I could not put it down.

Shall I say typical first time lesbian story. I gave it three stars for effort :)