Whisper1(Linda) Thread #7

This is an Edward Hughes painting entitled Midsummers Eve

BOOK#69


A Northern Light by Jennifer Donnelly

Many thanks to Stasia for recommending this book. It is an incredible piece of work and breathtakingly beautiful.

Using Theodore Dreiser's An American Tragedy as a springboard, Jennifer Donnelly weaves a rich tapestry of history, romance, poverty, the desire to succeed, the love of books, and a turn of the century murder.

When young Mattie Gokey's mother dies, she is overburdened by the needs of her father and siblings. Longing to escape poverty and the back woods of upstate New York, Mattie's love of books propels her forward to a dream of education and fulfillment of her dream.

Highly recommended.

Hope I'm not jumping in too quickly Linda to say congrats on a new thread, 1st up

Nice review of A Northern Light, Linda. I did enjoy her Revolution, and I plan on taking a look at this one now.

I've been eying A Northern Light on the library shelves for a while now . . . I'll have to give it a try one of these days.

Good morning!

Popping in to start lurking.

Hello Linda, I love hearing about Lilly, I just need to mention that from your last thread. I Sure home your pain lessens. Take care and sending prayers and thoughts your way.

Nice new thread, Linda, and a lovely review to go along with it. I am adding A Northern Light to my WL. Love the painting at the top of your thread - BEAUTIFUL!

Hoping today is a good one for you. Please give Lilly my love.

Lovely new thread *wink*. And I also think the painting is beautiful.

Also hoping that today is a good day for you - and, do you have any new pics from Lilly?

Beautiful starting painting!

Beautiful picture! Makes me smile.

Lovely new thread, Linda!

Funny, I couldn't get into A Northern Light when I tried it. There was a copy in our room when we stayed once at an inn on Big Moose Lake. But I'm a bit of a stickler for accuracy in historical fiction; since I'd just read a non-fiction account of the Grace Brown case, I found things early on in the novel that just didn't fit the facts as they are known -- at least as understood them, anyway. At least when Dreiser novellized the case, he changed the names so his liberties (and there were many) seemed a bit more palatable to me. I'm glad you liked it, though.

Hello Linda, glad to see you kick off a new thread with a great read.
See you!

#1 Lovely picture Linda. I have a copy of A Northern Light under its UK title, A Gathering Light which I need to read. Glad you enjoyed it so much.

Hello, Lady!
That painting reminds me of the fairies from A Midsummer's Night Eve. Are they casting a spell and relieving your pain, I hope.

rest and relax.

Hugs

Morning Linda! Hoping your Tuesday is relaxing and includes a good book. Take care.

Hi Linda!
So glad to hear that Lilly is a good distraction for you. She sounds like a cutie. Pets have so much to teach us - awareness, patience, devotion, acceptance, playfulness, etc, etc, etc.

I like Jennifer Donnelly's writing but have yet to read Northern Light. Looking forward to it.

Wishing you comfort.

Oh wow.. you read so much already!
I read An American Tragedy last winter or so..
I'm intrigued that Northern Light used that book as a springboard.. and will definitely check it out. thanks!

Reserving my spot on your new thread! Hope the reading has been great and the pain minimal!

Love the painting at the top of your thread. I read Donnelly's A gathering light a few years ago and enjoyed it.

Hi Linda - hope you and Lily are doing well. Wishing you as little pain as possible.

Lovely opening image:)

Any new pics of Lily in the future? How about one with the two of you!
Hope today is a good day, Linda dear....

Hi Linda, so sorry to hear that your pain levels are high. Do you have a long wait for surgery? My husband had his appointment with the specialist and basically he was told that he needed surgery. He is now on a wait list and they predict that it will be a six month wait.

We must have very similar tastes in art, because I've always loved that painting at the top!

Back in San Diego and starting to cruise the threads again, so I dropped in to say hi.

Hi to all. Today's appointment with the doctor who previously did neck fusion surgery at C4-5 led to the fact that he needs to perform fusion at C5-6 and 6-7 right away...as in next Thursday. Yikes. I cannot do this because I have to get the new semester started.

I'll have multiple fusion surgery at the end of August. I admit I'm a tad depressed today. It simply will take some time to process the fact that he will need to adjust the original fusion and then do two more..

I'm trying to wrap my mind around it all...

Thanks everyone for your patience with me and the fact that I haven't been able to visit threads as much as I would like.

Heavens, my friend, what next? You are certainly in my thoughts & prayers. PLEASE take care of yourself! The new semester isn't nearly as important as you are.

What Terri said. I can't imagine how frustrating it must be for you right now, and I do hope that these surgeries successfully lead to less pain for you, Linda.

*Hugs* to you Linda. I'm sure it isn't easy having to deal with so many procedures while dealing with the pain on top of all that. Know that you are in my thoughts and I hope everything goes smoothly. Hang in there!

Oh Linda, I can understand why you'd feel low. That's a lot to process for sure. Hopefully it'll finally rid you of the pain, right?

On the reading front, I not only added A Northern Light to the wishlist, but Dreisers's An American Tragedy and Sister Carrie too while I was at it.

Wishing you all the best my dear.

Hi Linda, I'm terribly behind on following threads this summer. Slowly but surely, I'm getting back on track.
Have a wonderful weekend!

Hugs to you, Linda.

Linda, may this next surgery be the LAST ONE you will need for your poor neck! My dear, what an awful lot to wrap your head around, and with a new semester starting right on the heels... be kind to yourself and try and take it as easy as you can. You're always in my thoughts. (((HUGS)))

After a few months of controlling my book buying obsession, I brought these home today:



Ten books for $2.00 was quite a bargain.

I volunteered at my local library. There was a Young Adult book festival. Approximately 30 authors were in attendance (none of those listed above). It was a huge success and I'm ever so glad because my dear friends at the library worked so hard to pull this off.

In addition to those listed above, I paid full price for a book of an author who was in attendance


Lies Beneath by Anne Greenwood Brown looked too good to pass up.

Thanks to Will I was able to volunteer and have a wonderful time. He helped me simply by being there with me and volunteering to assist.

Linda - So very sorry about your news. You will be in my thoughts and prayers as you start the new semester and as you prepare for your next surgery. Sorry that you have to face more pain and procedures on your journey to be pain free. Very gentle hugs for you.

Your book haul is amazing! You have one of my absolute favorites in there - Tangerine. I used that book in our first year of one schooling middle school, and it is so very wonderful. Absolutely loved the main character - it is a book that I continue to revisit every few years because it speaks to me.

Please take care of yourself, my friend.

Looks like a great selection of books -- I've read Tangerine and The Mysterious Benedict Society, and enjoyed both . . . and I have read other books by most of the authors represented in your picks!

#27 Oh Linda, so sorry to hear you will need such extensive surgery. Take care of yourself - work commitments are important but they're not more important than your health.

#35 Your book haul looks good :-)

Thanks to all for stopping by. Your kind words mean a lot.

My reading slowed substantially this year when compared to last. Hopefully the recovery process will allow time to read.

For now, I finished two books thus far this month:

Continuing on my quest to read all the Newbery award winning books, this is now added to those finished:

BOOK#70


Savvy by Ingrid Law

When members of the Beaumont family turn 13, a magical event happens and they gain their "savvy". Savvy manifests itself in different ways to each person. One Beaumont cannot live near water or devastation occurs; another is a walking lightening rod whose hair perpetually sticks strait in the air. Mibs Beaumont's 13th birthday sadly coincides with a near fatal car accident for her beloved father.

Hoping that her savvy equates to the power of healing, Mibs desperately wants her father to live. Needing to travel to the hospital located far from her home, Mibs hides in a bus filled with pink bibles and driven by a lovely, quiet, passive man. As her friend and various family members travel with her, the journey becomes quite interesting.

This 2009 Newbery honor book was delightful, yet seemed to lack "savvy". Unlike other Newbery books that are stellar, this one was mediocre.

BOOK #71


Dangerous Neighbors by Beth Kephart

This was a National Book Award Finalist and I'm left shaking my head regarding the rules set forth for this accolade.

Two sisters are very close. When one dies in a tragic ice skating accident, the other is left with severe guilt, grief and angst.

The pace is boringly slow. The chapters switch from present to past tense. The backdrop of the Philadelphia Centennial fair of 1876 seemed uninteresting.

The good news is I only paid .20 for this book yesterday and it will quickly be given back to the library wherein another unsuspecting reader will be lured by the price and a description on the back cover that sounds like a promising read.

Morning Linda- I finished and loved the Giver. I look forward to reading more of her work. Did you read the other 2 books in that trilogy? If so, were they on par with the 1st one?

**looks for a mom's hat to place on head; oh dear, all I can find is a ball cap with a feed store logo. I have always been a rather quirky mom but here goes-deep breath--**

Does your doctor say it is SAFE for you to wait until the end of the month? I can't help feeling that there was a reason he wanted to do it this Thursday. I understand your deep committment to your job, but if the darn neck is deteriorating it may be more important to get thee to the surgery.

**throws hat in corner**

Loved your collection of book covers! They look so beautiful that way. I had picked up Never Let Me Go at a sale at the end of last year and plan to read it later this month.

ETA: Three cheers for Will's help! Tell him from me that he is a GOOD MAN and your internet friends rejoice that he is in your life.

Linda, on one hand I'm sorry to hear that you'll need surgery; however, I hope that it is successful, and that it provides you with significant relief.

Obviously I don't know the details of your situation (and even less about its surgical management), but I share streamsong's concerns about waiting until the end of the month to have surgery, and putting work ahead of your health. However, I trust that you are making a wise decision to postpone it until then.

HI Linda! sorry to hear you are having a rough go right now.
Hopefully your surgery goes well and helps you!

Thanks for stopping by everyone. I will go in the office tomorrow and start to prepare for the semester. If I can get a grip on things then I'll move the surgery closer to the end of the month.

It rained today and this evening, leaving the grass soaked and the air humid. We spent the day with family members that I adore and laughed, ate cupcakes and drank coffee.

I finished another small book -- a disappointing one.

BOOK #72


Wait Till Helen Comes by Mary Downing Hahn. My good friend and librarian told me that Mary Downing Hahn writes great scary novels.

A blended family moves to the country. The host of characters includes a mother with two children, a father with a bratty little girl and her ghost friend Helen.

While the story was well crafted, I couldn't connect with it and cannot recommend it. It will go back to the library sale table tomorrow.

Hi, LInda. So sorry to hear about the needed surgery! You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Ditto, Linda. Good luck with the additional surgery. Sorry you're having to go through this. We're thinking of you!

I agree with you on Savvy. Mediocre is a good word for it. I expected better.

Hi Linda - Sorry to hear that you need another surgery, thinking of you too. Love your book haul, I've just started reading Never let me go.

Now that you have the news... I hope that you can get it done sooner and get it over with..
sooner done, sooner recovered... fingers crossed..

Some of those books look pretty good, I will have to do some investigating..
Don't push too hard today...

hugs

((Hugs)) for today, lovey.

{{Hugs}} Hope you are well today. Just popping in to say hello and sending healin energy and lots of love. :)

Linda, I'm so sorry that you need further surgery. I hope the pain relief will make up for the recovery process. It's too bad you can't go ahead with it at the first opening, but I know how busy a new semester can be. Sending lots of hugs to get you through the next few weeks.

I like how your opening painting goes with the title of your first book listed. I am always amazed by these "painters of light." I hope your new books lifted your spirits. What a lovely array of covers...and only $2.00 spent. Good for you.

Just catching up here. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.

Asking for prayers...Surgery scheduled for Thursday, August 23rd.

You've got mine, Linda. Putting your surgery date on my calendar. Please take very good care of yourself until then. So sorry that you have to go through another surgery.

Prayers for you now and right through the 23rd - and beyond!
Sendng good energy to build up your strength and be at peace as much as possible.
Wishing only the very best for you, Linda!

(((Hugs))) Linda, and you can be sure that I will be sending up prayers for a successful operation and a speedy recovery.

So glad you have your date scheduled! We'll be with you in spirit.

So sorry to hear that you'll need more surgery Linda but lets hope this will do the trick and solve the pain puzzle. Prayers and continued well wishes for the upcoming treatment.

Best wishes and warm thoughts being sent your way, Linda!

Starting sending the positive and healing energy now... so it builds up around you :)

hugs

Ditto Kath - energy is percolating around you right now. Take it easy!

Me, too, Linda. We're be thinking of you.

BOOK#73


Tangerine by Edward Bloor.

This is more than a coming of age story. It is a tale of awakening to the reality that family members can indeed harm, both psychologically and physically.

Thirteen year old Paul Fischer wears super duper coke bottle glasses. His family repeatedly tells the story that unfortunately he looked at a solar eclipse too long thus resulting in his impaired vision. Somehow Paul knows this just isn't true.

When his family moves to Tangerine Florida his life changes dramatically. A nerd, a geek and a quiet soul accustomed to watching his parents adore and idolize his older football hero brother, Paul seeks for carve an identify for himself.

When the town of Tangerine crumbles into pockets of sink holes and it is discovered that corrupt officials never followed codes, more than sticky mud invades the consciousness of Paul.

While his Pleasant Valley Sunday mom wears just the right clothes and designs her house way beyond Martha Stewart mode, his father the engineer paves the wave for his older son to become the star, at all expense.

When the middle school of Tangerine collapses, Paul is transported to a new school, one where there is poverty, toughness and more reality of what life is all about.

Joining the soccer team enables Paul for find friends and a sense of belonging. While his brother remains the high school hero back home, all is not well in the town of Tangerine or the home of the Fischers.

When Paul realizes the actual reason he needs to wear thick glasses, he confronts very difficult family dynamics.

I highly recommend this book and thank Stasia for noting it on her thread.

4.5 Stars!

Stopping by to say hello and assure you that warm thoughts and prayers are being offered in your behalf! Best wishes for the surgery, Linda!

Tangerine sounds good. We have it at the library, I'm pretty sure.

#63: I am glad you enjoyed Tangerine, Linda! Great review!

Great review, Linda. Glad you enjoyed it - that is one of my very favorite books.

You are on my prayer list Linda! *Hugs*

Linda - I've got your surgery date in my diary - I'll be praying for you.

I enjoyed your review of Tangerine, Linda.

I'll also pray for you on August 23rd, and afterward.

That looks like a rough story... sad....glad it was a good one for you !

I'm sending you lots of good thoughts for your surgery! Hope it goes well for you!!

I'll be keeping you in my prayers, Linda, until I hear that you've taken up jump roping! My husband is running again after last year's back fusion so there is renewed activity after surgery. Try to stay positive!

Here is the latest photo of Lilly

this sunset photo was taken last week from my backyard as I looked up at the sky

Moments like those take my breath away and confirm there is a higher power in the universe.

Hi, Lilly! Long time no see! How is the training coming along, Linda? And that's a lovely sky scene.

Not long now til surgery? Ill be thinking of you also, and hoping you get some answers, and some relief!

Nice photo of Lily :) she is growing up!

OH my goodness Linda, Lilly is so adorable I just wanna hug and kiss and snuggle with her.. I hope training is going well with her and you are in my thoughts ever day my dear I am hoping that this surgery goes very well for you and eases some of your pain. Sending {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Thinking of you, dear.

Hi Linda. We must have a half dozen copies of Tangerine around the house. It's on the reading lists at our schools and my kids keep losing their copies...we buy a new one...they lose that...we buy a new one...they find the old ones. :-/

Lily and the sunset (sunrise?) are wonderful. I enjoy your photographs very much.

Prayer coverage coming your way. You didn't even need to ask on that one. :-)

Perhaps Will could give us an update or two after the surgery before you are feeling well enough?

Thanks to all for stopping by. I came home early today. Even though there is so much to do before surgery, the pain level was just too darn difficult to concentrate.

While I'm hesitant about multiple fusion surgery and a long time under anesthesia, each day is a countdown toward the hope of recovery and eventual pain relief.

I have to jump through the hoops for my cardiologist on Thursday and then it is a green light for the 23rd.

BOOK #74



Bruce Brooks is a two-time Newbery honor award winning author. All that Remains

This book consists of three stories relating to grief and those left behind. It was a quick read and worth the time spent. Cousins help their aunt's partner provide a proper burial after their aunt dies of aids. Dealing with a redneck, judgmental town isn't easy, but these young adults find a way to honor their beloved aunt's wishes while developing renewed respect for her partner.

An incredibly immature, self absorbed young man makes a promise to a dying uncle. In reluctantly helping his effeminate cousin navigate his way through macho bully land, the lessons learned by the begrudging young man are invaluable.

When a young spunky girl insists on joining three boys in a game of golf, together, the team helps the girl move along in life after the death of her father.

Lovely colours in the sky Linda. Not sure whether it re-confirms on my certainty of a higher presence or not but in such an event the creators hand is awe inspiring indeed.

Love the photo of Lilly - I've missed the details in your previous about her arrival so it's nice to see what she looks like. I'm sorry to hear you had a bad day with the pain.

Oh my! Lilly is looking so grown up. Shelties grow up way too fast - I think it's the longer fur coming in? She's a darling puppy girl :-)

Nice sunset! I have a gorgeous photo of a sunset - similar to yours. Cuz when they are THAT pretty, you just have to take a snapshot or two.

Rest as much as possible for your surgery... looking forward to excellent results...

Oh Linda....I go away for a couple weeks and come back to find you scheduled for surgery. I'm crossing fingers, toes, eyes, brain and anything else available that this will work out for you and that you will find some relief from your pain. You are truly an inspiration to all of us, and I'm going to DEMAND the powers that be make you all whole again.

love the pictures.....

Thanks to all for your kind wishes. I'm anxious to get the surgery over with and to move through the recovery process.

I'm desperately trying to get the semester in place before next Thursday and trying not to stress.

When stress, what do I do???? I but books...Lots of them.

I went to the bookcloseouts.com site and clicked away. Yesterday when I came home, a large package was waiting for me. It helped ease the pain.

What is it about fresh, bright, shining books that makes us happy?

Here is my haul:



For many months I kept by obsession under control, and then wham...I accumulated all of the above!

here is a recent photo of Lilly

Photos of Lilly are lovely, and making me miss my dog. For that reason at least, I'm glad I'm going home from holiday tomorrow and will see him again soon!

:) even better ! now get in the pic with her and get someone else to click the pic !

You Go, Girl! Love the books! And Lilly's not so bad either!

Take care of yourself!

Linda, love the photo of Lily.... boy has she grown! *waves hello*

Love all the books and the photo of your sweet Lilly! Good for you for treating yourself to a bit of indulgence before your surgery. My thoughts and good wishes are with you as your big day draws nearer - please take care of yourself and do not over do.

Hi Linda, just dropping by to say I'm thinking of you. I love coming home to a mysterious package of books, and it looks like you picked some interesting ones! Lily has grown into a beautiful dog, she looks like she's ready to stop posing and jump off that couch.

Good Morning to all

We call Lily Harriet Potter. If you look closely you will see that the white lined marking above her nose in the middle of her face has a lightening like bolt appearance.

Today I'm heading for a nuclear stress four-five hour test at the request of my cardiologist who wants this done before surgery. He is a kind and competent man and I trust his judgment.

Now, how to walk on a treadmill when my legs are weak, my balance is off and my neck is in severe pain...this should be VERY interesting.

Genny..It is good to see you here. I am sorry to be out of touch on your thread.

Kath...what a nice thing to say, you are indeed a nice, loving person!

Happy, Happy Birthday to you today Terri!

Hi There Caro...How great to see a post from you!

Mamie...Indulgence indeed, all for a very reasonable price. That site is dangerous to me, but I have great fun when I check their prices and keep another screen open and compare them with Amazon or other places where I obtain books. The down side is that bookcloseouts.com is a warehouse like business and thus you cannot always get the book you might be searching for..that is a distinct advantage that Amazon has.

I discovered this site from a LT member back in 2008 and naturally, my book stash has grown beyond my reading capability.

Morning Judy. Yes, it is difficult for Lilly to sit still, but she is maturing nicely and isn't as hyper as she was a few months ago.

I've just marked my calendar for sending strong healthy vibes your way on the 23rd. I'll be in the dentist's chair, getting 3 cavities filled, so I'll have plenty of time to devote to it - all that drilling time is yours, lady!

Great photo of Lily (Harriet Potter), Linda! And nice book haul. If you're like me, I'm sure you're glad to be getting close to that surgery date.

Hang in there, Linda!

Sure hope the stress test went well. At least you have the lovely Lily and that terrific pile of books waiting to de-stress you on your return! What a haul!

Linda, I always love pics of Lilly, She is so precious. :) Love the book Haul too. I always love getting boxes of books in the mail.. Even though you know what you bought it is always uplifting to see that package and open it. :) I sure hope that your testing went well yesterday and I am praying for an easy surgery and a quick recovery.. {{{HUGS}}}

Morning Linda- Great shot of Lily! What a cutie! Have you read Graceling? I just finished it and it was very good. The ideal summer read. Hope the testing went well.

Mark
I haven't read Graceling but with your recommendation, I'll do so.

I await test results from yesterday. The cardiologist is none too keen about this surgery. He said he will look at yesterday's results today and call me to see if he gives the go ahead...with the understanding there is a "moderate" risk involved.

After the previous neck fusion two years ago I developed supra tackacardia and my pulse raced 180-200 many times resulting in trips to the ER via ambulance. Finally I had heart ablation surgery and haven't had tackacardia (spelling) since.

The cardiologist said "Let's hope lightening doesn't strike you twice!" I think he will reluctantly give the go ahead -- and perhaps will be in the operating room.

The stress leading up to this surgery is heavy. Last week my long-time neurologist called and strongly told me NOT to have multiple fusion. She is very much against fusion of most of my neck.

Because I like the neurologist, I then called those who know I need this, met with them and both my primary care doctor and the pain management team affirmed that it has to happen.

All confirmed that the surgeon does not rush into surgery. If he says it has to happen, then it has to happen.

In the end, I came to the decision that while I care about and respect my neurologist, I am going forward. Living with level nine pain day and night is not what I want for my life.

I'm more than ready to get this over with!

BOOK#75

The Fifth Child by Doris Lessing.

What a book! What a story! What a writer!

David and Harriett are unique individuals and different from their work group and their peers.

In their minds, finding each other equated to a perfect match.

Living a life of upper middle class in the countryside of England, they purchase a huge house, unaffordable even by their standards.

I couldn't relate to David and Harriett and the author did a great job at portraying them as selfish and self absorbed individuals who, together as a team, double the narcissistic behavior.

Expecting family to support their choices, immediately they decide to have many children. Much to the consternation of parents, relatives and friends, in rapid succession, they have four healthy children.

Finding herself pregnant with the fifth proves problematic. The child appears to battle in the womb, wearing Harriett to a frazzle.

Pounding, punching and kicking until she is bruised, the 11 pound baby is born. Child number five is antisocial, kills animals, tries to kill his brother and is consequently institutionalized.

Rescuing Ben from the institution and returning him to home is fraught with drama as Ben becomes increasingly "evil."

Lessing does an excellent job portraying a society that blames the sociopathy of the child on mother for her lack of ability to love the child, while paradoxically portraying a very unlikeable mother and father.

This is a disturbing and worthwhile read.

Oh, that does sound like a good read. Thanks for the review Linda! I'll have to see if my library has this one. :)

Just sending my best wishes for your surgery. I read The Fifth Child many years ago, but it still sticks in my mind and disturbing is the word I would use as well.

Thinking of you today as always, Linda. It's nice to hear about what kind doctors you have, who are willing to get together and discuss what is really best for you - it seems to be something I don't hear about much these days. Can only imagine the pain and anxiety you're experiencing in preparation for next week Thursday. Hugs to you! And bookcloseouts is a very dangerous place, indeed! I'll be heading over there soon to check out the titles you purchased - with such good prices (even with shipping), it's really difficult to resist a book binge.

Such difficult decisions and stress--I feel for you, my dear. Hugs!!!

Linda - nice book haul and I don't have any of them! Doris Lessing can be excellent but is a tad inconsistent. Have a lovely weekend dear lady.

The Fifth Child .. agreed, that is some book!

All I can say is that I am anxious to have this over and you on the road to recovery!

Pain level 9? I am floored and I am so, so sorry --I don't even know what to say. Continuing my prayers.

I've had The Fifth Child and Ben, in the World on my radar since I read We Need to Talk About Kevin a few years ago. That one is on my most disturbing books list (if I ever get around to making such a list :-)). Great review.

That was not a book binge, but a therapy moment and the first step in preparing for after the surgery. You've got to be well stocked to get through your recovery. Heck, it might even take a few more shopping trips. You'll be reading the rest of us to shame while healing!

I, for one, am glad just to hear that you have so many practitioners that actually care about your well being, even if they don't agree on a plan of attack.

Hi Linda, just checking in before your surgery to let you know my prayers and thoughts are on you and a quick mending process. This will work!!! Gentle hugs

Thanks to all for your good wishes.

I rec'd. word from my cardiologist that he cleared me for surgery, with some clear instructions to the surgeon and the anesthesiologist.

I was taken aback during the nuclear stress test when he told me that I had a heart attack after the previous neck fusion surgery. I never heard him use that term before. I simply thought that I had supra tachacardia numerous times which lead to a heart ablation.

Now, it is clearer to me why he wanted to be sure my heart was strong enough for multiple fusion surgery.

So, I am now moving forward to August 23rd at 1:00 p.m. for surgery. One of the stipulations is that I stay in the hospital for a longer period of time so that they can monitor my heart post surgery. I'm ok with that.

Today was a difficult day...lots of pain. I'm ready for the surgery.

There were many blessings of the day. Our puppy Lilly has opened miraculous doors! During our daily walks with Lilly, two little neighborhood girls (five and two) started to walk with us. Their parents are lovely people and we enjoy getting to know them.

Both children are hearing impaired and wear hearing aids. The older girl is very shy--she was misdiagnosed for two years and lived in a quiet world during that time. Whereas the younger girl was tested soon after birth and she is quite outgoing with an incredible sense of humor.

Increasingly Ashley (the older child) is talking more and interacting. Her speech therapist asked her mother what changed in her life in the last month and she wondered about the people Ashley is mentioning often -- Mr Will, Miss Linda and Lilly!

The therapist strongly believes that as a result of Ashley's interactions with Lilly, a sea change has occurred and a key to a locked door is now open.

It is a win/win situation since we are becoming fond of the girls and they in turn are feeling comfortable with us.

We went to a community celebration tonight with the family and what a joy it was to see "Mr. Will" sitting on the ground with Ashley as she listened to a musical group perform. At one point, she was clapping her hands and then showed Will how to clap along. It brought tears to my eyes!

Life is good!

What a sweet story!

Life is, indeed, good.

Your neurologist is to be praised for precipitating a major meeting and a clearing of the conceptual air. Level nine pain is not endurable long term and it's a testament to your sheer unadulterated meanness and vigor that you have endured so long.

But Thursday next holds out real promise for your long, long, long nightmare to recede. All of us who know you and care for you are working our energy magic to create a new reality around you, one without dark blotches of pain and red smears of sadness and frustration.

It will work. *smooch*

Lovely story - it's so nice that Lilly is giving you such a lot of happiness at a difficult period.

Lilly also enamored herself to an older couple who live across the street. When I walk Lilly she naturally stops and walks up the path of Dottie and Tom. She sits at their doorstep, gives a soft bark and then waits for them to open the door. They graciously invite her in and she then proceeds to gently leap on the lap of Dottie, who experiences many health issues.

She loves Lilly and now has a basket of toys for her. She mentions that Lilly gives her purpose and she feels better when she can be with her.

The healing power of Lilly is incredible to behold.

A visit to my local library yesterday netted these books on their .10 sale table:

You've had some great book hauls recently.

Lily sounds like a wonderful dog.

Hope that your operation goes smoothly and that you feel better very soon.

I've been woefully behind on the threads, but finally caught wind of your upcoming surgery from Caro's comments. I so hope that this time the problem is resolved for good, and you are pain free afterwards with no untoward problems or side issues. In other words, what a bummer! and good luck.

Oh Linda! Hugs my friend! Level nine pain and surgery in the offing. I hope it all goes really well! I think that you will enjoy The Unlikely Pilgramage very much. I found that I could put it down for a day or two -and not lose my way in the book, which is helpful when you have other things on your mind.

I'll be thinking about you on Thursday, Linda. I hope that you allow yourself plenty of time to recuperate, and that you don't resume daily activities or return to work too soon.

It's amazing how much comfort our furry, four legged, friends can do for our souls as you already shared with us, Linda!
Thinking of your as the day draws nearer and am very comforted with the fact that you seem to have a great team of doctors surrounding you who want to do the very best for you.
Lots of great books, now you just have to find the time to read them all! :)

What a great story about Ashley and Lilly - and you and Mr. Will! And Lilly's healing powers with Dottie.

I'm sure she'll be looking out for you. Good luck with the upcoming surgery, Linda.

Linda, those are marvelous stories about Lilly and her friends! Bring a tear to my eye, they do.

I am glad your doctors are monitoring you so carefully and second Darryl's caution about not trying to do too much too soon. We know you, you see. My prayers are added that this time really will be the solution.

The Masqueraders is one of my favorite Heyers, set in the Geogian era not long after the Bonny Prince Charley uprising. It would be a great, light recuperation read for you.

Thanks again to all for your kind wishes. I'll take them with me to the hospital and hold them in my heart.

Books purchased with a Barnes and Noble gift card from a dear friend:

Hi Linda, I just love seeing pictures of your Lily, such a sweet looking dog. I'm glad you're bolstering yourself with some book purchases as you get ready for your surgery. It'll be good for you to have many choices as you recover from this procedure. I'll have you in my prayers.

Well, whatever happened last time after surgery was the last time. It will NOT be happening again.
You have the go ahead from your cardiologist and soon the surgery will be over, and you will be able to walk Lilly with your new little friends again :) Who knows, maybe the little girls will get a dog of their own because of you.

No shenanigans this time.. just surgery, rest and home, where you will proceed to be well and pain free.. got it? Good .

Sending much positive and healing energy your way .. xo

Linda - I loved the story of Lilly's new friends. When we reach out to others, sometimes we can't imagine what it means to others, and a sweet puppy like Lilly is a great way to make those connections happen.

Wishing you all the best with your surgery. There are so many of us out here sending energy your way.

Hi Bonnie, Kath and Amy

Many thanks for stopping by here. Your kind words give courage to proceed with surgery and recovery.

Amy, how interesting that you post during a day when I am finishing a book you recommended. The Outcast was long on my tbr pile. It is a powerful book!

104: Linda, it sounds like you had a tough decision to make. Sometimes you just have to put your trust in God - and your medical advisors - and then follow what your heart tells you. I fervently hope there are no complications this time. Prayers for you and your doctors will be going out on Thursday.

That Lily sure is a cutie and a miracle worker to boot! Your new friends sound delightful. Maybe you have found some future dog walkers when the girls get a bit older.

I'm so glad you're finding a few books to keep you occupied during your recovery. I've always thought of books as wonderful medicine!

Linda, thanks for stopping by my page. Of course it would be you, with so much on your own plate! I have finally resolved my issues with the Internet and expect to be here whenever I want to be again and keeping up with your escapades! I do exactly the same thing when I am stressed. The funny part is I don't realize that I have gone on another book buying binge until I am on the way home or bringing in a box from the porch! All of a sudden I'm thinking of a way to blend the newest pile in with the rest of the books. 90% of the time I get them as free discards at the library or at sale prices. There! That is the only justification I am making! New books are good for the soul:-) Lilly is a gem! So glad you have her! :-*

Linda - sometimes the doctors and your faith system may be in contradiction and then you have to reflect and seek higher help. I'm sure that with all our positive vibes you will be right as rain on Thursday and beyond. x

I very much trust the surgeon. I know he never rushes into surgery. I know he is a kind man who is highly intelligent and a very gifted surgeon.

Unfortunately, I think I'll be looking for a new neurologist. I don't like the lack of respect shown.

After all the stress of preparation, I'm almost looking forward to going under six hours of anesthesia simply to literally put my mind at ease.

BOOK #76

The Outcast by Sadie Jones

This book packs a wallop and is definitely not for those who like soft, rosy stories.

It is a book that will haunt me for awhile...a long while.

As stated in the opening chapter, two people went into the woods for a picnic and only one returned!

When young Lewis witnesses the drowning of his mother, his life spins way out of control while his father and the upper crust social strata of 1940-1950's England encourages and foments denial.

When his father rapidly marries and Lewis' feelings are pushed further and further underground, he acts out in ways that harm himself and those around him.

This is a graphic novel -- not in the sense of cartoon like pictures -- but in the reality of stark images written at the hand of a very adept and powerfully skilled author.

Struggling to write a review about the awesome power of this book, I'll simply say it is a very compelling look at the phoniness of society. It is an incredible story of a young man struggling to find meaning in a very crazy environment.

While those around him are quite comfortable in their accouterments, lavish lifestyles, dinner parties and social status, their out-of- reality behaviors literally drive Lewis crazy!

While the adults emotionally and physically abuse their children behind closed doors, they quite comfortably drive their Rolls Royce cars out into the guilded land of la la land.

Highly recommended! Thanks to Porchreader (Amy) for recommending this back in 2008.

Five Stars

What a great review Linda! You definitely snagged me with this 5 star read so onto the WL it goes. :)

Oh Linda what a wonderful story about the girls, Lilly, you and Will. It is so wonderful that you can all share your time together and help each other. :) What an awesome blessing. Great book hauls, and I am thinking about you, praying for you and will continue to do so dear. I hope this surgery helps you. Sending {{{HUGS}}} ;)

Catching up, Linda. How lovely that Lily is as good as she is beautiful!! I love the story of Lilly and Ashley - long may their friendship flourish!
And what wonderful books have come your way!!!
I thought that The Outcast was pretty spectacular too; I see that I gave it 4½ stars and a review too.
Meanwhile, you know I'm praying!

Lilly is clearly destined to be a healer...Shelties have such a loving nature. With her, and Will, and a new stash of books, and intense healing vibes from all of us, you will sail through recovery (taking ALL the time you need, however!) and be a new woman...wait, we don't want a NEW woman, just a refurbished one, perhaps!

Love the story of Lilly and the girls - and I'm glad you enjoyed The Outcast, if that is the right word. I read it last year, and it was indeed a very powerful tale.

Thinking of you as you approach your surgery, will keep you in my prayers too.

What a wonderfully furry joy Lilly is to you and your neighbors. I say go crazy with the book-buying if you feel like it, because you'll have plenty of time to read once you are recuperating. (((HUGS)))

Liinda,

I haven't posted much this year, but I wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you. I hope all goes well. I never read a Newbery book without remembering what a great person you are. Good luck and keep us posted. I also wanted to let you know that I love the pictures of Lilly. I had a Sheltie growing up his name was Bilbo Baggins and he was a great dog. I hesitated for a long time before getting my family a dog because I was so sadden by his passing, but luckily I relented and now we have a great dog named Gidget. Dogs can do so much for a family.

Enjoyed your review of The Outcast, Linda - will get promoted from the shelves to the landing deck based on your positive comments. As with so many of the others you are very much in my thoughts this week. Your warm heartedness and compassion for others resonates throughout the threads and I firmly believe what you can only take out some of what you put in. That leaves you therefore with a long, long list of well-wishers and admirers including this one from an air-conditioned hotel room in deepest Malaysia.

Linda my dear, I'll be thinking of you more than usual this week. You've been going through such tough times and I deeply hope that this surgery will bring you the relief you so desperately need and deserve.

You've gotten lots of great books in the meanwhile, and read a few too! I've added The Fifth Child and The Outcast to the wishlist, both happily available at the library (as I'm trying to slow down my out of control book-buying!) I see you picked up quite a few Mary Hooper titles, I read my first book by her, Fallen Grace (well, listened to actually) just a few months ago based on Kerry's recommendation and really enjoyed it, so much so that I rushed to get Newes from the Dead. I'll look forward to your comments on the At the House of the Magician trilogy as wouldn't mind reading (or listening to) those either.

Love the pictures of Lilly and so glad to know she's a) calming down and being a good girl and b) enabling you to meet wonderful little girls who in turn benefit from her mere presence. Sounds like a win-win situation all around!

Sending you gentle hugs and best wishes.

Lurking here. Hugs and prayers for your upcoming surgery. I hope that it brings you relief. Beautiful picture at the top of the thread. I have a small version in my bedroom and I just love looking at it. Such a beautiful dog and she must be a wonderful companion for you.

Oh wow.. you found all those in 0.10 tables? (#128) Maybe I should look at those carts more carefully and not just breeze through..

Linda--Love the story about Lilly and your two little neighbors. You remain such a bright light in the midst of all you are going through. Sending my very best wishes on your upcoming surgery. You so deserve a break from all this! Lots of hugs and good energy wending their way to you.

Thanks to all for the lovely messages. I sit at my desk with tears in my eyes.

Today is such a pain filled day that I am more than ready for the surgery.

I'm not sure I'll have the time or energy to post before Thursday's surgery.

I want to say how very much I appreciate all of you. It means the world to be a part of such a loving, kind, considerate group!

Love to all
Linda

You take care of you, lovely Linda. We're all out here waiting for the good news that your pain levels have dropped, as we're all putting in the energy for them to do.

You and Will relax and rest up for the effort of getting better.

So sorry to hear about the pain today Linda. Here's hoping that the surgery goes smoothly and you have pain free days.

Take care of yourself and see you when you are up to it.

Just sending all good wishes for Thursday.

Will Stasia be updating us again? WE need updates!

Echoing the last four messages, Linda. Do concentrate on resting and getting through the next few days including the surgery itself, and then on getting better. If anyone can update for you on your progress, that would be great!

>137 Whisper1: I have heard too many things about this one now, off to the library I go. Thanks for the 5 star review!

And the Fifth Child you reviewed above....I liked it too. I didnt get as much of a sense as you did that the parents were terrible people. I thought more that they were busy, and bucking the 'done thing' of the times.

Oh, and....love all your recent book hauls, sounds fun!
I had Aug 23 on my brain for some reason, I knew there was something to remember for that day, and of course! It was your surgery. Still crossing fingers for you. Take care

You are penned on my big kitchen calendar that is hanging on my fridge (I live and die by this calendar). Sending you healing vibes in abundance and gentle *hugs* to let you know we are all thinking of you!

Sending you good vibes and big but gentle hugs as you prepare for your surgery, Linda. I wish they'd let Lily in the hospital to sit with you as you recover. I believe strongly she would do wonders to aid the more rapid recovery of both your spirits and in turn, your physical recuperation.

Still, you have lots of lovely books to read.

Just stopping by to say I will be praying for you tomorrow Linda and hope everything goes smoothly this time and that you get relief from the pain you've been suffering.

Thank you for sharing the wonderful stories about Lily - she sounds like a very special dog.

Hugs to you Linda, as you prepare to undergo your surgery. I pray everything goes smoothly and that you get some great relief from your pain.

Praying everything goes well tomorrow!

Thoughts and prayers with you tomorrow Linda.

Just stopping in to let you know that our thoughts and prayers are with you are you prepare for your surgery. Also praying for your surgeon and all those working with him in the operating room. Wishing you a speedy recovery and freedom from pain.

So glad you liked The Outcast, Linda! It is a powerful book, isn't it?

Healing thoughts and prayers are coming your way! I'll be thinking of you.

God speed and God bless you.

Another message of love and support for you, dear Linda! We'll be on tenterhooks until we hear for sure that all is well with you. I have great hopes that this surgery is going to do the trick!

I'll be with you in spirit tomorrow, Linda. God bless!

Linda, hoping that all goes well for you tomorrow.

Linda, I just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you. Best wishes and good thoughts and prayers.

Lilly sounds like she needs a job and you may want to check into being a Therapy Team when she's a little older and you're feeling better. It's very, very rewarding volunteer work.

Hugs to you, dear one.

hope you will feel better soon Linda..

This is the day...I hope it goes well. May your surgeon be at the peak of his skills today.

I know you're doing other things today, Linda, but my thoughts are with you traveling on super healing vibes of energy. Gentle hugs.

Linda, just want you to know I am thinking of you and praying that the surgery goes well.. Sending Healing energy your way and I cannot wait to hear how you fair. Best wishes. {{Hugs}}

I've just said a prayer for your successful surgery and recovery, Linda.

Good luck today, Linda!

Just wanted to let everyone know that Will is going to give me a call when the surgery is over and I will put a post on as soon as I can. I will be going out about 6:30PM EST but I have my cell but no internet access until later, so if I haven't posted by then, I will as soon as I get home. (I forgot what time surgery starts and 6 hours of surgery may take her past my going out time) I know we are all praying wholeheartedly that this surgery will relieve Linda of the pain that she has been suffering for a long period. We will think positive, send the positive vibes her way, and pray diligently.

Thinking of you TODAY, Linda!

Relief-from-pain *whammy* for dear Linda on her surgery day!

Just an update: Linda's surgery has been postponed until next Thursday due to a mix up the hospital. I will keep everyone posted as I know anything further.

Oh shit! Excuse me, but that's what it is!

Oh, how awful....to be all psyched up for it and then have to wait another full week with the pain...Shit is right.

Crap!

Oh no no no. Poor dear Linda, another whole week!

OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Incompetence is the very freaking devil. That is so damned wrong. Oh Linda...

(((((((((((((Linda))))))))))))))))

GGGGGRRRRRRRRrrrrrr

OH no Linda... I will keep the prayers coming.. Thinking of you dear..

Unconscionable is the word that keeps popping into my mind.

Unbelievable! I'm so sorry, Linda. I cannot imagine how angry and hurt and disappointed you are feeling right now. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing there were something that I could say or do that would make a difference. Incomprehensible.

Just dropping by to say how sorry I am that you have to wait another week

Oh no, I hate it when that happens.. :( (I had to stay at a hospital for a week longer than was necessary because of the mix up...don't think my English is that poor so that I can't understand simple directions of PCA..)

AAAAAAARRRRGGGG!

Lots of gentle hugs.

WTF? After multiple edits I'm still too ticked off to post anything another than an incoherent rant. I'm deeply sorry to hear this news, Linda; a very large and gentle hug from me as well.

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I'm so, so sorry.

Not another week! Was checking in hoping for some news of how it went, but this is not the kind of news any of us, least of all Linda, wanted to hear.
More gentle hugs to Linda, and prayers that the pain will somehow be bearable during this protracted wait.

Adding my sympathies and gentle hugs. This is just awful. Ugh.

I spoke with Linda..... she is okay, a little frustrated, but much more forgiving than I would be. She believes that there is a reason for this to have happened the way that it did. That's our Linda, though.She is planning to rest up at home for the week, and take care of herself as much as possible. I know that I for one will continue to send energy and healing her way. I am sure I won't be the only one..

So sorry to hear of the cancellation, Linda. Hope you are doing ok, sending you lots of sympathy and hugs.

Thanks for that update, Kath. We'll keep her in our thoughts and in our hearts and send positive energy her way.

You are so loved, Linda.

That is just AWFUL!! I'm glad Linda can look on the bright side though. But it's still unbelievable.

What a disappointment!
But hopefully you are reading these messages and knowing that the support for you out there is real. Take care Linda, and fingers crossed that you are scheduled soon and it goes properly this time. ((((((hugs)))))

LInda....sending the sleep fairy to bless you with a sprinkle of sleeping dust, freedom from pain, and soothing peace. You are such an angel of goodness for the rest of us, it's about time the tables were turned and you receive the blessings. Much love.

it's about time the tables were turned and you receive the blessings. Hear, hear.

So sorry to hear that the surgery is postponed, Linda!

Oh no! I'm so sorry and annoyed on your behalf to hear about the postponement Linda. Continuing to send prayers. Hope you are able to get some rest over the next week.

Just stopping in to see if there was an update on her surgery, and to hear that they postponed it?! **headdesk**

At least it sounds like you are keeping yourself in good spirits, Linda! I'll just keep sending those good vibes from yesterday right on through until next week.

(((hugs)))

It's funny isn't it that we would go to the hospital hoping against hope that it will be postponed or even better not necessary and then to be profoundly let down when it does actually get postponed.

Grit your teeth dear lady, have forbearance and things will come right. xx

Hello To All

My heart is very happy because of all the outreach. The power of love is an incredible force and to feel this is beyond words.

There are many blessings that occurred and despite the incredible frustration, I am going to focus on those.

I was prepared for the surgery. I knew it would be a rough recovery and I was/still am totally confident in the surgeon.

The weeks leading to the surgery were stress filled.

a) My long-term neurologist was very aggressive in telling me I should not have the surgery. That the surgeon was rushing into this....and many other very powerfully stated comments occured.

Because she has helped me so often in the past, and because I love this woman, it was emotionally draining to feel verbally assaulted.

b) My cardiologist rightfully had concerns regarding the fact that during the recovery from the previous neck fusion surgery I had multiple tachycardia episodes resulting in heart ablation surgery.

Thus, in order for his approval, I had to have a nuclear stress test and receive a loving, but strongly worded message that I should be sure I was absolutely willing to go through another fusion surgery. I passed the test and he agreed I could go forward with requirements he asked of the anesthesiologist. We then agreed I could go forward.

c) Because the beginning of the academic semester is happening at Lehigh, I had to frantically get things in place during my absence. This meant long days and a lot of stress.

After all the above, I was more than ready to proceed.

Yesterday, Will took me to the hospital, sat by my side as the iv line was inserted (I'm a very hard stick and the nurse was able to insert the iv on the first try...I took that as a good sign).

I was wearing the hospital gown (God, I hate those things), the blue booties on my feet, neck in level nine pain and was cushioned on blankets, listening to the rhythm of the pre operating room, I felt very emotionally prepared.

I met with the anesthesiologist and her assistant; I met a resident who was going to observe the surgery and I was literally minutes away from the injection that would put me in la la land.

The surgeon came to my beside and and humbly proceeded in a very kind, gracious, loving way to apologize profusely that his staff forgot to arrange a very important piece of equipment that he needed in the operating room in order to do the surgery. He was wearing his surgical attire and thus he too was ready to go!

With a profound sincerity and respect for my frustration, honestly, I didn't count, but I think he apologized twenty times. Thus, while I was exceedingly frustrated, I was not angry.

He is a buddhist and I am now compelled to learn more about buddhism. The nurse commented that it is highly unusual to see such humility in a surgeon.

When I returned home, once again there was a phone call stating he took personal responsibility to arrange an operating room for next Thursday; he personally made sure the equipment will be in the operating room next Thursday and he cleared his calender to operate next Thursday at 1:00 p.m.

His staff then called and apologized. While I noted I was very frustrated, it is not my style to yell and scream when situations are non intentional. They made an error and heaven knows I've made my share of mistakes in my 59 years on this planet.

I know that Dr. Flaytan most likely was firm and fair about their error. I cannot envision him having a fit. And, I very much admire his understanding and acceptance of human mistakes, while ensuring that a process is in place so this does not occur again.

I had a few minutes of a melt down after I rec'd. the calls, primarily because I needed stress release, but also because of the respect I had for the way in which the situation was handled.

And yet more blessings from this wonderful group which now propel me forward to a week of rest and reading....basking in a light that shines brightly.

Thanks to all!

You, my dear, are an inspiration, because I know for a fact that I would not have been nearly as gracious or understanding, no matter how much the doctor apologized! lol

Rest well this next week! ((hugs))

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Ditto, Linda. More hugs to you. I'm glad you had a compassionate surgeon, at least. He's a credit to Buddhism. I hope the coming days go well for you leading up to the rescheduled operation. Thanks for letting us know the story.

I see saintly qualities in you, m'dear. Reasonable explanations and profound repeated apologies notwithstanding, I couldn't take this set-back with that much equanimity. Let us hope it makes the doctor treat you like you were his own flesh and blood when the time comes!

Wow. You certainly handled this snafu with as much dignity and grace as anyone could hope for. As you said, we all make mistakes, and getting angry about someone else's mistake does little good. I hope that you have a restful week ahead, beginning of the term or not, and that you are mentally and spiritually prepared for next Thursday's surgery.

Wow a surgeon who is a human being too. I'm glad that next week everything will be perfect for you. Hugs and I admire your patience. I think that I would have been less than gracious.

You have such a wonderful attitude and an even greater perspective on life. You deserve to have a caring and compassionate surgeon. Despite the mistake, it sounds like you are in good hands, Linda. Continual thoughts and prayers are being sent your way.

Wow. Good for you and for your surgeon in handling the situation as you both did! Will, of course, continue to send good, pain-free vibes your way, Linda.