Whisper1(Linda) Thread #6 of 2014

Contemplating books that made a difference, or those that I was blown away by the story, The Day Tiger Rose Said Goodbye comes to mind.

Long a fan of Jane Yolen's works, this is my favorite



It is a simple story, told softly, about Tiger Rose who was transitioning to another life, and before she left, she gently said goodbye.

It is a story of the unique bond held in our love of animals, and their love of us and our surroundings.

NON ILLUSTRATED BOOK #41
The Boleyn Wife by Brandy Purdy



Truly, I've read hundreds of books regarding Tudor history. I can honestly say this is the worst. Realizing that historical fiction is just that -- fiction --, however this leaves so very much to be desired that anyone with knowledge of the court of Henry III and his hunt and eventual discard of Anne Boleyn, can only shake their head in disbelief. Mainly, my quarrel is the out right embellishment of events that NEVER happened.

Written from the perspective of the snippy, strong tongued, jealous, vile and vengeful Jane Bolyen, wife of Anne's brother Thomas, the character is well-developed, perhaps too over developed. With page after page of bitterness and snaking sneaking, the reader learns that hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.

In reality, it was Jane who did indeed set in motion and help Cromwell gather scandalous deeds that could make the case for Anne's beheading. But, come on!!! Cromwell did not impregnate Jane Boleyn!

Karma definitely is a bitch and Jane's fate eventually was the same as Anne's.

Usually I give books away after I've read them. This one went straight into the garbage can.

In fairness to Brandy Purdy, she is not the only one who downright invents history. I no longer read any Philipa Gregory books for the same reason.

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #57


An Angel for Solomon Singer by Cynthia Rylant

This is a wonderful children's illustrated book of a story of Solomon who lives a lonely life in New York City. He resides in one room wherein he cannot change anything, including the paint on the wall.

In his older years, he looks back to growing up in the midwest. Finding NYC challenging and lonely he walks and walks and walks each night envisioning the corn fields and the love of family.

One night, he visits a diner and is served by a smiling, kind man named Angel. With the welcome and goodbye of good to see you, and come back, Solomon finds a home amid the hustle, bustle and cold city.

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #58


The Stars Will Still Shine by Cynthia Rylant

This is a lyrical, peaceful book reminding the reader that despite the difficulties we may face, life continues, and nature holds the bounty of goodness.

Ok to peek in? Congrats on the new thread! Sending you a new PM.

Nice review of The Aviator's Wife on your previous thread. I've read a lot about Charles and Anne Morrow Lindbergh over the years. Benjamin imagines that Anne knew about Charles' polygamous ways prior to her death. There isn't any objective documentation to support she knew, but the books rings true to me. Lots of information on the interwebs, especially some perspectives from Charles' children, both here and in Germany.

Anyone interested might also like A. Scott Berg's biography: Lindbergh. I believe he uncovered Anne's relationship with a doctor late in her marriage. The biography was written before the news about the German familes was discovered. Iknow he commentd on the news when it came out. Probably stillon the internet as well.

Your first review of the Jane Yolan book is delightful. Congrats on a new thread.

Compliments on your shiny new thread, Linda! Lovely topper. I am going to get that book, I say for my little niece, but really more for me, I think.

Sorry The Boleyn Wife didn't do it for you. I've pretty much stopped reading Tudor novels (and didn't watch the TV series) after I read a couple by Philippa Gregory. Though her writing style is okay, the historical inaccuracies were just too much for me. If one is going to write alternate historical fiction, like Guy Gavriel Kay does, then call it that.

Anyway, have a great weekend!

Happy new thread!

All caught up just in time for your new thread, Linda. I've only read one Jane Yolen, Briar Rose and it was a lovely read. I must remember to check out what else she has done.

Congrats on your new thread! Love the pictures of the books. : )

Happy New Thread, Linda!

Yoohooo Linda.. just popping in to say hello on your new thread. I hope you enjoy a great weekend.

Same for me, Linda. Congrats on the new thread, and enjoy the weekend!

Happy weekend, happy new thread, and a passel o' smooches!

I was curious about the Boleyn Wife . I'll definitely not read it. Thanks for your short review!

>3 Whisper1: Linda, I love that there is someone else in this world who would rather throw books away than recycle their vileness through the world. And, thanks for the warning about this book.

Cromwell and Jane? uhm ... no

>1 Whisper1: >2 Whisper1: Love the cat illustrations in the Yolen book.

Happy New Thread Linda! Thanks to you I'll know to avoid that Purdy book.

Popping in to check on things. Happy Saturday! Hugs.

Happy new thread! Hope you have had a great weekend! :)

Happy New thread Linda! Just glancing at your mention of Tiger Rose made me tear up. Onto my wish list for the "one day" pile!

Happy New Thread, Linda! I need to go back a bit to see how you're doing when you're not reading and reviewing.

Happy New thread and a happy week for you, Linda!

The Day Tiger Rose Said Goodbye looks lovely, but also like I might cry my eyes out over it.

Thanks for the Boleyn book warning! I usually avoid historical fiction, because it's too often badly written, but I have a weakness for that particular part of history, so I could well have fallen into the Purdy trap.

Hello, sweet Linda! Good news that this surgery will actually accomplish what you thought the other ones would. Kyphosis is nothing to sneeze at, and if the neck starts to curve anteriorly rather than posteriorly, that can cause so many issues too. I'm so happy to hear that you've got an excellent team of smart smart smart surgeons working with you for this major surgery. It is scary and serious and all of those other awful things, but it's also a wonder and a miracle and amazing and a whole wheelbarrow-full of positive things too. Smooches for you that the semester ends as smoothly as possible, and that you've got a good book or two waiting for you when you get home to help you escape for awhile. :)

Hi Linda, I have a copy of The Aviator's Wife and think maybe I need to bump it up a bit in the pile. I was glad to see that you liked it.

I loved seeing the illustrations again for The Day Tiger Rose Said Goodbye and thank you again for that rec! It really was a lovely blending of the sadness of loss with the acceptance of it. Very bittersweet.

Wishing you well!

Happy New thread, Linda! I hope you are doing well and the pain levels are minimal. Hugs!

Whoopsie! Catching up on your threads, I accidentally posted this on your last thread. You go too fast for me!:

Wow! A big thumbs-up for your review of The Aviator's Wife. That one's been on my wishlist for ages, but you've just rearranged my TBR stack for me!

Happy week, Linda! Almost halfway done. *smooch*

Happy New Thread, Linda! The illustrations in the Yolen book are lovely.

I'm happy to see so many posts! Many thanks!!!

Bumps in the road to surgery at Thomas Jefferson, but they are smoothed and now I await approval for out of network for surgery. I have all good faith that it will sail through. The out of network paperwork and approval should take 2-3 weeks.

According to the wonderful surgeon who performed my other three fusions, Dr. Alexander Vaccaro at The Rothman Institute is the only one who can perform this surgery with the precision and expertise needed.

Last week, an MRI was scheduled. I was in the tube for an hour. Since I'm a difficult stick, the technician had a hard time getting the dye into my system. Six sticks later, she was able to get 1/2 of the amount of dye in my system -- back in the tube for another 20 minutes and then, a phone call the next day stating that it had to be done all over again because 1/2 the dye did not produce the clarity of images needed.

This week, back to the hospital and after three times, the entire amount of dye was injected. Back in the tube, came home and was very sick from the amount of dye in my system.

Last week, two cat scans were scheduled. Two hours at the hospital while the radiologist and staff tried to reach Dr. Vaccaro to have clarity regarding the levels to take for spine images. They refused to do the entire spine. They could have done the neck cat scan, but wanted to do both at the same time. Because they could not reach Dr. Vaccaro, I came home without the tests.

This week, it was confirmed that the images were needed for the entire spine and neck. Appointment went well.

Wit the exception of a nuclear stress test at the hospital tomorrow with my cardiologist, I've done all that is required of me --MRI, two cat scans and extensive blood work. The cardiologist wants to be certain that my heart can sustain nine-ten hours of surgery.

Last Friday, I had an hour long appointment with the surgeon who recommended Dr. Vaccaro. He is indeed an amazing man! He scheduled me for the end of the day, last appointment and said "Ask any questions you have about this surgery." "My time is yours for as long as it takes for you to understand why you need the surgery and what is entailed."

I left with a clearer understanding, a hug, and a blessing!

Because the level above the original fusion is now degenerating (C2-3), the surgeon will begin there. I will be fused from C2-T5. I most likely will awake with a halo which I'll need to wear for approximately ten weeks. In addition, I'll be in a walker for a few months while I learn to walk again with a new posture.

The first incision will be from the front of the neck, and the last surgery/fusion plates will be removed. Then, I'll be turned around and a large incision will be made from the top of the neck - mid, lower back.

Rods will be placed along both sides of the spine and screws will be in place..then my neck will be gently pulled upward, locked in place and then fused.

I'm scared, but resolved. I know it needs to happen and I know I'm pretty darn fortunate that one of the best surgeons in North America has agreed to accept my case and perform the surgery.

I ask for prayers that this will work, that I'll be able to walk without falling, that I'll be able to pick up objects without them falling, and mainly that this terrible pain will be ever so much better!

THANKS TO ALL FOR WALKING WITH ME ON THIS JOURNEY.

Dear Linda, you know that I pray for you every day. I have a hard time reading the surgical procedure, but I am so so very glad that it's available and that you're going to get it. You have been such a champ so far....not even fussing about the relatively little things like dye and failed appointments that would have me screaming. You have learned so much about yourself and the world that you are going to be even more formidable a woman than you are already.
Resolute is what you are and what you have to be. You're still my hero!

Waving Hi! Left you a PM. : )

I wish so much I could be there to hold your hand.

>33 Whisper1: All of the above, dear and brave soul. My hardest whammys for success and relief and an easeful end to suffering for you.

xoxoxo

The surgery plan sounds daunting, Linda, but it's wonderful that the surgeons are taking so much time to make sure you know exactly what's going to happen and what to expect. Like everyone else here, I am wishing as hard as I can that this will be the final piece of the pain-free puzzle for you.

That's a lot of surgery, Linda. I appreciate the detail you've provided - it's always fascinating to me, and I suspect a comfort to know what actually will happen. But that's a lot of fusing. Since they are repositioning your neck, maybe you'll get a little taller? (My particular dream, as I shrink.)

Is the event scheduled yet? Please let us know, so we can cross our fingers and appeal to our various gods as it happens.

With all this going on, one wonders how you manage to have time for RL, your friends here on LT and all the reading you do. Praying for a wonderful result.

Sending hugs . . .

Keeping you in my thoughts, always, Linda. I just keep thinking of the New Linda who will walk out from the other side of all of this!

I just keep thinking of the New Linda who will walk out from the other side of all of this!


Yes! Amber said it so well! I too am projecting out past the successful surgery to a Linda that is pain and fall free. God Bless.

Oh, Linda, you are in my thoughts and prayers facing this surgery. It sounds like you have wonderful, compassionate, knowledgeable, and skilled doctors to get you through this. Hugs!

Oh, hugs and prayers, Linda! So much!

Hi Linda, I missed a lot of posts in your thread and it is really impossible to read them all. I just wanted to say HI!

Sending hugs and love!

Good grief, what a lot you have endured just to prepare for this surgery. I wish you all the strength you will need to follow through and recover as swiftly as humanly possible afterwards. A new posture? That sounds intimidating, but after everything else, it should be a breeze for you! Sending positive and healing energy as always.. and blaming you for making me request Aviator's Wife with that wonderful review. Keep well and feel hugged

Hi Linda! Haven't visited your thread in the longest time and had no idea that you were facing another surgery. I hope everything turns out well and that you will soon be up and running around. My father had neck surgery that left him in a halo for months, but after rehab he was back up and walking once again. I'll be thinking of you and pulling for your quick recovery!

Linda, I "borrowed" one of your pictures from your profile page to put on my desktop, on my MacBook Air, so that I can see your happy smiling face, and think positive healing, good health thoughts in your direction every day. I am holding you in the Light and see the best possible outcomes for you. You are a valuable friend here, and I look forward to the day you can post that you are feeling fit as a fiddle, and pain free!

ETA: it is the picture of you and Judy at the Italian Market in May of 2013. A happy day.

Seems you've started a mini-Lindbergh reading trend over here! Well done, you!

Thinking of you this weekend. Hoping all is well.

Oh, my goodness. I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes. It is ever so, so wonderful to have the love and support needed to get me through this.

All tests are done for now. I hate, hate working with Thomas Jefferson hospital.

I was told four times that billing is the first contact to start the process to schedule surgery. No one from billing returned my call. I then learned that I was given the wrong phone number...and the wrong information.

Receiving the correct phone number, I was placed on hold for 45 minutes when I called billing to learn that information was wrong. I need to first schedule the surgery, then billing will make the case for out of network. Two calls Friday and one this morning and still no response from scheduling to get the surgery in motion.

I left a message for Dr. Vaccaro's physicians assistant and nicely told her that more than one person (me) is impacted by the date when the surgery will occur. Can somebody...anybody.... get back to me?????

On the positive side, my primary care doctor, her assistant, her nurses, my surgeon who performed three previous surgeries and his assistant are incredible!

I keep wondering what people do who are not persistent. I was told from the get go that I couldn't have an appointment because it would do no good to come down for just one out of network allowed appointment. I pushed with the help of previous surgeon (Dr. Falaytan's) assistant and she got it through. All along I've had misinformation, rude, nasty buggers on the other end of the phone and a host of misinformation.

How do people who are not as savvy as I am get through the system? What the hell is happening with health care, and health care "professionals????"

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Okay, done with the mini rant. My wonderful primary care doctor called me last Thursday with the result of the thoracic spine ct results. She said she could "cry for me." I knew that didn't bode well and not so good news was heading in the next sentence when she told me the result showed a "greatly exaggerated curvature of my spine, compacting disks and pushing on nerves in my back. So, now I do understand the reason I'm falling a lot lately and why my legs and right hand is so weak.

I have confidence that Dr. Vaccaro can fix this as well when he performs the original need for surgery. If only I could get an appointment for surgery I would feel so much better.

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Please understand, I am not whining, I'm simply very frustrated and about this time my emotional reserves are in the negative.

I'm ever so thankful for all of you walking through this with me.

Love to all!

Now, time to record books I've read.

NON ILLUSTRATED BOOK #42

Under a Wing by Reeve Lindbergh



It took awhile to read this book because I wanted to savor each wonderful phrase. The writing is outstanding. Told from the perspective of the youngest child of Anne Morrow Lindbergh and Charles Lindbergh, the reader learns of an idyllic childhood.

After the loss of their first-born son, the Lindbergh's sought time out of sight from the public eye. Wanting to protect their children and themselves from the invasive media and overwhelming curiosity of the public, the rented or purchased homes far away from cities.

The children lived in large houses in the country where they could romp and play. With little contact from others than family members, Reeve writes in detail of her love of family and stories of uncles, aunts, grandparents and her parents.

While she absolutely adored her father, she is quite honest regarding his difficult personality and his near constant berating of Anne and the children. Everything had to be exact, including a journal regarding how much was spent for an item. A .05 package of rubber bands had to be noted and explained.

Stating that the house and the family breathed easily when her father left, the reader obtains a picture of a dynamic, charasmatic man who loved his family, was, for the most part a doting father, but simply could not help himself in perfectionism and obsessive, critical demands.

At the time the book was written, Reeve did not know that her father had three other families in Europe. She knew he was missing for long periods of time. She knew her mother had more strength than any other person.

Highly recommended.

Five Stars!

NON ILLUSTRATED BOOK #43


Fly Away by Patricia MacLachlan

This Newbery award-winning author never fails to produce a well-written, softly emotional book that leaves the reader smiling.

Fly Away is told from the perspective of the middle child, a young girl who loves her family, and is extremely bonded with her small brother. Longing to be able to sing, Maggie's secret is that she knows while her brother is slow in learning to talk, he can communicate with her through singing. Late at night, she hears his soft voice and intuitively connects to him.

Later, it is Maggie's bond that enables her to sing to her brother when he is in peril, thus saving his life.

When a beloved Aunt needs assistance because her farm is hit hard by a mega storm, the family drives many miles to help. The beauty of MacLachlan's writing is that amid the storm, she focus' on the calm.

While short in pages, this book is long on touching the soul.

Highly recommended!

I've thumbs-upped and liked both of your yodels of praise!

I am so sympathetic with your frustration. It's hideous!

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #59


My Rotten Redheaded Older Brother by Patricia Polacco

Increasingly, I am rather fond of this author and her writing. Most of her stories are autobiographical. Her artistry is unique. While not beautifully imaged as some other children's illustrated artists, her talents grew on me and I find that I'm reading most of her books.

This one is the tale of her rotten brother. Always in competition, always trying to be the best, Richard has an in your face type of personality.

Grating and annoying, he always seems to come out ahead. Trying to beat him at someone, Patricia rides the carnival carousel again, again and again as it goes round, and round, and round and round.

When she departs from the carousel she falls. When she awakes at home learning that her "rotten" brother rescued her.

From then on, she looks at him in a totally different way. The experience transforms rotten Richard into kind, other directed family member.

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #60


Extraordinary Jane by Hannah Harrison

Small in comparison to the might Elephant, weak in comparison to the strong man, rooted on the ground in comparison to the high flying people up in the air, Jane, a tiny dog, doubts that she has
talents when compared to her circus friends.

Slowly, she learns that kindness, trustworthiness and friendliness are wonderful traits that make her extraordinary by far.

Loving the illustrations on the chldrn's books and ADORED the review of Reeve Lindbergh's memoir. It speaks well of her that she could be so loving towards her father while levelheaded about his failings. My admiration for Anne Morrow Lindbergh continues to swell.

Well, Linda, I'm sorry that your experience is so trying. I hate the incompetents who are unwilling to be helpful too. I am truly grateful that you are savvy enough to keep pushing, and I'm sure that you push in the nicest way possible. I do so look forward to good things for you when this is all accomplished.
Meanwhile, I love your illustrated books!

Linda, you asked what people do who are not as savvy about navigating the healthcare system as you are. I can tell you simply: They suffer needlessly and eventually, if they are particularly unlucky and without advocates, they die. They die never knowing that their suffering and their death could have been prevented if only someone on the other end of the phone or across the desk from them had bothered to explain to them what they needed to do or treated them like a fellow human being.

And yes, I realize that healthcare workers are incredibly busy and stressed. And yes, the healthcare system in general is a nightmarish labyrinth of rules and regulations and protocols. But that's not much comfort to the person in chronic pain who cannot get a doggone surgery scheduled simply because they have the bad luck to be "out of network."

I am so grateful that you are able to persevere, with support from Will, and stubbornly (and gently, I have no doubt) insist on the care you need and deserve. I am humbled by your incredible spirit and the ways in which you always manage to see the positive and the bright spots that you do experience. I only wish I could face my own chronic health problems with the same grace that you do. You are truly an inspiration to me!

Hi Linda

I am sorry to hear about your frustration in getting the necessary calls in. I hope you have good things coming to you soon. Sending positive thoughts.

>55 richardderus: At 5:00 this evening, I heard from the PA of Dr. Vaccaro. I called her earlier and asked if she could please tell the scheduler to return one of my four calls. I was told that tomorrow I will get a phone call from the scheduler. holding breath......

>58 michigantrumpet: HI Marianne! Reeve was a better person than I am. I know I would not have been that compassionate. I did cause a lot of thought for me. My father left when I was ten. I saw very little of him, and there was almost nothing in the way of child support. I wonder how I would have felt about a father like Lindbergh who supported and spent time with his family. Still, I know that nasty negative critical behavior would have clouded any positive feelings. A weakness on my part?

>59 LizzieD: HI Peggy. As always you are ever so kind!

>60 rosalita: Julia, I'm sending gentle hugs your way. Your insights are spot on regarding those who fall through the cracks in the health system.

>61 jayde1599: Hi Jess, how nice to see a post from you. How are you my dear?

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #61


Let's Go Home by Cynthia Rylant

I'm tremendously enjoying this journey through children's illustrated books. Cynthia Rylant, another Newbery award winner for Missing May, has published many lovely children's books.
This one is wonderful!

While each page is packed with details that could at first seem overwhelming, when I took time to slowly study the images, I was in awe of the lovely details.

With the talent of a seasoned writer and illustrated by Wendy Anderson Halperin this team is a winning combination.

This is a journey through each room of a house and it includes special detailed images of unique items.



I like this book so much I may buy it.

Linda, I am so sorry to hear your struggles continue with the health care system. Love and gentle hugs to you, and stamina as well. Do take care of your body.

Lynda, I am truly sorry for all that you are being put through. Dealing with the health care system sounds like a nightmare and I am glad that you have the perseverance to get the job done.

Linda, just sending my best wishes that you manage to get your operation scheduled without further problems.

Linda--Thank goodness you are smart and unafraid to ask the right questions! It is becoming increasingly difficult to navigate the medical system. I din't know how shy, uninformed or people without advocates manage. When people are stressed, in pain, medicated, etc, it is so hard to focus and retain information from the providers. I count on my hubbie to pick up the missing pieces for me when I am out of it. Good luck getting the surgery scheduled. Hugs as per usual. : )

Goddess Linda.. I'm so so sorry

(((((hugs)))))

May the rest of this go smoothly and QUICKLY!

I hope you get a call and a date today!

as for >62 Whisper1: It would not be a weakness on your part! Heavens. Parents who are overly critical and exacting can create terrible trouble for children. Some can mask it, some can overcome it with hard work and help, and some can't. There's no need to feel generous toward a man who would create an environment for his family that was so fraught that they were happier and more relaxed when he was gone!

You tempt me to set aside a year, Linda, for just illustrated, middle grade, and YA books. There are so many I'm not getting to! I keep meaning to read more Patricia Maclachlan, and it ain't happening. That looks like another good one of hers.

I so so so hope that you're either on the phone with the scheduler now, or are busy dancing around in glee because you got the call and the perfect date was open.

Ditto Joe and Richard, Linda! The system is broken/breaking down/crappy, and if only people would be helpful and pleasant and follow through with their job, it wouldn't be half as bad, I think. I'm so sorry that you're having to go through all of this pedantic junk along with dealing with the pain that you have been for so long. Sending a prayer your way for quick, correct connections done with grace and ease. (((Linda)))

No phone call today from Thomas Jefferson, even though I was assured there would be.

If I don't hear by Thursday, I'm going to call Dr. Falaytan and ask him to call Dr. Vaccaro directly to find out why his staff cannot show courtesy and are creating this unnecessary stress.

For a first-class, world-wide institute, I really question the competency of the staff.

I also posted this message on my facebook account.

I heard from the Rothman Institute today. July 14th I'll be spending all day there meeting various doctors, one who will fit me for a brace, then a cardiologist who will look at the results from the nuclear stress test I had last week and give a second opinion regarding the ability to withstand ten hours of sedation and a prolonged recovery,. Then, I'll meet with an ENT doc. who will be sure my vocal cords will not be compromised after two previous fusions where the incision was in the front of the neck.

Because I'll be cut in both the front (for the third time) and back of my neck (for the second time) I want to be very sure as possible that my vocal cord muscles are going to hold, and I can keep my voice.

The BIG day is set for July 30th.

This is scary. I'm asking for prayers. Thanks!

Prayers from me and will put you on my Aunt Joyce's prayer chain...You are so very brave.

Thanks Diane. I think Bethlehem Library is having another sale this one in July.

I already have it marked on my calendar! I just retired on Friday and I've got so much planned I will need a million years to do everything!

Alright, honey, you have got prayers and positivity and excellent healing energy heading your way from me, my Mom, my friends and neighbors. We're also praying for the doctors that they will do their best, work quickly and gracefully, and that you will heal better than you ever thought possible. Love and light to you always, and we will be ramping up as the big day comes closer.

(((((((LINDA))))))))

What ^ said

Well, thank God that you have a date at last! Laura said it best, and that's my prayer for you too. Bless you, dear!

So glad you have finally gotten a date, Linda!

I'm asking the universe for a successful surgery for you and for you to be pain-free ever after.

*hugs*

I'll be thinking of you on the 14th and the 30th Linda. I've got everything crossed that everything will go well and your surgery will be successful.

Lots of prayers coming to you from Boston! Glad you at least now have the dates squared away. Seems like everything is falling in place.

Chiming with with good wishes from Iowa!

Yay! Perseverance pays off. You have a date. I am sooooo excited for you! My brother just had a disk replacement with a frontal entry and his voice is a little slow to come back but he was amazed at the quick return to mobility and the lack of scarring. Hope yours goes smoothly! And keep posting here until the big dates. : ) Lots of love, light and laughter.

Beautiful review of Under a Wing!

Besides the pain of your health problems, and the worry about it, having to deal with the stress of the bureaucracy and ineptitude of that staff also has a huge impact on your overall health. That just shouldn't happen! I'm glad you have the strength and resourcefulness to deal with it, but I feel for those who don't. I'll be praying for you, too, Linda - especially on the 14th and 30th. Hugs.

Just caught up on several weeks of news! I'm so sorry you've had to go through such horrific hoops to get your surgery scheduled, but praise The Lord it is finally on the books!!! You've been in my prayers and will continue to be. Now we just have specific days that we can focus our efforts on! ((((Linda))))

New development...Surgery will not happen July 30th. I've learned, independently without assistance of Thomas Jefferson, that I am responsible for what the insurance does not pay. It could cost thousands and thousands of dollars.

I will have to wait until January 2015, choose a Blue Cross/Blue Shield plan in network and go from there.

I've not posted because I'm downright _________________fill in the blank. Disgusted doesn't even go near how I feel.

Nuts. Drat. Bother. And a lot of other words not fit for LT company.

I am so very sorry, Linda. Please just keep in mind that this *will* happen. This is a bump in the road, no more.

Thinking of you.

Linda, I'm very sorry. "Discouraging" doesn't begin to describe this new development. Hang on, friend.

Wow - I have no words. But lots of ((((((((((Linda))))))))))

Thank goodness that the Affordable Care Act is in place, so that the option of changing insurers is available to you! Congress did a number on the full plan, but at least enough of it remains to see to it that everyone has some options.

Waiting will be terrible, but still... maybe there is a reason it is happening this way?


hugs

ONG, I am speechless. I am so sorry this is happening for you. I know you have checked and re-checked to define precisely what this means. By all means, talk with your favorite doctor's office and ask if their financial person has any additional suggestions. There may be a way hiding in the bushes.

I am sorry to make this suggestion if you've already done all that, and more. But if not, I'd not be happy if I did not suggest it.

ETA: I suppose I confess I was not completely speechless...... (-

oh no. That is really rotten. January must seem like a long time away just now. Any idea of what the costs would be if you went ahead?

W T F

I am so sorry to here this. Please do speak with your doctor's office if you haven't already. *hugs*

Thanks to all for your loving outreach. I've exhausted options. Both Blue Cross and Blue Shield people I talked with were incredibly helpful. My primary care doctor's staff are also helpful and kind. I also had a lengthy conversation with Lehigh's HR person -- also a wonderful lady!

In January when I change to a non HMO, then the costs will be covered. Contingent upon which plan the hospital accepts, I may have a large up-front deductible, but I should be able to cover that.

It really does look as though January is the best option. I can only imagine the differential I would have to pay for what the hospital charges and what out of network insurance pays.

Ten hours in the operating room with not only one of the best surgeons in the US, but also a team of many who will assist.
The cost of using the operating room
The expert who puts me in la, la land for a long period of time
The cost of a week's stay at Thomas Jefferson, including nursing care
The cost of medications, the halo, the back brace and PT to get me starting to walk again....

I truly think I'm looking at a very large un-affordable amount. This is based on costs I've seen from the previous fusions, which were no where near as complicated as this will be.

For example, one of the bills I saw for the last fusion, simply to use the operating room (not the surgeon's or assistants) was $334,000!

At this point in time I'm exhausted.

I do agree that things happen for a reason. I am disgusted, disappointed and ______________angry...BUT, still I am feeling mighty good that come January I'll be moving forward. It's not as though the door is slammed forever. It simply is closed for now.

I need some time to work this through and come out on the other side of it.

Linda, I've just come here having seen your post on facebook and I am so, so sorry there is yet another bump in your road to recovery. January seems such a long way off but I'm glad there's something. I can completely understand you are disgusted, disappointed, angry and exhausted. Take all the time you need. We will be hinking of you.

>98 souloftherose: Ah, Heather, thanks!

Sorry to hear this news. That really stinks.

NON ILLUSTRATED BOOK #44

Joyland by Stephen King

In the midst of a spring/summer of stress, I happened upon the book Joyland, and it did just what books have done for me throughout my life -- it took me away from stress and transported me to another place.

After The Tommy Knockers I gave up on this author, Many of his books seemed to contain a few too many hundred pages, with endings that spun way out of context and control, leaving me shaking my head and feeling frustrated, as though I missed something throughout the inordinate amount of text.

King redeemed himself in this one! While some may think it sappy, it is a wonderful summer read. I can't say it is fluffy, but it is softly written with a steady pace, without the over dramatizing that King seemed to previously crave.

When a young 21 year old college student takes a summer job at Joyland located near a beach in North Carolina, his life changes. Finding purpose in making children laugh when he dons "the fur" and jumps, skips and dances around the playground, acting like a dog with paws in the air and a waggle to his step.

Working with a host of other college mates, he finds fulfillment in the motto of Joyland in selling happiness. In addition, all the carnies who are long-term members of joyland, are not portrayed as gross near do wells who do not fit in the world.

Weaving an atmospheric tale of the ride of horror where a young woman was brutally murdered years gone by, King does not go over the top. Instead, the ride and what occurred there, while a vital part of the tale, is not over dominating. Rather, King creates a wonderful character study of a young man brokenhearted from the jilt of his first love, as he finds a path for his life by letting go of pain and embracing those whom he can help.

This is great writing of a wonderful story.

Highly recommended!

Four Stars.

Arggh. What a load of ___________ (fill in the blank), Linda. If you need LTers to egg the hospital or insurance company, I'm in.

So sorry. You must be beside yourself.

I'm glad Stephen King gave you a respite. Nice review. Maybe the best review of the year under the circumstances.

Imagine all the swear words and fists hitting walls that I'm sure you generated when you realized this, and that is what I am doing now. I guess what I am most concerned about, even more than another 6 months at least of pain, is can your body take this delay without degenerating significantly?

Just checking in and catching up. Hate hearing that you have to wait for surgery. This just stinks.

Oh my dear, my dear. I am so frustrated with you for the delay! But, in the end, it's a blessing in disguise that these anal-wart people at Thomas Jefferson were so anal-wart-like...imagine if you'd had smooth sailing up to this reef!

FORTUNATELY FOR YOU, Joyland is already smirking at me from the TBR Himalaya.

I loved your comments on Joyland, Linda! I really liked that one too, although I've really been enjoying King's later work. Maybe, I could get you to try 11/22/63.

I loved Joyland, too! Linda. King is such a versatile author. I'm looking forward to a reread of The Stand later this summer.

I am flummoxed by the delay in your surgery. How awful to go through all the testing and then have your hopes dashed like that. You are being incredibly brave and patient. I can only pray that the next few months pass quickly for you and that the pain is bearable. What a nightmare.

Well, damn. But good that you won't have to spend the rest of your life paying off one surgery, dear.

Just flitting through to offer whispers of fluttering wings, virtual hugs, and lots of love. I can't bear how you've had to suffer through all this rigamarole, and can only trust in the Almighty that the light at the end of the tunnel ain't coming from a train!

I am so sorry my dear friend; I understand your reluctance to forge ahead if you have to cover that much of the medical bills--I have a mound of them to go through tomorrow! And mine was a quickie compared to yours. I can't even imagine being in the pain you are and having to wait. ______________ indeed! Hugs.

Oh, ding dang, Linda. But I'm glad to hear that it *will* happen for you, eventually...

Sorry to hear about the delay, Linda. Hopefully the surgery can be moved up to an earlier date.

Thanks everyone. What a wonderful warm group this is. I hope you all understand how much your outreach means to me! It's better facing this with friends at my side.

I am in deep appreciation...as always!

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #62


For The Love of Autumn by Patricia Polacco
Animal lovers will enjoy this tale of a spunky kitten and her owner. When a kitten, the single teacher lady adores her company, finding it special to come home to someone who waits and loves her. When the kitten grows to a cat, they move to the state of Washington where a new job awaits. There are lovely images of a cat playing in the garden, rummaging through boxes to unpack and the sheer joy that a pet brings.

When Autumn is gone for a few days and returns one stormy night with a very bloody, badly injured tail, her owner is elated to see her. Shortly thereafter, Autumn runs away for what feels like a very long period of time. When she returns, her wound is stitched and she looks healthy.

All too soon, Autumn runs away again, this time returning with a new collar. The teacher discovers that Autumn now must have two owners and searches and finds a lovely man who also is quite fond of Autumn.

There is a happy ending. This is a warm, delightful book. Polacco has a wonderful way of matching the illustrations and the story resulting in soliciting appropriate emotions.

I liked this one!!!

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #63


I Can Hear The Sun by Patricia Polacco

High on my list of Polacco's wonderful children's illustrated books, this one address very difficult situations without over dramatizing.

When a sad, forlorn, lonely child is found sitting on the bench of Lake Merritt in California, Stephanie Michele, who cares for the geese who live on the shore and in the water of Lake Merritt, keenly observes Fondo's interactions with the geese.

In particular, one blind goose seems to be attached to Fondo and senses where he is and follows him.

In addition to Fondo, there are others who inhabit the lake. Living there, sleeping on the benches, are a Viet Nam vet, stuck in the past and the horrible memories that haunt, and a homeless lady who mumbles and talks sparingly while pushing a shopping cart throughout the park.

As the geese prepare to fly south for the winter, Fondo, an orphan, who lives in a home for parentless children, also must leave the lake. Failing all scholastic tests, he will be placed in another institution far away from his beloved friends.

In her infinite wisdom, Stephanie realizes the specialness of Fondo and pleads his case to the authorities. Realizing that as Fondo listens, watches and observes, she knows he is a very bright, kind, special soul who indeed hears the sun and communicates with the geese who embrace and love him. Unsuccessful, she grieves.

Listening to the geese, Fondo understands that the geese are calling him to fly away with them. And, one day he runs away to visit the lake yet again, spreads his arms and flies.

Part mythological, very spiritual, melding those whom society deems "challenging", Polacco touches the spirit and soul of the reader as we understand the power of friendship, of hope and of love.

Highly recommended.

Five Stars!

You're amazing. You are already making your peace with all this horror, and that's so healthy of you and for you.
Joyland is another BB. Thanks!

What a sweet book. Nice review, Linda.

I've done it again. I brought home two books I already possess. If anyone would like A Reliable Wife by Robert Goolrick and/or Welcome to the World Baby Girl by Fannie Flagg, please send a post on my home page.

Is this only the first time you've brought home duplicate books?! I admit to having done the same thing on several occasions. . .

Hi Brenda...No, I have a habit of doing this. Found on my local library sale table, luckily together they cost .75.
It is nice to see a post from you. I hope all is well.

Love

Dear Linda, I'm so sorry to hear of your treatment delays. Thank goodness you found out about the out of pocket costs beforehand.

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #64


Mrs. Katz and Tush by Patricia Polacco. I believe Brenda (Brenpike) directed me toward the works of Polacco, and I'm glad I listened.

This is a story of an elderly Jewish woman who grieves the loss of her husband. Caring neighbors visit her. When a child gives her a cat without a tail, thus the name Tush, a loving friendship develops.

As the young boy listens to her stories and realizes that as a Jew she was unaccepted in places, and, as an African American, he knows that his family experiences bigotry as well.

This is a wonderful story of friendship that transcends age and cultural differences.

Linda, I am so sorry to hear about the delay in the surgery. It seems to me that one has to be practically a lawyer to process and understand the medical-hospital insurance matters these days. Your frustration and anger levels are very understandable.

>123 DeltaQueen50: Thanks Judy.

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #65

The Day The Animals Came by Frances Ward Weller.



Each year, in New York City, at the Cathedral of St. John the Divine, in honor of St. Francis of Assisi, the blessing of animals occurs.

With a large host of animals, including a very large elephant, the procession begins. Slowly meandering from the large Gothic door, down the aisle and up to the altar, the animals make their way to be blessed.

The incredible sounds of Paul Winter's soprano saxophone, as the notes soar to throughout the world's largest Gothic cathedral, provide a deeply spiritual element as the majestic parade of the animals wind their way for the blessing.

This wonderfully illustrated book celebrates the real-life event which occurs on the first Sunday of October, with the story line of a young girl who experiences the magnitude of the event for the first time as she processes down the aisle with a wild goose in hand.

Just wishing you a Happy Independence day... hugs!

Hoping that you are enjoying time with family, friends, and a good book so that the pain is completely forgotten.

Happy Fourth of July! Hope you have lots of fun distractions today. ; )

>122 Whisper1: That's one of the ones I had in my multi-cultural collection at school when I worked, Linda! Happy Fourth to you, Will, and Lilly!

Linda, I've been away from your thread too long . . .

SO SORRY about all the frustration and delay. Something is really wrong with the healthcare system to put you through the wringer like this. I'm glad you now have the option at least to change insurers in January. But what a long wait while in pain!

>130 tymfos: The healthcare system is truly broken. All attempts to fix it have been in vain over many years.
It seems that as long as people have no problems, they don't care about those who do. One of the big problems resulting from our congress being treated like royalty...and the fact that the lobbyists have them by the b_lls....Lobbying should be banned. No good comes of it.

ahem. Sorry

I hope you're having a lovely weekend Linda!

Hope you are having a wonderful weekend Linda! How did it get to the 4th of July already?

>131 mckait: Much agreed, Kath!

Linda, I hope you're enjoying your Independence Day celebrations, or non-celebrations, whichever! (((HUG))) for you

Happy weekend, Linda, hope you're out teaching fandango to the youth of America!

>89 Whisper1: New development... I will have to wait until January 2015
What a completely absurd system. So sorry you’re at its mercy.

$344,000?! I can't believe the medical costs here! We must have the world's worst healthcare system!

You have an incredible inner strength, Linda, to not only bear but overcome these challenges. I'm in awe of you, my dear. You are such an inspiration to the rest of us who don't moan when we don't even have half as many issues to deal with.

My prayers and thoughts are with you, and I send you multiple virtual hugs.

>136 cameling: Caro, what's even more confusing is that the price Linda saw was probably the 'list' price, and her HMO wouldn't have paid nearly that much for it, but the bill serves to totally intimidate the patient. I had an outpatient procedure a few years ago, and the bills came in as 'list', but then I checked what my insurance company actually had to pay, and it was a fraction of the original price. Of course, once you're out of network, you get to see all those bills yourself, and unless you have a negotiator's nerves of steel, that's where they stay.

The whole health insurance thing is ridiculous. I got on an exchange, with the subsidy but am barely able to pay that. Forget about actually using it to go to the doctor, I can't pay the co-pay!

>138 AuntieClio: That's how I feel about our insurance at work because the first so many dollars is out of your own pocket. I can't afford to be sick!

On the other hand, we could be like most of the world's population: no health care plans at all. I know it is hard to navigate all these complications, and Linda, I in no way want to minimize what you are enduring, but I am frustrated by the American public's tendency to complain about everything they aren't given without ever doing the research to know what the alternatives look like. Some countries have better plans, some have worse. We are in the midst of a huge transformation and there will be many things which need fixing, but there are hundreds of thousands of Americans who now have some catastrophic coverage where before if they became really sick, they were ruined financially. There are others who's preexisting conditions mean no help at all. Is that the way we want to be? If you get sick, we abandon you totally?

You know, Linda, I care about you deeply and hope it will all be good. Meanwhile, while we wait... let's be happy we have what we have, and not too worried about what is not the way we want it to be. You have wonderful spirit and I know help will be yours!

Hello to all.

Sadly, though Obama and formerly Hillary Clinton, made valiant attempts to reform health care, still their hopes are dashed.

Not only is the health care system flawed, but in talking to each doctor, assistant and staff all same the same! This system requires so much paperwork that it takes time away from what all are supposed to be doing, ie providing good care to those who need it.

My partner Will, retired, sold his two practices at age 59 and got the hell out of the health care system. He was appalled at the amount of paperwork wasted by Medicare. For each patient, he received a huge packet of information. This was a duplication because all he needed was the first and/or second page.

Aware that there are some crooked doctors who do take advantage of the system, unfairly it hurts those who do not abuse. Dealing with complicated situations wherein a patient may have macular degeneration, need for catarac surgery, glacoma, or a host of other situtations, he was told by medicare the allotted time he was to spend with each patient and reimbursed accordingly. It was never any where near the time he needed to treat the patient care they required. When he took stock of how much money he was losing, he decided to throw in the towel.

This was a royal shame. Will was an excellent doctor! There are many instances when we are out and about and a former patient will tell him that they cannot find anyone else who gave the quality of care and expertise needed.

I am sorry that was Will's experience. I am very grateful that in my HMO my doctors can take extra time with me when it is indicated. I feel I get excellent care, and I am so grateful. I know my preexisting condition could condemn me to huge pain, and incapacity. I also know the medications I use are incredibly expensive because the profit making companies must make their profits.

I should probably stop now. This is not the place or the time for this discussion, I think.

All my best wishes for you Linda.

NON ILLUSTRATED BOOK #45


No More Words A Journal of My Mother, Anne Morrow Lindbergh by Reeve Lindberg

What a wonderful book this is! In her later years, Anne Lindbergh's youngest child, her daughter Reeve, moved her to Vermont in order to give quality care. Building a house on the property of their farm, Reeve and her husband Nat, devoted time and love to Anne.

While the other family members frequently visited, it was Reeve who was responsible for the day to day existence of Anne. This is Reeve's story of the sadness, the humor and the daily reflection of communicating with her mother.

Crediting the round-the-clock care takers, Reeve acknowledged that this was not something the average family could afford. Fortunately, the family was not alone in assisting Anne.

With the backdrop of the beauty of living in rural Vermont, and told in exceedingly powerful words that captured the feelings and thoughts of trying to communicate with a mother who, because of a series of strokes, and Alzheimer's disease, verbal communication was limited and confusing.

Childlike and stubborn, periodically Anne's actions were difficult to cope with and to understand. Reflecting on the life of the wife of Charles Lindberg, using some of the poems and works of Anne, this book shines from the first to the last page.

Highly recommended!!

Linda I've been not around much on LT recently so I hadn't read your post about the delay to your surgery. I'm so sorry to hear that. At least it seems that you will be able to have the surgery at some stage.

>143 Whisper1: I've been waiting for this!!! Nicely done! How sad that Anne's final days should come to this, yet a blessing she had the advantage of wealth and a daughter willing to help.

Sort of how I feel about the ACA -- Sad we don't have universal healthcare affordable to all. Yet happy that those with pre-existing conditions now have options and friends/family unable to have health insurance at all, now have a safety net. Not perfect, but still an enormous blessing.

>140 maggie1944: yes, and I am in a spot where being able to get health insurance does me no good. I cannot afford to pay the premium, much less the co-pay to the doctor who wants me to go in for blood work to make sure my meds aren't causing damage to my liver. Happy to have the options, it only takes money to take advantage.

AuntieClio, I am sorry this is happening to you. Don't give up looking for some help. Talk with all the social service agencies that you can think of, perhaps you'll find one that you can qualify for... check with churches, and for sure talk with your doctor's office, frequently.

Oh Linda....

I am so amazed at the strength you possess to stay so strong and positive throughout your trials!

I read about all this on FB, but this is my first thread visit since the news of the delay. Your attitude through this is inspiring. I hope one day you can teach me to be half as gracious under pressure as you have been!

Hi Linda! I totally agree with you that the health system in the US is broken. It's a sad state of affairs. I, personally, am going through issues with doctors / insurance. (Won't go into it here, since I've delved so deeply in my own thread...) Although I agree with >140 maggie1944: Karen that we should be happy with what we DO have, I also think that speaking out about the problems as we see them is good. Because something needs to be done! What? I unfortunately don't know. :)

Good luck, though!

Hi Linda. I've been off LT for ages but saw your FB post last week. I'm so sorry to read about your health insurance nightmare and hope the pain is manageable until January. Am thinking of you from down here. Cushla.

I have missed weeks of conversation on your threads Linda but I am all caught up now. I have no comment - just this for you:

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Still here and paying attention. Hugs.

Me too. Thinking of you.

Me three :)

Stopping by to wish you a wonderful weekend. {{Linda}}

^ what Berly said....

Hello Everyone. How I miss LT.

This past week is/was consumed with helping our 85 and 84 year old neighbors. We are very close to them. A few weeks ago Dottie (84) had hip replacement. She's been in a rehabilitation center since the surgery.

Her husband Tom (85) was running himself ragged visiting her. A few nights, I noticed that is breathing was labored and he seemed very tired. Wednesday night Will rushed him to the hospital. He has cellulitis.

Dottie was coming home on Thursday and Tom was in the hospital. We were able to call their sons who live in NJ who rushed here as fast as they could.

Her daughter in law and I got the house ready, met with social workers and the visiting nurse association. We were able to line up a physical therapist to come three days a week, and a visiting nurse to be at the house three days as well.

In the meantime, Tom is still in the hospital. This couple represent a growing number of our population who can help each other when healthy, but when both are compromised, it all falls apart. Will and I fill in when the children can't be here. While exhausted, we are more than happy to help.

Dottie asked if we could clean out the refrigerator; we found jelly from 2005, a veggie bin with rotted, floating tomatoes and God knows what else. We restocked the refrig with healthy, new items, and, at the request of his wife, threw away hundreds of Tom's newspapers. His daughter in law found a huge stash of rotted candy and cookies in the bathroom cabinet, crawling with lots of creepy things.

Tom is a hoarder and Dottie is a nagger...That only makes Tom stash more.

Happily, the house is clean, the children are pitching in, Dottie is getting good care, and her husband is in the hospital getting the care he needs and hopefully can remain there until the home care folk can get her stabilized.

And, though my neck and back are screaming with pain, I feel good about all that was accomplished.

Concerned for the elderly who do not have family and friends, I know there is a very real problem in this country.

NON ILLUSTRATED BOOK #46

Charles Lindberg by Blythe Randolph

This is a synopsis of important events in the life of Charles Lindbergh. There are fascinating details of the amazing, heroic flight across the Atlantic Ocean in 1927. There are details of the kidnapping of his first child, a baby boy just 20 months old when he was taken and killed, and a fascinating look at his environmental efforts late in life.

While unschooled in the traditional sense, Lindbergh was, by all accounts, a genius when working with planes. A stanch supporter of eugenics and initially a supporter of Nazi German, he later learned that what was shown to him in Germany, and what was hidden were two vastly different things.

Too late in his discovery, people could not forgive and forget his ability to search for the entire picture of the atrocities perpetrated by Hitler and his followers.

This is a snapshot of a very complicated and famous American flier in the early stages of aviation.

Linda wishing I was there to give you a monstrous hug!

Yup, you do deserve some major hugging! Very sweet, and kind, and giving of you both to help your neighbors. I know they appreciate it, even if some of the foibles were discovered. And I am very sure the younger members of that family do very much appreciate you both! Well done.

Oh my goodness! You are a good, good woman, Linda! Getting really old is such a royal pain - you understand less and less of the world, feel less and less in control of anything, feel bad physically. Your neighbors are blessed to have you! Now. Take care of yourself!!!!!

Hi Jim. I hope all is well with you. Thanks for the hug felt from NYC to Easton, PA!

Karen, I learned a long time ago that in giving, I receive much more than I've given.

I took a break tonight and it was wonderful to have a quiet house so that I could read.

Will visited Dottie and her son for most of the night. When I called Dottie, she had such laughter in her voice. Will has an incredible sense of humor. Her son is a lovely man. Lilly went with Will and slept by Dottie's chair all night. My heart sings knowing they all had a wonderful time together laughing and sharing. And, I'm almost finished with another book. A good night all around.

Linda--Well no wonder you haven't been here! I am so glad that your were able to step in and help your neighbors, who sound absolutely delightful. I hope you haven't pushed yourself too hard, but I know that it must have felt great to be in a position to be needed and give back a little. You are a wonderful, generous person. Hugs.

What kind and loving neighbors you are!

Why am I not surprised that you would be there to help your neighbors? *hugs* What a wonderful person you are.

Why am I not surprised that you fall into the Amazingly Wonderful Neighbor category? One of life's greatest blessings, I think, is having kind, thoughtful and generous neighbors; Tomm and I have been lucky to have them everywhere we've lived.

Happy Sunday, Linda! Thanks for the update. We are always interested in how are pals are doing. Hugs!

Love and many blessings to you, Linda. Your journey toward better health has certainly been full of unexpected, unpleasant, and scary twists and turns--with a few sheer drop-offs for good measure.

I'm hoping that the new insurance will be exactly what you need.

And further blessings for being such a good neighbor.

ah, I want to say that I'm not a martyr or a "great" person. I have flaws, many of them. But one of the things I am able to do is care deeply. I've learned, in the most difficult, painful situation a few years ago regarding Will's snipey, snaky Aunt and his immature, self obsessed, negative cousin, to stay far, far away from negative people who harm.

Thus, I want to add that my reaction to them was not kind. I felt poisoned by them and it's taken a long time to get the venom out of my system.

To be able to thrive among loving, kind, sensitive, other directed people such as Tom and Dottie has been one of the best things, the most cathartic thing, that's happened to me these last few years.

Life is a learning experience, and at 61, I'm still learning.

Yup. A very good idea: surround yourself with people who are positive, helpful, and kind. Let the others go as soon as you kindly can. I'm 69 and still learning, too.

Hi, Linda! Dottie and Tom are blessed to have you as neighbors. My parents have similar relationships with their closest neighbors, as they all look out for each other, particularly the older ones, who now include my parents and their 95 year old neighbor that lives three houses down from them. Fortunately she lives with her son, who is very close to my parents, and he and his sisters have helped them out, similar to the time that my father and I brought their mother to the hospital a couple of years ago when she suddenly became ill.

I firmly believe that the good deeds you do are repaid in kind several fold, so I have no doubt that the same will hold true for you and Will.

I'm sorry that you're still in so much pain; my thoughts and prayers go out to you.

Caring and kind and delightful company...that's our Linda! *smooch*

>157 Whisper1: A friend and I were talking about this just last night. She's in her 70s and lives alone, not in the best of health, and I asked her if she has arranged any sort of a phone tree type check-in. To my surprise (since she's a social worker) she hasn't, so we arranged that she would at least get in touch with me each week. She does talk to her son in Baltimore often, but I'm a lot more geographically desireable!

I may call her more frequently than that, of course. It's a real problem for 'aging in place', especially if you're not in a large apartment building with other older people.

Love the care you've been giving Dottie and Tom, Linda. Kudos for helping out like that.

Our dad's 91, and none of his children lives where he does. I can do a lot for him by phone, but it does have its limits. He has a wonderful caregiver who keeps us informed, and lovely neighbors on each side of him who help when things go awry. That makes such a difference!

You are amazing, Linda. Your love and compassion for others even in the midst of all that you have to bear is an inspiration!

Your neighbors are blessed to have loving folks like you in their corner. :)

>171 kidzdoc: Darryl, At the risk of sounding preachy, I too believe that when we give, we receive much more. Timely, on Amber's thread there is a discussion regarding The Giving Tree, it is a book I greatly dislike. The tree gives and gives to a very selfish boy/man.

Giving is a funny thing. One must watch the energy flow. I know I'm in a good space when I am reinvigorated by helping. Conversely, when I'm helping and feel used and taken advantage of, I am emotionally drained.

We truly love Dottie and Tom. They are intelligent, kind, sensitive, other directed people. Their presence has healed me many times. After the second surgery, I had a most difficult recovery. One night, late, walking in the neighborhood in my pjs with Lilly, they happened to see me and invited me in.

What could have been an awkward situation, became a pleasant experience of laughing. So often, we spontaneously laugh together about random things, and once Dottie peed her pants.

Tom is an excellent artist and went to college to study art. Sadly, he could not support a family, and thus became a welder. Their house is filled with his wonderful art work. We often go to the Allentown Art Museum to see special exhibits. I love seeing the paintings through his eyes.

I'm glad your parents are in a helping neighborhood. I'm not surprised that they are caring. The way in which you have described them through the years, brings a smile each time you mention your loving family. I also remember our morning conversation when we all met at the festival in Philadelphia. It was clear how special your family is to you.

>172 richardderus:...Ah, geez, I'm blushing. It was great to meet you at your 50th birthday party. I watched and listened as you unwrapped each gift and made special comments about the present. You are indeed a very classy guy!

>173 ffortsa: Hi Judy. You are one of the most caring, kind souls that I know. I also enjoy the sound of your laughter! What great times I've had in conversation with you and Jim.

>174 jnwelch: Hi Joe! I imagine you feel very fortunate that your father has neighbors who help. 91 is a ripe age. You hail from a strong gene pool!

Your positive, caring attitude in the face of your challenges continues to inspire and amaze. Thanks for being you, Linda!

Thank you so much Heidi. What a lovely thing to say. I appreciate your kind words.

BOOK #47

Ruby's Imagine by Kim Antieua

This is a delight tale of Ruby who sees the world in a wonderful, magical way. Despite the continual negativity directed toward her by her grandmother, Ruby thrives. Without triteness or corniness, the author weaves a beautiful story of Ruby who makes wonderment for all.

When Hurricane Katrina hits New Orleans, LA, and the leeves break, Ruby and her grandmother are able to climb to the attic. As the roof is blown away, they witness the incredible devastation.

In grand denial, Ruby's grandmother refused to leave. When her grandmother's boyfriend leaves before the hurricane hits, leaving them to fend for themselves, it is obvious that Ruby must be the strong one to navigate them to safety.

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #66

The Bee Tree by Patricia Polacco

When Mary Ellen tells her grand father she is bored and tired of reading, he takes her on an adventure to follow the bees to the bee tree where they will find honey. In The Gingerbread Man fashion, many friends and animals from the Michigan countryside drop what they are doing and follow along.



After their wild adventure, her grandfather places a dallop of honey on her book telling her that reading can be very sweet.

While not one of my favorites, each of Polacco's book have a common thread of family and the search for knowlege.

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #67


Some Birthday by Patricia Polacco

Polacco's simple story telling style and her unique artistry are ground in tales from her childhood. In this book, the young girl (Patricia) is spending time with her father. A child of divorce reality is not over stated or presented as a terrible thing.

In this tale, she visits her traveling salesman father who lives with her grandmother. There is obvious affection for both. Because it is her birthday, she wants it to be a special day. It appears that her father has forgotten.



When all is dark, her father takes her and her brother for an outing to the clay pits to take a photo of the mysterious monster. During their adventure, they have a wonderful time roasting hot dogs, setting up a tent and listening to scary stories.

Polacco continues to present stories that bring warmth.

It does not surprise me at all to read about your efforts to help Dottie and Tom, nor that you wander outside in your pjs. You are a person who willingly embraces life and those around you, giving of your self even til it hurts.

I know I only have to glance at smile on your face (pictures here and home) to feel your friendship and brighten my day.

Smiles and hugs sent to you!

It is wonderful that you're such a good neighbor to all those around you!

Wow, Linda. You got me with Ruby's Imagine. I've thumbs-upped your review and added it to my wish list!!

Hoping things are going well for you!

>182 cyderry: Hi Cheli...You bring tears of joy...and smiles
>183 tymfos: HI Terri. I hope all is well with you and that beautiful adventure filled cat Sig.
>184 TinaV95: HI Tina. I read your facebook page re. Middle age and bodies not doing what we want them to do...certainly, I relate..Though, 61 is beyond middle age...
>185 mckait: Hi Kath. I've been concerned I know you are having a rough patch. Hugs to you dear one.

Hi there! Just thinking of you and sending good thoughts.

BOOK #48
Poppet by Mo Hader


Detective/mysteries are usually not what I read. The cover of this book grabbed me and then the writing and plot hooked me throughout. Once I started, it was hard to put down. Set in an English countryside, the backdrop of lovely cottages contrasts with the horror happening throughout.

Beechway psychiatric unit houses the nastiest of the nasties. As a young man, Isaac brutally murdered his parents and chopped them to pieces. Since then, he is under lock and key at Beechway.

Monster Mother watches nightly as she perceives an eerie presence outside her door, waiting to attack. Believing she can shed her skin and escape, she waits in terror.

Spooked by a creature called Maude, fear runs rampant throughout the institution. Maude is a dwarf-like creature who died years ago. Now, the inmates of the institution know she has returned to haunt them. As she plays emotional and physical games of torture, some perform ugly deeds of self mutilation.

Told from the perspective of AJ, the supervisor of nursing staff, the reader learns that random acts occur when the power mysteriously goes out on the floor.

There are twists and turns, and just enough spookiness to hold the reader, yet nothing is over the top unbelievable.

When Isaac is freed from the institution, and AJ begins a relationship with Melanie, the Director of Beechway, the plot thickens.

AJ goes behind Melanie's back to seek the help Detective Jack Caffery to investigate. Together they seek answers to some very difficult questions.

Four Stars.

>188 Whisper1: *shudders* Definitely not my thing! Glad you enjoyed it, though!

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #68
The Art of Miss Chew by Patricia Polacco


This is a wonderful story that reinforces the importance of teachers and the marvelous contribution they make.

As usual, Polacco's stories as based on her life. As a child and young adult she struggled with a learning disability. A very special male teacher realized her artistic abilities and that she saw the world in a different way. Allowing more time for her to take tests, she grew confident.

Pointing her in the direction of a loving art teacher, Miss Chew, who realized her unique talent and encouraged her, was a life-changing experience.

Miss Chew not only mentored her, but as Polacco credits her, she mentions that solely because of Miss Chew she managed to earn a scholarship to California College of Arts.

And, as I read more and more of Polacco's books, I too am thankful for a teacher that made a significant contribution, thus enabling many to enjoy Polacco's magical tales and unique images.

This book resonates with me because during a very difficult time in my young life, it was a librarian and a few teachers who changed my life and had faith in a little girl bruised by adults who harmed.

BOOK #49

The Palace of Curiosities by Rosie Garland


Set in Victorian England where life is cold and cruel for the poor and different, this is a story of hope and fortitude. Against all incredible odds, is the fortitude to live and love.

Excellently written, Garland takes the reader to the seemly underbelly of England. Eve is born with the very unique deformity of a lion-faced girl. With paws for hands and abundant fur, she is found by Josiah Arroner. In love with the concept of love and normalcy, Eve agrees to marry him.

Too late, she realizes he simply wanted to add her to his "palace of curiosities" where the gentrified and not-so refined can pay a fee to see wonders of the age. As she sits on stage, dressed in elaborate clothing, timidly waving a colorful fan, the audience gaps at her, at times making lewd remarks.

Abel is a man cursed with the fact that he can never die. Living over and over again, forgetting much and longing to be free, many times he attempts to kill himself. Unsuccessful in freeing himself of the chain of perpetual life, Abel resides as a curiosity in "Professor" Josiah Arroner's house of the abnormals.

Exploited by their keeper, they begin a life changing journey.

Three Stars.

Interesting, Linda, but not for me, I don't think.
I'm always happy to see you posting here. Take care of yourself!

Oh, Poppet sounds deliciously creepy... though I'm not sure I could stomach looking at that cover. It gives me chills, which I guess is the whole idea! I wish I wasn't such a vivid dreamer, otherwise I'd read the book for certain.

>193 dk_phoenix: Exactly!!

Actually, the book is more of a detective/mystery read than horror. I'm heading to the library after work to find more of this author's works. Birdman seems to be well liked.

>188 Whisper1: Wow, that one sounds really interesting. Onto the wish list it goes.

Stephanie, every time I visit your home page and see your lovely photo, I smile. How are things for you? A new job? How is that going?

>197 Whisper1: Linda, things have finally settled in. Mostly I sit on my behind all day, surfing the net or reading, waiting for one of three people to bring me a handwritten worksheet attached to a transcript which I turn into a letter. I will be here at least through the end of Octoberish.

In the things I don't like but will adjust, I have to park about a block away which means I have to WALK. There are no elevators (that I can tell) so I have to climb stairs to get to the office.

Mostly I'm an island unto myself. No one interacts with me and, for the first time at a workplace, I'm more than okay with that.

Got all the sticky details the agency missed straightened out, including the paying for parking issue. Things will still be tight for a few weeks but at least I won't be wondering how I'm going to pay the rent for at least three months.

So, yeah life is good. Thanks for asking. :-)

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #69
Cat Heaven by Cynthia Rylant



Each and every book written and/or illustrated by this author tugs at my heart strings. I'm not sure how she does it, but magic happens in the most simple sentence.

In poetic form, Rylant tells a lovely tale of the after life for cats. Her illustrations are not crisp and seem somewhat primative, still they are something to be proud about. Her writing is heart warmingly wonderful!

ILLUSTRATED BOOK #70

Babushka Baba Yaga by Patricia Polacco

Russian folklore tells of Baba Yaga a craggy, ugly witch with iron teeth and chicken claws for feet, and who lives deep in the wood and devours humans.

Using the tale of Baba Yaga, Polacco turns the story from ugliness to beauty, from darkness to light. Watching from afar, Baba Yaga, sees women with children and grand children.

Stealing clothes from the line, Baba Yaga covers her ugly body, wears a babushka and, longing to have a child to hold, Baba Yaga follows a single mother home and offers to take care of her little boy while she is at work.

The little child becomes very attached to Baba Yaga, and she loves him in return. When she overhears the townswomen telling the tale of the wickedness of the wooded creature, her heart breaks. Leaving the family, she flees before the little boy becomes fearful.

Later, she rescues a child from wild wolves and becomes celebrated as a kind, other directed soul.

Sorry to hear that today is starting out rough for you. I hope that your energy level rises through the day instead of falls, and that you leave early anyway!

Checking in Linda -- loved your wonderful story about life with your neighbors. So glad to see that you can care for and be there for one another. You provide the care and help they need and they reciprocate with their sunshine, kindness and caring back. I'm smiling right now.

Wishing you a wonderful weekend!

Checking in dear friend...

You got me again with Poppet. Thumbs up for that review and on to my wishlist it goes!! I hope you are well.

Happy weekend, Linda! Just popping in to see how my pal is doing.

Hi Linda! Sending hugs and pain-free vibes!

Hi, Linda. Popping by to try and catch up with threads. I've been doing a huge amount of skimming, but there you go! Just don't step away from LT for too long otherwise you end up swamped! Good on you for looking after your elderly neighbours, most people don't bother with their neighbours, let alone do things like that for them! I hope all is well with you and you are having a relaxing weekend.

Linda, I'm stopping by to check on your thread, and to say "hi". I hope your Sunday holds all the good and fun you want it to hold!

>157 Whisper1:: What a good neighbor you are, Linda. Tom and Dottie are so lucky to have you nearby. Candy in the bathroom? Hmm, I never thought of stashing it there! That must have been a surprising -and yucky - discovery.

Once again, I love the illustrations you post. Haley and I are taking a summer break from story time at the library. Sometimes I think I enjoy it more than she does!

I hope you and Will have a pleasant and restful Sunday.

Thanks to all. It was a lovely weekend. My long-time childhood/teenage friend came home and the family celebrated the 65th wedding anniversary of parents.


Years ago, during a vulnerable time, I railed against God asking him why He couldn't even give me just one good parent.

Then, today, as I had a wonderful , incredible day with the family, who when life was so very difficult, took me in and treated me as one of them, I realized that too often I think of the pain, and don't concentrate enough on the joy.

The Henshues cared deeply. And, through my good friend Terry, I was welcomed into their lives.

I shed some tears after this photo and I walked alone to a quiet place, and I said "Dear God, I take it back! I remember now, you did give me parents who loved me, and a family that cared! Thank You!"

It was an emotional day yesterday, and then again today the family got together for a clam bake. Today was more intimate because it was family and not a large crowd. We had time to share stories and look back at our history.

Life is Good! And, each and every day, if I stop to count my blessings, I realize that through the physical pain of these last years, still, I've always been able to find happiness.

This is a photo of the family who loved me and sheltered me during a very difficult stormy time in my life:

Ah, Linda, that is such a sweet story. It is so true that looking for the good, gives good!

We are all lucky if we find love, no matter where it may be. Thanks for sharing the stories and photos.

What great people they must be!

great review of Babushka Baba Yaga and wonderful pictures!

>210 maggie1944: Hi Karen, Thanks for stopping by!
>211 Berly: Kim, how very true!
>212 ronincats: Roni, yes they certainly are great people. I'm blessed!
>213 cammykitty: Hi Katie. I hope to read all of Polacco's books. Thanks for your post.

>209 Whisper1: How wonderful and fortunate for you to have found them! And how delightful to be with them on this best day.

*smooch*

Richard
Being with them reminded me that there were some solid times in my life when I felt loved. It did make a difference through the muddy mess of my mother.

Wonderful story, Linda, and thank you for the pictures.