André Aciman

What is the difference between the lover and beloved, the watcher and the one watched? In his story of Eros and education the author, Andre Aciman, considers these questions and with his narrative demonstrates the answers. With emphasis on the erotic, he has created an almost Proustian meditation on time and desire, a love letter, an invocation in words that one must call simply "beautiful". His novel, Call Me by Your Name, is a wonderful tale whose dream-like qualities continually evoke the show more narrator's obscure object of desire which is, by definition, inexpiable, and indeterminate. The story is one of a young man, Elio, and a slightly older man, Oliver, for whom Elio obsesses with a passion that is filled with Mediterranean fire, yet mediated by a classical patina not unlike that suggested in the less accurate translations of Plato's dialogues. For further details of the story I recommend you read the book, not because it is banal but rather because it is too beautiful to risk spoiling.

This book constantly reminded me that it was fiction - the product of an imagination able to create an unreal dream world - yet I did not mind because it was simply, joyously readable. I was both entranced and intrigued by the narrator, whose name is withheld for much of the novel, but this is because, as the title implies, he is entranced and intrigued himself by his family's summer guest, Oliver, who seems to be nothing less than a Greek god. The subtle allusions to poetry and philosophy, the music of the senses, add to the magnificence of this short novel. Perhaps it will not effect everyone the same as it did me, but for those who appreciate the classical source of beauty this is a novel that ranks with Mann and Gide in its glistening presence. show less

I think this is a beautiful book about love, coming of age, and finding yourself. I think the movie was a really true and honest adaptation. I do not, however, think it’s an anomaly of the genre.

Call Me By Your Name centers on Elio, a 17-year-old who falls for a graduate student that has come to stay with Elio’s family in Italy for the summer. It is a true exploration and discovery for Elio and the relationship that blooms between the two is beautiful and poignant. The writing is poetic show more and endearing. I truly felt all of Elio’s hesitance and emotion on each page. I think this book bridges a gap in young adult and adult literature. Elio is still young enough to be a YA character, but his relationship is so much more intense and mature, that I think this book can satisfy both audiences.

I enjoyed this book and it has earned a lot of its praise, but I hope that the worldwide enjoyment of this story pushes more readers to pick up other LGBTQ+ novels. Love is such a universal desire, I feel most of us could be limiting ourselves by gravitating towards stories that echo only our own experiences. show less

“We are not written for one instrument alone.”

Do you remember longing for something, someone (“Intoxicated rapture” and “The twisted skein of desire”), while worrying about the implications? Fear of rejection - and of acceptance? I do.

This is an achingly slow, beautiful, microscopic analysis of the glittering facets of identity. They’re painfully and joyously revealed during the fluctuating and confusing experiences of late adolescence.

Hunger and fear. “I loved the show more fear.” Desire and shame. Shame that becomes a route to total intimacy.

The emotions are universal, if not the specific permutations and situations. If that were not possible, genres like fantasy and murder mysteries could not succeed.

Know Yourself

Perhaps the most important task of adolescence is to understand oneself. Only then can one truly begin to understand others.

Oliver, at 24, seems very sure of himself - and everyone else. The impetus of the story is 17-year old Elio’s struggle to achieve the same, occasionally aided by the tactful, understated empathy of his father.
“If there is pain, nurse it, and if there is a flame, don’t snuff it out.”
(His mother is almost irrelevant.)

Hiders

“People who read are hiders. They hide who they are. People who hide don’t always like who they are.”

I hide in books. I expect many GoodReaders do. But it’s not because I dislike myself (though there’s room for self-improvement). It’s an escape from ordinary me, in ordinary life. Books are safe spaces where I can confront the truth. By hiding in books, I can learn about the world, and about myself.

Photo: fortune cookie “To truly find yourself you should play hide and seek alone.”

Unity

“Having someone’s body to touch and being that someone we’re longing to touch are one and the same, just opposite banks on a river that passes from us to them… This perpetual circuit where the chambers of the heart, like the trapdoors of desire, and the wormholes of time, and the false-bottomed drawer we call identity share a beguiling logic according to which the shortest distance between real life and the life unlived, between who we are and what we want, is a twisted staircase designed with the impish cruelty of MC Escher.”

The deepest intimacy of all is when two become one, where each can call the other by caller’s name.
“Is it your body that I want… or do I want to slip into it and own it as if it were my own?”

Where that one becomes many: brother, friend, father, son, husband, lover, self. Thence comes self-knowledge.
“He was my secret conduit to myself.”

Exquisite, intimate, poignant. Peaches and feet feature notably, separately, sexually.

Duality

We seek unity, and we have one life and one body, but most of us live as if we have two: “one is the mockup and the other is the finished version”.

The job of poetry and wine is “to help us see double”. Is that a good thing?

Fluidity

"Bakers and butchers don't compete."

Because Elio and Oliver sail on open waters of identity and sexuality, there’s no need for labels, no need to be bisexual or male to relate to them. Their unstated (at the time) bond of shared secular Judaism was more elusive to me.

Sexuality is a spectrum; some move along it, while others stick at one point on it. Personality, behaviour, or circumstances?

This article explains, “same-sex relations were viewed in pre-modern times as merely a predilection or practice, whereas during the 19th century they came to be considered an innate nature, an identity” and "rather than a hetero/homosexual dichotomy, the two sexualities are defined by penetrating and being penetrated."

Gender can be fluid, too. A peripheral character had formative experiences in Thailand, and was picked up by a ladyboy.

Gay Romance

Don’t let the book blurb or film trailer let you think this is a gay romance (not that there’s anything wrong with them, but this is not one).

My first impressions were about the importance of first impressions in setting our path, our fate. I experienced the “promises of instant affinities” from the first page, and that held firm beyond the last page.

It’s a bildungsroman told by a middle-aged man looking back to a summer in the mid 1980s, when he was 17: a boy who liked girls and was struck by a passion for a slightly older man who also liked girls. Oliver was staying with Elio's family in Italy for six weeks: that year's promising grad student. The setting is a lush and elemental component of the story. It could not have happened the same way in the US or UK.

Elio dips in and out of his memories, showing how his typical teen uncertainty, coupled with his atypical academic and self-analytical approach, affect them both, throughout their lives. Just as he imagined:
"Two young men who found much happiness for a few weeks and lived the remainder of their lives dipping cotton swabs into that bowl of happiness, fearing they’d use it up, without daring to drink more than a thimbleful on ritual anniversaries."

It’s not clear who he’s telling the story to or why. He refers to the diary he kept at the time, but he observes “I’d written it down in my diary but omitted to say I had dreamt it. I wanted to come back years later and believe, if only for a moment.” He remembers “‘repeat’ moments”, but not necessarily the sequence.

By the end, I wondered how relevant it was that Elio and Oliver were both male, rather as I did with Brokeback Mountain (see my review HERE) and the dwarfism of the lead character in the film The Station Agent. Here, the taboo, inasmuch as there is one, is Elio’s youth, the age gap, and Oliver’s position as guest.

Consent

“Does this make you happy?” and “You sure you want this?” and “Can I kiss you?”

Consent is of recurring importance here. Ten years after it was published, it is topical in the aftermath of Harvey Weinstein and #MeToo. But as in real life, sometimes the messages are mixed:

“Please, don’t hurt me, which meant, Hurt me all you want.”

Later

“I’d lodged him in the permanent past, my pluperfect lover.”

We learn something of Oliver’s life decades hence, but almost nothing of Elio’s. That balances the fact that for most of the book we know every nuance of Elio’s thoughts, but can only infer Oliver’s.

Quotes

• “The promise of so much bliss hovering a fingertip away.”

• “The soft wind training exhalations from our garden up the stairs to my bedroom.”

• “Awakened by the rich brown cloistral scent of coffee.”

• “There are certain wishes that must be clipped like wings off a thriving butterfly.”

• “What startles virgins on being touched for the first time by the person they desire: he stirs nerves in them they never knew existed and that produce far, far more disturbing pleasures than they are used to on their own.”

• “Wanting to test desire is nothing more than a ruse to get what we want without admitting that we want it.”

• “The kind of lovemaking that can run circles round time.”

• “Scrambling for something to say, the way a fish struggles for water in a muddied pond that’s fast drying up in the heat.”

• “Unreal and sticky goblin lanes that seemed to lead to a different, nether realm you entered in a state of stupor and wonderment.”

• “I intentionally failed to drop breadcrumbs for my return journey; instead, I ate them.”

• “By not planning to keep things alive, we were avoiding the prospect that they might ever die.”

• “We were eloping together with return-trip tickets to different destinations.”

• “That summer, our lives had scarcely touched, but we had crossed to the other bank… We had found the stars… And this is given only once.”

UPDATE re Film

I've just seen the film, and unlike many GR fans of the book, I was very disappointed.

• It looks gorgeous: Italian sun and scenery, and some subtly clever cinematography, particularly with the relative positioning of characters in the scene.

• It sounds good, too, which matters, given the importance of music in the story, especially Elio.

• Whereas the recent adaptation of On Chesil Beach added a significant postscript to the story that changed the meaning of the main story (see my review here), this omitted the rather pointless postscript of the book.

But:

• I didn't feel the warmth, let alone the passion. I didn't believe the characters, let alone their relationship.

• It felt somehow prurient in a way the book did not, but that may just be me.

• The father was creepy, rather than empathetic.

• A seminal trip was to beautiful countryside, rather than Rome. Why?

Film details on imdb here. show less

This flayed me apart. Multiple times I cried, hit my thighs, asking why, oh why?

I put this off for a couple years because I thought it was going to break my heart, and I was right. I hate the first section of this book and the last section, but throughout it all, it was so beautiful, the writing was so nostalgic and scattered (in time and memory) and evocative of what being a teenager in love and beginning to bloom into life is like, especially with the one person who will ever get you show more completely and share every piece of your body with you, and become you while you become him.

God, the run-on sentences, the intellectual writing, the fumbling attitudes and parries, the sweeping beautiful scenes and soaking emotions, how the information of names and time are trickled in bit by bit, so you aren't even sure what decade the book is set in until half way through...

This book was a dream, a literary oasis of music, thought, touch, truth, beauty, pain, horror, and heartbreak that you never recover from. It tells of how time goes on, but some experiences change your reality and never vacate your heart. This was wordy and full to overflowing with experiences. Mr. André Aciman is a wonderous writer, and I felt completely dropped into this time and place. So many choices were not what I would have made, but I completely, even though I am still mad, give them their story.

My kindle book said the average reading time was under four hours...it took me about eleven, because I was transfixed, feeling every paragraph with my fingertips, highlighting too many words, and rereading to get at a deeper meaning. I stayed up well past sunrise and into midmorning, because I couldn't bear to split this up into a two-night read.

I am heartbroken and angry, my neck is lots of pain every time I try to move it, and I really need a shower and some sleep, but I do not regret being transported to their world for a little while. This reinforced why I do not read books with sad endings, but I am glad I plucked up my courage to live this story and bask in the joy of life. I am going to pretend they stayed happy instead of slipping into their "comas" and got back together, quickly, or I am going to only think of the first three sections. However I do it, this story has indelibly marked me. So, Mr. Aciman, I hate you very much for killing my heart (why not rip it out and wrap it in a billowy shirt?) and making them suffer without respite (why would you give them everything just to take it away?), but thank you very much for gifting us with this grand work of art.

...Two days later and I still think of their story all the time, so many things remind me, and my stomach will still suddenly hurt from sadness when I recall this scene or that. This story affects me more than any other has. I am sad, but I am also so deeply angry. They had it all, were the deepest and rarest of couples, but then neither of them fought for each other; one chose another path, and the other just let him. And, there were hinted possibilities as to why, sure, but they had acceptance, could have chosen each other...instead after the most intimate time they just let each other go. Was it fear, the intensity of heir connection, their differences, taking the path of least resistance? But then fifteen, then twenty years later neither had moved on emotionally, were still and forever would be remembering and holding on to those few short weeks, and they regretted the choices made that ended their being together all those years ago. That is why I am sad and angry. Even after all the foreshadowing, I had hope because there was no reason to lose it. Until they just both gave their relationship up without a fight. I will never accept that. I think that's the only imperfect thing for me about this story. That they didn't need to, but still did. It hurts too much. "Fenesta Ca Lucive" sung by Roberto Murolo understands it all. show less